The Ferris Wheel Of Your Life...

Hiiiii~ AGAIN!

It's been almost a week since i last updated, so i decided to update again now.. perhaps._.

anyway.... this one mighty entry is random, seriously....

Well, i mean, it's more like what i've been thinking of.. or things on my mind?:/

Anyway, let's just get started:)

So FOLKS, have you ever felt that u think u don't have a talent on anything? or like ur not good at even ONE single thing? Well, i hav:) a loooooooot of times fyi...

Indeed, sometimes i feel worthless n needless to say, i kinda have a loser-like-mental.. #ouch

But it's true tho! I sometimes gave up first before even trying... i also think that i'm not really capable of doing something extraordinary, except for the future tho... hihihihi but it's just one of my impossible dreams:)

SeE? i'm being pessimistic, AGAIN.

Well, how can i not think this way? i'm not really good at both studying or sport, i'm really slow at understanding things, i'm kindaaaaaa deaf, i'm slow n well, let's just say etc.....

It's like, i haven't found my speciality yet or something.___.

n yeah, i feel kinda worthless because of this...

Indeed i know that this is wrong... i shouldn't be this way... I mean, maybe i got other good things about myself, which i dun even know what it is...

But eventho i didn't realize it, it doesn't mean that other people don't rite?;;)

N also, this entry was inspired by today actually:p

since well.....

today i had the mighty biology test... n well, i didn't really screw up i think?:) but i still dunno... things can happen anyway...

BUTT that's not the main point~!

We also had this mighty speaking test which was about introducing urself n blablabla..

it's in B.I. btw.....

n as i expected! i screwed up again my fellow readers!!

i couldn't remember wat shud i say, i was super nervous, n it was super awkward.. talking about urself in front of the class=0= n there was lots of laughter.....== super embarrassing, seriously..

n well, i overall think that others did much better den me... like MUCH BETTER...

why is this expected again?

well, this is because of my super laziness fellas! on sunday, i watched "SOUL EATER" for the whole day then i studied biology for like, an hour only== #sighing

there's something wrong with me definitely... hihihihihi

Butt den the UNXPECTED thing happened...

When the teacher informed us about our marks, truthfully, i didn't really wanna hear it ...

cuz i know i screwed up so bad...== n it'd be xtremely embarrassing to have d lowest mark in d class... just like wat i did in chemistry:( #istillhatethatsubbtw

N WOW...

apparently i got the highest mark._____.

i dun mean to b arrogant, but i just couldn't believe it...

i dun know if the teacher actually felt sorry for me or something==

OR

maybe there's still something good about me after all...

n on that moment, well, i was grateful, really grateful... for my only God...

for making me this way...

i'm not exactly perfect, i knw that perfectly... but i still have something tho... i have something good about myself... n that really makes me feel happier about today:) #n it's not like i was also sad today anyway haha

this also made me realize that maybe i am capable of doing awesome great things like i want to, but i just have to try n do my best!:)) #this sounds so cliche

Ah, b4 i end tis entry, let me tell u a bit about my school life too:)

i've been meaning to say this but it's just kinda weird for me to say this but, I MISS MY BUDS==

i miss my crowded class, i miss the noisiness, i miss the fun atmosphere, i miss everything...

I dun mean to complain tho... cuz this is totally normal #ithink

i mean, i used to have these many people around d class n i was able to talk to so many people...

n well, it's kinda diff now:(

i'm kinda/prettyyy sad about this, but life must goonnnnn #sighing

But it doesn't mean that i dun enjoy my class now...

let's just say that i have adapted;;) n a good thing about having only 5 people in the class? i could joke around again n again w/ the teachers... eventho it was kindaaaa weirdly funnyLOL

butt i still miss my pals:"((( #sighing

i'm seriously sighing wayyyy to often... well, life has probs n that's wht makes it beautiful!~#singinglalala #WTFFF

k den, i gotta go now....

i got a math test tom n i think i'm gonna fail:D #PESSIMISTICAGAINHAHA

but i'm gonna do my best tho:") Wish me luckkk<3

i'm gonna go for real now!

Ciaosuuuu~!!!!