Novak Djokovic is the man of the match!!!!

this is gonna be very short and quick cuz i gotta sleep soon so i'll just start anyway.

soo, tonight i was watching this match, men singles c

hampionship n yeah, it was tennis. IT WAS VERY NERVEWRECKING N HEARTPOUNDING!!

anyway, my beloved Djokovic was in the match versus Rafael Nad

al.

They were both great so i didn't really know who will eventually win because their skills are pretty much equal.

n i watched the game with full of passion, screaming n yelling,

n sounding n jumping and you know, all those crazy stuffs:D

i was also KINDA studying chemistry for the whol

e time. n it kinda weirdly worked out?

soooo finally, after facing each other for almost 6 hours nonstop!!!!

NOVAK DJOKOVIC BECAME THE WINNER!!!!!!!!

i was so friggin relieved and happy

butt my brother n sister was the opposite of me because they support Nadal.

But i want Djokovic to win and guess wat? HE TOTALLY DID!

this is a pic a super awesome Novak holding his new tropy:D so proud of him~~~

alrighty, i got to stop writing cuz i got a crazy QT1 tom, n it's the terrifying chemistryTT

i hope i can do well and i'll definitely do lots of praying and studying this week....

WISH ME LUCK!!!

Ciaosuuu~!

Voilà~! Celebration n Tiresome!

WOOHOO! i'm writing again today! mwahhahahaa

Anyway, today's entry is all about yesterday which was my weird sweet bday party:D

OVERALL, i just wanna say thanks to all people who came n gave me these awesome presents.. so let's just get started:p

ok soo @ 4.30 i arrived @ glosis wid my mom, N FYI, i hadn't put my dress on because there was no time!:) anway, while i was putting my dress on, OD came. First guest!

Then my mom took some pics of me which was weirdly embarassing and thank GOD paddy came. so when there were two of my friends already, i won't take any pics anylonger:) *evil daughter

So after pady came, people were starting to show up. I was pretty much relieved and @ 6, almost all people had come:D

BUTT something was kinda pissing me off because no matter how many times i told people to sit and order something, they didn't listen to me and kept standing n talking==

a.n.y.w.a.y

everything well went after that...

i ate good stuffs and also on that night, i felt like i was a famous person or something. i mean, people kept asking for a photograph wid me! which made me felt pretty good about myself and busy at the same time. and it was very tiring in the end==

this is wat i ate yesterday btw... it was too salty but delicious:D

moving on...

so when it was time to blow the candle n stuff, it was pretty weird i must say. at one moment everyone was like singing n i was blowing d candle n there were clapping everywhere. then the cake was taken to be cut *so people can eat em* and the activity changed into opening presents!LOL

there were some presents that pissed me off, like it was wrapped beautifully on the inside, but on the inside, THERE WERE HORRIBLE ROCKS, GINGER DRINKS, MILK 4 losing weight, A GIANT ORANGE N SOME WEIRD BOTTLES==

those stuffs were crazy...

but then i started opening other presents which had the REAL present in it.

then finally d final moment came. n i was about to open another present that had a shape like a guitar. i was frustrated n tired so i wouldn't really think that it was a guitar. i thought it was gonna b another rock n stuffs==

but guess wat?

my prediction was all wrong N I GOT A NEW F*CK*NG GUITAR~~~~~~~@!!!

truth: i was so touched, surprised n happy. it was like d best present i'd ever gotten in my lifeeeeee~~!! and u knw wat's even better? the guitar smelled so good and it was soooo friggin smoothLOL everyone took a lot of pics with it!!

another shocking moment:

finally me n my friends were able to convince my fren T and Jeff to took a pic together!! DAMN~ they looked good together!!! i really wish that this couple could be a real couple in the next couple of months!

@ homeeee...

finally i was home. i was worn out and just sleepy. but it didn't make me stop ripping off the presents!!! n yeah, my room was a total mess after opening those presents. butt i really enjoy that moment too because it was just.... enjoyable? *not making any sense*

anway, i got great presents and THANK YOU AGAIN SO MUCH 4 ALL MY FRIENDS WHO HAD COME AND GIVE ME THESE AWESOME PRESENTS!

I REALLY"""""" APPRECIATE EM ALL!!

ok, i gotta change to the next new entry, about something super amazing that just happened.. so bye!

Austalian open, bday party n a concert:D

I'm officially back from the doomyess of a stupid building called my school:D

it's finally weekend n wat's even better? i'm gonna hv my bday party tom!!!

n yes, of course i'm excited:p

So, let's start with the first topic of the entry!

this evening, i was home @ 3 n i got like nothing to do at all... so i just kinda watched stuffs on tv, even if they were boring==

n @ around 4.30, there was a tennis match, a semifinal men single to be specific AND the ones who were playing were Djokovic n Murray!!! DamnnnN!!~ i was excited n worried @ the same time.. but after a few mins watching the game, i thought Djokovic was gonna win so i was relieved n i changed the tv channel:)

n when it was 8 p.m., i found that my bro was watching a tennis match n i thought it was the recap of the match in the evening but IT WAS NOT! tennis players are so awesome. They were able to play for the entire 4 n a half hours!!! Dang they'r good.

What's more shocking? I was so surprised when i saw the score bcause both players had won 2 sets... which means that when one of em wins, it's d end den==

I was watching it like a crazy prson. as usual, i cheered on the television like an idiot==

BUTT because of my hardworking effort, Djokovic finally won!!!!!! i was jumping n screaming like i was mad or something, but really, i was so happy for him n i still am:")))*i kinda got a crush on him last year, when he beat Nadal n became the champion*

NEXT

so my friend Y n i was talking about a concert of HSJ in Thailand about some weeks ago:D n today we talked about it again n i decided that i would join her to go to Thailand if she went 4 the concert!!

YIPPIEE! how can i say no when it comes to go out of the country n watch a concert of japanese people???? Damn i'm so excited!!!!!!

Butt, for her to be able to go, she needed to asked his dad n begged him so that she could go:DD

so i'm just praying now so that her father would allow her to go>u<

ANOTHER GUD NEWS

I finally was able to copy the pics from singapore to my lappie*w* and that's why at sometimes later, i'll post an entry about my super trip to singapore wid my frens:DDDDDD

i guess i'll make this entry short cuz i'm tired n i hv to get up early tom==

so bye?

CiaosuuuuU~!

*too lazy 4 d quote*

Older by a year:D

First of all, i just wanna say, HAPPY BDAY TO ME!!!!!! hahahahaha

alrighty, let's get this started...

ehem, anyway today i wasn't supposed to make an entry, butt since today's special, so i guess i have to make an exception:))

First of all *again*, i wanna thank all my friends who greeted me cheerfully in the morning. It totally changed my sleepy tired mood back den:D i even enjoyed it soo much in a weird way:))

I guess this year's bday is fun:DDD I'm actually happy u see:P

WHY DID I FEEL DAT WAY? bcuz i managed to make a person happy today, i was able to talk sooo much during d sessions *i know this was wrong but i just can't help it* -> stupid reason

n this was d first time in my life dat soooooo many people handshake meeeee, i feel like a famous person or something *I WISH*

ssooo,,,,

eventhough the sessions in the church took so longgg, it actually didn't feel that way to me! why? because i was too busy arranging stuff about my bday party! *agaaainn*

anyway i then decided to invite more people, which have around 60 people or something??

i know it's a lot, but i can't help but just felt bad for the nice people who i didn't invite== so d invitation was remade *because d destination of the restaurant changed* and i made another 30 copies...

n u know wat's worse? It's gonna be somehow awkward and embarrassing to tell people that i changed d restaurant=-=" so i hope tom's gonna be gooddddd:3

moving onnnn...

So i'm still excited for saturday but also worried again== because the terrifying horrible QUARTER TEST IS APPROACHING NEXT WEEK:"(((

i'm kinda or very stressed out hearing this out because i told myself that i would be more diligent but by the way i'm acting now, it's kind of impossible==really..

NNNNN, yesterday, i played sims 3 n guess wat? it turned out to be very interestingly awesome... officially addicted dude! but i still manage to handle my urge to play that stupid game...... *actually, it's because my bro is on d computer for the whole day*

ok, i got a stupid physics test tom, so yeah... I'M SUPER WORRIED

so i'm just gonna pray hard n study again in the morning, hoping that i will be able to get a good score for the test... wish me luck!

and that's also why i have to go to sleep nowww:"(

n i have a quote today!:

"Bday only happens once in a year, so you better rock it before you miss it!"

I don't really understand what the quote means, but whocares anyway:D

last thing! I LOVE CHARLIE MCDONNELL'S NEW SINGLE "TIME TO REPLY", it's addicting!!

i'm taking off now!!!

Ciaosuuuu~!!

New Year in Other Version.*u*

恭喜发财！新年快乐！万事如意！

alrite, first of all, i don't understand what i just wrote, but they all mean "Happy Lunar New Year!" *i guess*

so, starting with today's entry... i just wanna wish everyone good luck in this new year n i hope happiness will always b wid you:) *this really came from my heart!jk*butt for real.

i must say, this new year is not as amusing as last years'.. a lot of things happened n i can't really write in detailed because these things r personal:p *gomenasai*

but my point is that i've been sad for these 2 days.. n not for stupid reason like i usually did, i mean, this thing is real:(

alrite, moving on....

Lately, i've noticed that i'm a jerk, i know.. but i have changed, even if it's only a little, but it matters!

I've be able to KINDA control my temper, not doing watever i want n so on, then i notice my brother who's in junior high school have become even annoying den ever.

WTF is wrong wid him? I've always ended being pissed off after talking with him, with the feeling of slaughtering him to pieces! *sorry 4 d violent act*

I mean, he can be nice sometimes but most of the times, he's an *ssh*l*

Sorry 4 being so rude to my OWN STUPID DUMB IDIOTIC lil brother, butt i'm soo mad n pissed at him right now.

i guess the reason that i'm this mad is pretty stupid. you see, our computer at home was upgraded a few days ago, so we kinda can install all kinds of games we want *much bigger memory space*

so let's get to the point

MY OWN STUPID DUMB IDIOTIC lil brother acts as if he owns the F*CK*NG computer, WTFFF??? he doesn't own it, it's our family's!! which means i can also use it!!!!!

butt since i already have a laptop, i can't really say anything...==

but i'm still thankful 4 having this laptop because i love this things so much<3

A.N.Y.W.A.Y

really, teenage boy, like my brother is MAD. he thinks that he's always rite n watsoever, makes me want to punch him in d face n sometimes even ************************ -> because it's too violent, it's being censored.

really, i wish that one day, i could say F*CK U! to his face... maybe it'll definitely make me feel much better.

so listen all big sis who has a younger brother. Be aware of your brother because in the times when he grew up, he's always gonna annoy u like hell n not to mention acting like an INSANE person the whole time.but perhaps if you're lucky, your brother wouldn't turn out to be this way.

okeeey, i guess that's all 4 the angry post:D i'm tired of being angry anyway...

i guess i'll just have to wait for the right time to play simsT.T

dat's all 4 today n no quote because i'm furious>:<

Ciaosuuuu~!

Farewell???._.

this entry is a bit sad n this is about life:( *wtf r u wrting about?*

so this really sad thing happened yesterday.. you see, one of my classmate is gonna move to other school and yesterday was his last day of school...:"( a lot of people were crying yesterday.. but i didn't:) *such a cold hearted girl*

the class's atmosphere even changed after he started saying about him, transferring to other school. it became quiet somehow.. especially the girls...

butt boys as usual, as insensitive ever, kept goofing around after all that'd happened.. but i guess they also felt sad deep inside their heart huh? *such a b*llsh*t*

butt i was also unsympathetic n insensitive you see, when he came to T,O,V n me, we were like the worst people all time== i even laughed FGS!!! i thought nothing was serious n all, but i was so wrong i saw him n his friend cried on d desk behind:"((((((

plus, i've no idea how to comfort a sad person... i'm alwys speecheless because i don't know what to say or to do to make the person betterT.T i suck.....

well you see, i feel sad for him, eventhough we're not that close, but he's still my friend n one of the nicest guy in the class...:"(((((

anway, the way to express sadness is not always by crying.. *i'm just saying this so i wouldn't look that badLOL*

hmmm, i just wish him all good luck n i hope he'll b able to do his best in his new school... being in different school doesn't mean the end of everything anyway:))

so iguess dat's all i wanna say 4 today...:p

finally! quote 4 today:

"being apart doesn't mean the friendship is gone"

sorry if it's weird but i hope it's influential!! ?

this is d final gud bye!

CiaosuuuU~!

Another ordinary dumb day:)

*panting hard*

I'm sorry 4 the very weird welcome greeting, i just wanna say that i'm super super tired because i've just ran through the entire house complex... n yeah, sweats r drippin everywhere TEEHEE

but this is my first time running n become this tired== so yeah, it's cool:D

anways, today n yesterday was all about buying things for my bday!! i'm pretty much excited you see.. hehehe

so yesterday my mom n i were kinda searching for black formal shoes or maybe called stiletto? n i was finally able to find one today @ iP!:D

Butt, the most exciting part about yesterday was about macaroons!!!!!

who hates this fragile sweet thing anyway? i mean, it's super tiny, kinda crunchy, colorful n also xtremely delicious for all sweet lovers<3

BUTT again, because these things r soooo expensive, i was only capable of buying 2 of em:(

BUTT they were sooo goood dat i felt something was melting on my mouth the moment i ate those:")))

actually, there were other things that i wanna write today, butt since i'm tired n somehow sleepy now, i decided to make this short:D

anwayyyy *again*, i'm going to BSM today... hoping that i cud eat these things again! n perhaps shopping?? *fyi: i've officially become a girl who likes to shop.. since singaporeeee==

okei, i'm taking off now! n no quote again 4 today... *i'm getting lazier n lazier these days*

CiaosuuuU!~

A week has passed by:O

A week is a lot of days, really... there r some moments i wanna tell now... so be prepared...

Warning: donot laugh til u choke or donot get urself b amazed by my super awesome cool blog:)

let's just start anyway...:DDD

1. you see, 2 days ago, which is Tuesday and also the busiest day EVA? * i got biology test n tons of hws* i, myself had not succeeded making an omelette rice!!!!LOL the egg was brown n the rice tasted like ketchup. not even salty or sweet!! how awesome is that? anyway, hold up you drools friends! cuz ur about to be WOW-ed by my super awesome cooking skillLOL
   
2. This happened on Tuesday too actually, when i was in my extracurricular activity which was the PDA.. *some kind of debating club* why did i write about this? well, that's a clever question! this was because on that very day, i, officially humiliated myself in front of othersT^T so, when it was my turn to speak in the front, i was speechless. i was able to talk about one topic which was ridiculous n totally out of the content.. but after that was even worse... i stayed silent for the next 2 mins._. even my friends had tried to helep me by whispering things i cudn't even hear== soooo embarrassing==
3. My stupid report card was finally given to me on WEDNESDAY... *sigh* n as i predicted, the result was horrible.. to tell the truth, i was actually pissed @ myself for not able achieving higher marks, but u see, i'd done my best n i only got those.. so i guess i just have to work even harder to fulfill my stupidly high expectation!!!!
4. i don't even know how to say this, well, i have to admit it's kind of stupid actually:D alrighty, this "thing" happened this afternoon in the chemistry lab:3 me, T n O were doing some experiment called Molarity or something? anyway, i didn't really understand what was the experiment about, so i just went on like that== n here was the stupid thing: in the experiment, we needed to use a pipette to suck a solution *forgot what it is* so T was the one who sucked it=p anywayy, because i found it kinda interesting n fun so i decided to try.. then the crazy thing finally happened!!!! because i was not a patient person *n i still am*, i sucked the pipette too hard n the stupid acid solution got into my mouth!!!!! dangdangdang... how disgusting n idiotic was that?? i immediately ran to the water tap to do some mouthwashing== here's a funny fact: when the water was in my mouth, it actually tasted sweet!!!!! how weird is dat huh???ROFL n yeah, my friends, who were so evil n didn't even bother to helep me, laughed soo hard! what kind of friends r they?LOLjkjk so, after all that'd happened, here i know, claimed pipette as a dangerous apparatus to be used:D
5. TOday, i finally succeeded to distribute d invitation for my bday to my classmates n some of my close friends who were not in the same class!:D it was kind of embarassing, but i still managed to do it:"))
6. alrighty, so today was also the day i got my math course in the evening. soo, there were 4 of us, including the teacher. as usual, one of my friends, R usually joked around by acting gayish, *by saying he liked my teacher n somthing like dat* which was hilarious n made me laugh all d time;) anyway, so when my teacher was teaching us about trigonometry, which i hate so much n super confusing, there was a term called "asymptote". we didn't know what was the right way to say it so my teacher n us decided to search it on google translate. so google translate works by translating words basically, so when he clicked the speaker button *in the english version*, we laughed because the voice was funny. and wat was even more crazily hilarious was when he clicked the speaker button for the indonesian language. o.m.g, it just sounded sooo stupid that all of us laughed so hard * i almost cried because it was too funny*ROFL.. google translate, you're super awesome!
7. on my way home from the course, then i saw d most amazing thing ever! there was a huge n xtremely beautiful rainbow in the sky! it totally wow-ed me til i can't stop looking @ it.. here's a pic of the "beautiful" rainbow:DDDDD *because of the rainbow too, the sky was still so bright @ 6 p.m

soo, in conclusion, today turned out to be a super fine day huh? eventhough i was sooo 'pundung' in the morning:D *this was caused by the very stupid hw for CB=.=

ok then, i'm sick of writing so i'm gonna stop now.. hehe

p.s. i'm sorry if today's entry is boring, but i just wanna share my happiness today:P

dat's all for today cuz i'm starving!

See yall later! CiaosuuUU!!

n also noquote 4 todayyyyyyy!

I'm in Lovee~~

It's been a long time hehe sorry for being so lazy to update this blog:)

anyway! today's entry is gonna be about a super awesome manga review!!! n d manga is:...

called.....

wait 4 it....

OBORERU KNIFE !!!>.< by George Asakura

Let me remind you first, this manga is not a typical shoujo manga! it's very confusing, intense, exciting, super sweet and also makes you want to read more again n again!

Here's d summary:

A beautiful and mature sixth grade girl from Tokyo suddenly has to move out to the country side of Japan with her family. The girl, Natsume, then meets a boy and from then on she begins to feel 'something' in her body, like a surging wave....

My Opinion:

i think the story is great, the characters are amazing and the artwork is just simply stunning! because of this manga, here now i claim George Asakura as one of the greatest author i've ever known!LOL

n you know what's even better? The story is intense, which makes you want to keep reading and keep wondering what'll happen next..

There are some sad moments, happy, sweet and even moving moments:))))))

Wat i think about the charas:

Natsume

WOW, this girl is just so pretty but eventhough she's perfect at almost everything, she still has her own struggles. Plus, she's not like one of those protagonist that you'll easily find in shoujo mangas because she's super awesome * i think *

Koichiro

He's a bit strange, i have to admit. i don't really understand his actions, especially towards Natsume. n i personally think that he's always been in love with natsume.. *spoiler contained: so why let her go???*

anyway, at volume 4-6/7 i hated him so much:) i thought that Natsume should just be with Otomo. Butt, at some point of the chapters after that, i actually felt bad for him. n then i found myself liking him for the next few days:D Til now of course!!!<3333333333 natsumexko 4evaaaTuT

Otomo

He's just a typical guy with a good looking faceTEehEE:) and what makes him special? He's soooo sweet in the end. i mean, he's like a total jerk when he was a kid but now, he's so nice n i like him:DD

Kana

i think she's xtremely weird. She's like ko's worshipper or something== but i still think that she'll have an important role later on the series.

ah, i also hate her btw:D

I guess that's all 4 the review...:D and here's a pic of oboreru knife vol9:")

If you're a fan of shoujo mangas, you should totally read this!!!! Ha~~~

ok then, i guess that's all for today. I'm gonna read some comics now!

Ciaosuuu~~

finally", d day has come! it's about s.p.o.r.t!

well well well, as you can see.. i'm super excited right now nyeheheheh

n the reason is also quite obvious actually, this is because........ the sport competition has begun!! *yeeeywell actually, i didn't really played any important role, i'm just a cheerleader:D n i ended up not doing that thankfully:) *it was gonna be a total embarrassment*

i'm actually very much happy n excited because i'm gonna be watching my friends compete which was super AWESOMEEE...

you see, when it comes to sport, i become a whole other person. i can't just sit quietly n watch the game, i need to yell, cheer n even screaming like a crazy person:DDDD

one other reason that i acted like that is because i'm a very sport person! *i honestly don't even know if such words exist*

i'm soooo in love with sports, any kind of them! i mean, how exciting will it be, to see people working together and fairly of course, to win a game together? damn i'm sooo liking it:DDD

that is why i have a very big dream, which is: going to L.A Lakers' stadium n watch them play!!!!!! i can't even imagine how crazy i'll be in there:))

today was the first day. n as i expected, i had sooo much fun screaming n yelling. it's like it's already my duty or something.. my class won most of the matches!!!!!:))))) which made me extremely happyyyy danggg!!

butt still, there were some loss too:'( butt i'm sure they'll be able to face the challenge tomorrow because they're super awesome! *Totally exaggerating*

my favorite match was the boys' basketball n volley. why i like volley? that's because my friends were so awesome @ serving the ball!

n basketball? duuh, who doesn't like basketball? especially me, i've been in love with basketball since like 4 years ago *NBA dudeee* eventhough i still suck playing it:3

plus, my friends r super awesome @ basketball!ha!

well, i may have compliment my friends too much butt that's fine i guess, since i'm all smiley" now!:PPP

a.n.y.w.ay the day didn't go sooo smoothly. @ 1.30 rain started to fall n we were like stuck in that place with nowhere to go. it was so friggin cold, and u know what's worse? i was sooo starving back then!!!!! ._.

butt fortunately i was able to go home safely n resting of course!

aah! i also got sunburn u see!! maybe this was because i was too focused to the game which made me forget about everything else! *what a reason!* -> there's actually another reason but that's a secret!:D

alrighty, this is all i gotta say for today. i'm tired, sleepy and i'm still curious about the application "iweb" in my computer which i just discovered yesterday. so i'm gonna continue making it! haaa!!

that's all! BYEEeee~

ah, quote 4 today:

"cheering for sport competition is super fun!"

i'm sorry if the quote is very useless, i guess the sunburnt has caused me to be dumb:P

CiaosuuU!

Feeling kind of left behind!~?

Well", after dat depressing entry, i'm gonna start wid a super refreshing n kinda disappointing too? JK:D butt 4 real..:3

soooooooooooo, today, aftr i got home from d math course, i kinda opened my facebook page hehehehe since i TOTALLY hv nothin to do...== *i've done all my hws 4 tom @ skool*

den i saw pics of my old frens...

oh gosh, i miss em soooooooooooooooooooooooo much... butt it's sad though, d fact we're not in contact anymore, since i was such an idiot *long story TEEHEE* plus, i sux @ keeping friendship:"(

anywy, when i saw their photos n profiles, i was like blown away to d centre of d eartH!! *stupid joke*

almost all of em r out of d country... including my best pals...

it's sad dat we can't meet anymore, butt thankfully one of em is staying in sg, so i'm hoping i cud meet her 2 years later!!! *u wish!*

wat shocked me d most, was dat my x classmate B, was in Californiaaa? aaaaaah, i'm soo jealous ritee nowwww~~

anywy, after seeing those photos, i realized dat people were already moving on wid their lives. they've changed 2 bcome better people n i'm start to wonder about myself..

i mean, i hav changed a LOT. i'm not used to be a very talkative person.. n now, i'm like sooooo friggin talkativeee to the point dat i can't stop talking==

i dun knw if i'm changing in a better way, but it's kinda disappointing dat i feel like, i'm still just me... while other hv become adults who r soo mature== i sometimes wish i cud b like them.. butt on d other side, i'm also still grateful 4 me, being me:)))) *freaky*

it's not easy to change personality, but i really wanna do so... *evn if i dun knw how to hehe*

anwy, i'm just hoping my friends can b successful there n live there safely of course!

i guess that's all to say 4 today...my hands r tired:DDD

no quote 4 today cuz i'm not in d moodTEEHEEEEEEE

i guess dat's my gudbye!

Ciaosuuuuu~!

Depressing alert?0_o

This is pretty much about my day today, so it might b kinda boring butt i'm still gonna write it anywy hehehe..

2 b honest, i was kinda depressed today n i didn't evn knw why... damn depression had haunted me 4 several times n it came in again today...

n u knw wats worse? i don't evn exactly knw why am i like this.. i just feel empty n sleepy... i guess dat's wats called being depressed huh?:P

ANYWY, this mood finally got better after d math course heheee mayb this was caused of my ability to do matrix *yahoo* n also some of my classmates were fooling around which made me laugh n totally made me feel better some way:DDDD

this entry is actually quite or totally depressing hehe *can't stop sayin it* n it is not d end just yet. this shud b on a new entry but i'm just too lazy to make a new one, so...

hmm, i'm actually gonna b talking about myself, like wat i called "keluhkesah" hehe.. i dun knw wats d english term, but d main idea is about wat i'm feeling or somethin like dat..

1st, to be realllyyyyy honest, sometimes i question myself, why do i live? i mean, in my "imagination", everything is still gonna b fine if i'm not here.. like now 4 example, i dun evn knw why i studied hard d whole time.. *not exactly* mayb it's to make my parents happy? really? do i really mean dat?

i really don't knw how to value my own life. normally, people shud b grateful bcuz of d life they were given but i still can't. 4 real.

plus, i find myself really boring actually. i'm not especially gud @ something, maybe, just mayb my talent is still hiding inside of me butt i can't keep dat kind of believe in my mind rite now, i'm just wayyyy too pessimistic to hold on dat kind of thought now..

n there's another reason, with me being here, do i evn make d people dat i luv happy? yeah mayb sometimes, but most of d times, i annoyed people so much dat i evn felt so guilty. but becuz i am such a coward, i cud never EVER apologize to a person when it comes to b a serious matter. this totally sux..

2nd noone understands me, including myself of course, i mean how are people supposed to understand yourself if u don't? dat's just soo screwed up. n why did i say i dun understand myself? well, u c, until now, i can't evn decide wat is my passion. i dun knw wat r my interest beside sleeping, watching n reading. why can't it b something educational or useful?

3rd i dun understand other peoples feelings u c... like 4 example *this happens all d time btw*:

i can't talk to more den 1 person, so i MAY KINDA ignore d other person while i was talking. truthfully, it was not wat i really meant, i just don't knw how to connect conversations, from one person to other people. people r sooooo pissed @ me 4 doing so but, wat can i do? shud i abandon d other person? but i'll b hated by d person later den:((. i'm alwys stressed out by these kind of stupid unimportant things n perhaps this is d reason why my hair keeps on fall out=u=

4th i get lonely sooo easily. it's pathetic, really, but i really enjoy being wid myself only too.. dat's why i think i'm weird==

5th complainer is wat i am. i can't stop complaining, trust me... i will alwys complain to God, if something in my life went wrong. hmph, i guess my faith is not strong enough huh?;p

6th i'm a bad tempered person cuz i actually get mad sooo easily, evn if it's not necessary. i hate myself 4 dat... but no matter how hard i try, i just can't stop my anger...== i just can't.

7th i alwys got frustated wid small matters, evn if it's not important. I did every single thing wid my feelings soo i guess u can call me a bit emotional:P

hmph, dat's a lot to write n also not very good to read hehe

n i'm gonna stop this now before it's getting boring *it already is actually*:D

so, bye?:D

CiaosuuU!

so friggin stupid = me:D

well, as u can c, i've posted an entry just now, which was supposed to be posted a few days ago>:0 butt, bcuz of my super stupidity, i cudn't publish it since i did not realize dat i can't type too many 3 on d title== sooooooo ridiculous:(

anwy, it's my 2nd day of skool n as i expected, it SUX:P

plus, i've been kinda addicted to a veryyyyy old manga called hana yori dango== dats why i kinda slept @ 1 yesterday! TEEHEE

hmm, wat to talk about.... AH!

this is definitely a new year *butt it's getting old dude==* n everyone was like, hv some new resolutions to their lives... unfortunately, i stay just like this.. i mean, i didn't really hav those kind of wishes like change my life or something like dat:D

alrite, stop d crap n talk bout todayy!

so today, me n my frens were kinda discussing AGAIN, about my bday... *everyone kept telling me dat it was my sweet 17th, butt ITS NOT ALRITE*

soo, OD, van, ter n gil were like my EO hehehehe, well actually, they were just upgrading a few things which i don't remember fortunately:(

i gotta say, i'm pretty much excited about wats gonna happen @ d 28th of january:D butt i'm also kinda worried as u c...

i mean i'm not tryinna b pessimistic but worse things can happen sometimes== like wat if only a few people come? wat if d service in d restaurant is gonna b a mess? wat if my dress doesn't look gud enough? wat if wat if.. i'm sick of wat if:)

mayb i shud just pray to God n hope everything's gonna b ok bcuz it's pretty much driving me crazy since last month:DDDDDD

...moving ooooon...

sooo, yesterday, i kinda read P's blog which was new btw n it was totally like a diary which reminded me of my blog..

to b honest, i dun evn knw wat this blog is about... i mean, there r things about my feelings, crap, unimportant stuff, n u knw, other unimportant stuff:D

butt i dun really care about dat now since i definitely do not wanna redo all d writing TEEHEE *why d hell do i keep sayin TEEHEE?*

hmm, i guess dat's all 4 now, butt i dun knw if i'm gonna post sumthin again later since i got soooooooo much to tell... especially bout myself..:3 *such a narcissistic person*

anwyy, C U L!~~

Ciaosuuuu!!

ah, about d quote of d day: *yes, i'm still doin it!!*

"Life is beautiful when u knw d way to enjoy it"

now's d real goodbyeeeeee!

kagetora to minna ga suki desuuu!!!

hmph, it's been 2 days n i finally start updating something again!:D

why is dat??

this started yesterday, when i tried to find a gud manga to read. then i found shinobi life. d summary seemed interesting, so i tried to read it yesterday.

WOW

this manga is just very much awesomeeeeee~ i mean d artwork is gud, d story is pretty interesting but most of all, I AM SO IN LOVE WID D MALE LEAD CHARACTER!!

His name is Kagetora n he's a ninja! how hawt is dat?LOL

how can i instantly fell inluv wid him? dat's becuz of his gentleness, super strong n gud @ martial arts, his handsome face n of course, his innocent look:DDDD

*alrite, i do very much sound like a stalker rite now*

n stupidly, i'm sooo jealous of Beni, d female lead chara who's also Kagetora's beloved oneT.T

Butt, dat's not all i'm gonna b talking about, i'm also gonna talk about several charas dat i really fell in luv with! *such an otaku*

alrite, 1st place go to Kagetora *since i'm still crazy bout him:)))

like d sweetest guy ever????? not to mention he's so loyal to his master n when he fought, he looks soooo H.O.T hehehehe BEST NINJA EVAAAAA~

2nd is Yano Motoharu

he's from an anime called Bokura Ga Ita, which is like d saddest anime ever?? Yano is totally like a normal guy, butt he's also gud looking n he's sooo sweet towards his gf... d story in d anime just made me fell 4 him... danggg! >.< i've been in luv wid him like crazy b4 i met Kagetora:P *now i'm becoming a traitorLOL*

3rd is ... hmmm i guess it had to b Sebastian Michaelis

he's a super hot butler from Kuroshitsuji which is a very gothic historical anime n not to mention dat d story is also very" much interesting:P hmm, i like him very much becuz he's a very amazing butler who can do like everything?:DD n he's also xtremely handsome.. damnn! his super perfectness, mysteriousness n coolness r like d most amazing thing about him;3

4rd one is Tsukishima Fuji

hmm, i've actually described about fuji-kun in previous entries:D *dun remember which one of course!* butt anywy, i've alwys liked these type of people 4 some reason dat i dun evn aware of:o -> totally my type!

5th goes to Shinpo Ichi

Ichi is also from a manga called Parfait Tic. it's an old manga, i knw, butt i still cudn't help it.. ichi is like fuji, but he's not rich.. but he's very smart:DDDn pitiful:"( i mean, he's "d other guy" which means he didn't get d girl:"(((((also, dat's d main reason i did not continue reading parfait tic:3 *i hate fukooooT.T

6th is Nakajou Zen

Pandaaaaaa!TT everytime i heard his name, i just god reminded of Pandaaaa:((( n my eyes r also teary:( i alwys got reminded dat he was rejected by ShimanaaaT.T eventhough he's super nice, caring, cute n he loves pandaa soo much!! *sobbing*

anywy, d 7th is Kida Masaomi

i found him on an anime called Durarara. i hv 2 admit it but d story is kinda confusing but it doesn't prevent me from falling for Kida-kun;3 his personality is wat i like bout him d most:) he's so cheerful n nice:DD evnthough i was surprised bout d fact dat he was a gang leaderLOL n i was also pissed bcuz in d end of durarara, kida got back wid his x gf, saki, which i hate so much

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8th one goes to Abe Takaya

Abe kun is d catcher in an anime called Ookiku Furikabutte which is my fav sport anime all timeeeeeeeee!!! i'm sooo friggin in luv wid baseball aftr watching dis anime. Abe's my fav, n dat's bcuz somehow, i find his bad tempered attitude charming;3 *girl in luv*

he's also veryyyyyy" cool when he catch d balls from Mihashiii:P

9th is Hitachiin Hikaru

he's one of d twins in Ouran Koukou Host Club. He's actually d childish one, dat's exactly why i like him!!:DDDDD i dun knw why, butt when he started realizing about his feeling towards haruhi, i just found it charming n fell 4 him! *nonsense reason* TEEHEE

10th is Hibari Kyouya

Cool n cold attitude, fighting using tonfas n luv animals? DANG! he's from Katekyo Hitman Reborn n he's like d coolest, most handsome n d most awesome guy from dat anime!!!<3 there was actually a time when i was soo addicted to him *so stalker-ish*LOL

11th is Kanmuri Shigeru

He's one of d greatest n smartest barker from Yakitate!! Japan. hmm, i dun really knw why i like him, butt he's just very funny when his laboratory was destroyed n he's also smart hehehehe n i guess dat's pretty much why like himm

12th is Jin

Jin is a super awesome samurai from samurai champloo, a samurai anime dat i really" like hehe He's quite, but when he fights, he's like wow-ing!!:DDD his cool, cold n quite attitude are just d perfect charms to make me fell for him:D

i guess dats all 4 now, since dis entry is very" long n it shud've been longer butt my hand couldn't take it, so..:P

anwy, i'll b updating again sometimes n c u later!

Ciaosuuuuuu~~ + nightt!