Opening Up A New Chapter Of Life...

YES, it's 30 more minutes before the mighty new year. and YES again, i'm as sleepy as hell right now..

I can't stop yawning like crazy while the super noisy fireworks can't stop making loud noise which is annoying==

N No i am not drunk while writing this entry, evnthough i very much sound like i am, but i'm just very" dizzy since i'd eaten so much meat n soft drink. Now i'm not even sure where my mind is floating to #yawning

Rite, so 2013 is coming soon.

• do i have regrets from the things i've done in 2012?

PLENTY

But what can i do anyway? It's all been done, and the best that i can do is to look forward to the future and never look back.

• what are the best memories from the mighty year of 2012?

Not that much, but there's owl city, the mighty malang trip, PEDC and some new crushes of mine HAHA

• do i look forward for this new year of 2013?

Noooot really:) I mean, i'm still gonna be the same me, who's always easily frustrated and depressed. Not to mention how often i complain about my awsome life. AND how annoying i always am to people. WITH the laziness that's always within me. Still the same as ever.

• any new year resolution?

A LOT. not sure i can do all of em tho, especially the part about being diligent, have more confidence, being more outgoing person n most importantly, not annoy people most of the time.

END OF NEW YEAR THINGY TALK.

so i'm not really sure what this entry is all about, but i just wanna write something before this year is offcially over.

so a message for the mighty 2012:

Dear 2012, i know that you haven't been exactly my favorite year ever, since most of the time in this year, i get depressed even more oftenly and easily. And lots of weird things happened in this year. Some good, some bad. And it's gonna be so weird when i'm looking back to all of this. Despite all of that, i'm also glad to have this year in my life, since i can meet new people, get to know my crazy fun friends much better and also get along more with my family members. So good bye 2012, we'll never meet again, but i'll surely remember you. You're memorable in both good and bad ways:)

RITE, this entry is getting even weirder and weirder.__.

So it's 15 more mins before new year, which means i have to go!

HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS

MAY ALL THE BLESSING BE WITH ALL OF YOU

AND MAY THIS NEW YEAR BE A NEW BEGINNING TO MAKE YOUR LIFE EVEN BETTER

AND ALSO TO OTHERS \m/

Ciaosuuuu~!!!!

The Future Is Waiting For Us...

Yes indeed, nobody can't deny that. The future is something that everyone is waiting for. And nobody knows what's gonna happen in the future, which concerns me even more...

So basically, i'm writing this because i just had an argument with my dad because i asked him something.

Why did i ask? The answer was simple, I was curious.

A few days ago, me and my dad met this agent from AXEL? to discuss about the result of test about my interest and personality 2 weeks ago..

So basically, the test's result was pretty accurate to me, especially about my personality. Not to mention about my interest, which mostly was about my choice of major for university.

It was nutrition/dietitian.. i was pretty happy with the result, since i know i love biology and nutrition but apparently, my dad didn't think so...

On our way back, i asked him about how was the meeting with the agent and stuff. I wondered about what did he think about me being a nutritionist and stuff. And after getting his answer, somehow i just got the impression that he wasn't all agreeing about the whole nutritionist stuff. I stayed silent, the end of discussion.

Moving on today, once again i asked him, why did he thought that being a nutritionist is good? Why did he say so?

And i got all the answer that i need.

Apparently, he was concerned about the tuition, since the agent said that it could be expensive.

He also kept talking about how in here, in my EFFING country, Nutritionists are still not that needed.

Then i answered back furiously, by saying that i don't even wanna live in this pitiful country anymore! I wanna get out of here, as soon as i can! but then he replied by saying stuffs that i didn't even listened anymore...

He was also talking about SOMETHING which practically meant that it didn't matter what kind of job women have, since they would finally end up stay at home and take care of their children.

I was offended. Like how could he say that? He doesn't even know a thing about me! Does he even know that i'm still considering whether i wanna get married or not? How could he know that i would quit my job just to take care of children that i might don't even want to have?

I'm sorry dad, but i'm just not that kind of girl/woman. I'm not an ordinary woman who's willing to do anything just to have a happy family with lots of children.

I don't even know what i want!

I don't even know what does my dad want me to be? A business person like my cousin? Not a chance. Well maybe after seeing me fail, he would actually realize that i can't do business, since i use my feelings A LOT.

but i know what i have to do to survive this cruel adult world. By having a decent job. And i have chosen what i wanna to pursue. What i want to be when i'm an adult.

Maybe, just maybe, i'll change my mind after meeting a guy. But still, i don't wanna be told. I don't care if nobody loves me because of that, but it's my FUCKING LIFE.

I deserve to be happy with my own way.. Maybe i'll have a family, but it doesn't mean i wanna quit my job just because of THAT.

My present self doesn't even like children now.. My friends told me like a thousand times already that my point of view might change after i have a children, but guess wat? I don't have one now and i do k now that i still don't like children even now...

I deeply know that God has a plan for all of us. Even the ones who don't really appreciate life, like myself. So why do i have to be worried? Why do people have to be worried when they know that their lives have already been planned by God. And they should also know that the mighty plan that He has made isn't just a plan, it's a beautiful master plan that God has made to make us happy.

I have been having a motivational problem, since i've been like more than lazy these couple of weeks. And the only thing that i could actually study and have fun at the same time is Biology. I love that subject, i do. And why is it so wrong?

I mean i don't wanna become an artisan, musician, or even actress, i actually wanna be a nutritionist which is actually pretty hard n cool and it just so happens that it's what i love to do. My dad should've been more appreciative, since  didn't choose majors like design, arts n stuff. Since i know that his narrow mind wouldn't believe that such majors would help me survive later in the future.

Sometimes i wonder, would i be appreciated if i were more normal? like other girls? my friends? who actually want children and have a big happy family?

Am i actually right about not wanting any children if i know that i couldn't be able to take care of them? People said that they don't wanna live alone and miserable in the future, so they MAKE children.

Well you know wat, i don't care about that.

Maybe i'll regret this decision SO much later in the future, but i still think that it's pretty selfish if you want to have children just because you don't wanna be alone when ur an elder.

I hope that i can actually find my real reason to have children. I really do hope so.

Am i just too careless to not fear the future? I don't even know if that's wrong or right.

But whatever happens in the future, i'll still appreciate it, i'll try my best to... because i know that it's the story of MY LIFE. and God has made the perfect plan to make it blossom into happiness that i can't even imagine.

When Things Have Become Clear...

I have to be honest, this post is gonna be very embarrassing... and very private.. but i want my future self to remember this moment, the quirkiness that occasionally happens in my life... It just means that i'm the one who's weird.. HAHA

So you see, the Major impact of PEDC, apparently is still within me...

And wat's worse? It was even following me around to the mighty Batu or should i say somwhere in Malang..:|

RITE, i should just get started..

I'm sure that most of my classmates and some of my friends alredy knw this...

Yes, i do have a crush on someone who i'm not supposed to like._. and FYI, he's NOT the one who likes my hairr~ 

K, why do i say he's not who i'm supposed to like? That's because he lives farfarfar away from where i live now.____.

Sounds sad, i know...

But anyways, i got this weird feeling out of nowhere.. i don't understand why i could develop such weird feelings and stuffs=="

i mean, when i met him first, i felt nothing. there was even no INSTANT CRUSH.. like wat i've always had when i think a guy's my type:p

So, basically, i kinda had a crush on me, by my super "sesat" assumption actually.. i might have assumed that he has a crush on me which actually caught my attention and not to mention the TEASING! he was teased by his friends n stuff n it got me thinking that wat i thought was actually true...

but well, this is just purely my misguided untrue presumption..... so please forgive my full of myself attitude=)

And this secret of mine was officially exposed on the mighty Malang Trip.. when i was playing TRUTH N DARE w/ my classmates._.

and i'm gonna stop talking about him cuz it'll just make me even moree depressed n stuff...

cuz i think i like him n it's such a shame to let him get away so easily._______. plus, i think he's nice n fun 2 talk 2... well at least thts wat i think ehehe and if he's meant 4 me, mayb we'll meet again in d future! ha! just kidding:P

RITE, so folks, unfortunately my school life isn't getting anybetter! My scores for the examination was horrible as predicted.... and not to mention the school works that are piling up for every each day..

I know it was the time for me to finally be more diligent, but i just can't and i don't know why..

Maybe that's because i can't overcome my own laziness but that's just purely B*llsh*t...

YEa well, this year is definitely not my year, but i'm just hoping that i could actually survive the year and move on safely to the next one... HAHA

ok so, there are 2 things that i'm kinda excited for tho! which are!:

1. O's dinner party

2. Owl City's Concert w/ O! HAHAHAHA

Yes, i'm super pumped and i totally can't wait~

butt before that, i have to work on my school probs n stuff and try to get my mind off u know who:D

So i'm just gonna stop now since i'm getting more and more sleepy now so bye!

Ciaosuuuu~!!!!

That Moment When You Couldn't Think Of Anything Else Besides Happiness...

GOODNESS, i know i'm not supposed to write now, i'm supposed to sleep and prepare for tom, which is d BIG day but i can't help myself since today was officially, "one of my greatest/bestest day ever".

So, if you read my blog from last year, around september too, there was this debating competition called PEDC in my school. AND, i had my part there as the liaison officer... *if ur interested to know wat's liaison officer/LO, just read my previous post on last year:p

a.n.y.w.a.y.

so this year, i am taking care of students from... let's just say a school not from my city:p

I must say that they'r nice:) And most importantly, i support them with all my might! #haha

And today was actually when d REAL competition began! and it was intense, ladies n gentlemen! HAHAHA

well to be honest, i sometimes don't really understand wat were they talking about... butt i sometimes listened and the topics were actually pretty interesting;;)

so todayyy, my team won 2 rounds... and i'm pretty proud of em...HAHAHAHAHAH #wtf

but i really am, til now:)

so again, the thing is, being an LO is so much fun, cuz u got to know several new people there, u learn how to interact with strangers... it was pretty much all awkward but i did my best already anyway:p

NOT TO MENTION how much craziness i xperienced with my fellow LOs... MAANNNNN

I had so much fun with all of em... I'm gonna miss today sooooo bad for sure...

and to be honest *again*, i dun really care about my bio test on monday after wat happened today...~

funniest moment ever, had to be when i tried to eat some chocolate crackers with N while we were doing our job..

It was so hard to hide the stupid crackers, but my stomach wanted to eat something so i laughed for almost 10 mins when d debate started and started eating those crackers...=u=

BUTT readers, that's not the CLIMAX YET.

and i'm still gonna blabber about how all the LOs informed their teams whether they got into top 8 or NOT.

so all the LOs were given a glass of orange colored juice.. and they were 2 diff kinds of taste, mango and orange.. so the winning team or the top 8 will taste the mango juice while d rest got orange juice..

And soo yeaaah.. my team got the superb mango juice and i was just so excited for them~

unfortunately, they were some teams that i felt bad because of their lost. like my friend, Y's team... MAN, yall should have seen all their faces.. they were so sad and gloomy... i felt bad for em.. and Y also told me that she felt sorry like so terribly for em:'(

and THIS was when the real thing started!

So uhm, Y then asked me to take her pic with her team together, for the last memory..

i decided to help her, since well, i felt bad for them, really...

DEN, when i went to approached them, i could hear that someone from her team was saying something that i couldn't hear since well, i'm kinda deaf:)

i did not look at him back since i thought he was saying smething to Y...

BUTT den after a second later, he said something about not being heard...

then i realized, OMG, he was talking to me! #panicked/shocked

Then i asked him again, 2 friggin times!== since i couldn't listen wat he was trying to say...

n guess wat he said....

"i like ur hair"

DUDES, for someone like me, who has never been complimented on the hair department, it was like.... u were sent away to the sky with the super weird fluffy feeling==

But it was such a pleasing compliment;;) and eventho it was embarrassing..

Yeahhyeah, u must be thinking that i'm an easy girl or watsoever, but still, i am rarely complimented on those kind of things, so yeah, it really made me happy...:) and actually, i acted kinda crazy afterwards since i couldn't stop smiling and laughing to myself._. but i was so happy so wat?:p

actually, there was a whole lot other story about Y's team about i'm just too lazy to write em al down...

i just want today to not be forgotten:D

such a fine day eeh?:) i had so much fun and the fun continued for tom:)

wish my team luck and i hope tom's also gonna be super friggin awesome^^

I'm gonna take off now since i have to sleeepp, BYE

Ciaossuu!!~

Review Of Jane By Design...

So folks... Hello again.. first of all, i just wanna apologizeee for not updating for so long.. 

But don't blame me though, it's not AAALLL my fault... blame my laziness and most importantly SCHOOL.

Examination time has finally over and i'm officially free... 

But anyways, i'm gonna be talking about something else now.. Which is about a new show that i'm currently watching now and IT IS, "Jane By Design"

Synopsis:

A case of mistaken identity has a dateless high school outsider living a double life as a twenty-something career girl in the fashion world.

Impression:

When i first looked at this series, i wasn't even a bit interested to watch it.. It seemed, boring and way too cliche to me..BUTT

i accidentally watched it at Star World at one time and MATES!

 It was totally the opposite from my assumption...

 Jane By Design is seriously adorable.. I love how the story progress and I love the characters!<333 p="p">

 They'r just simply amazing and i LUV em #tooexcited

Characters:

Jane Quimby

She's the funniest and not to mention, the most adorable main character i've ever seen before! I love how naive and nice she is.. And she's so pretty and i love her fashion style..MyMy

Billy Nutter

OHHH MY!! Billy is my fav character EVER! he's everything that i've always wanted to have... He's such a caring, loyal, super cool and HOT guy! haha He's just wayyy too cute and his charm just mesmerized me and MAAAN, i admire him sooooo MUCH!!

 

Well again, i'm sorry for making the post so short... cuz i'm currently writing it at school and i'm still way sleepy and i wanna go home and sleep;;)

So anyways, thank you for being such loyal readers.. and Enjoy and BYE:)

Ciaosuuu!~!

It Takes A Long Time To Grow Young, Oscar WIlde

Hellooo again folks!!!! Welcome once again to my mighty blog:)

Now, i'm gonna stop with all those reviews n start to write more again about my lifeeeee... Sounds boring. I know.. but can't help it tho:p

So then, from the title, i'm pretty sure u'll understand wat's the entry's all about...

YES FOLKS, last friday, i was celebrating one my friend's SWEET 17~!

OH yes, it was a lot of fun...

I took lots of pictures theree~ with my beloved friends of course:)

Well i also have to say that i'm not particularly close w/ the bday girl so yeaah, all the fun things only happened between me n my besties #hugging

There were lots of performances n weird games= =

but i still think that some of the games were too............. :) #notgonnasayit

The mighty bday celebration was held in Deruzzi... it's my first time being there, so i was so stunned bcuz the place is HUGE n super elegant!

anyway, the day was not as beautiful as i just told yall just now.. since the preparation for the party was like one of the worst moment of my life #argh

We had to rush to do almost everything which was tiring physically n mentally seriously==

THE DAMN TRAFFIC was also not helping @ ALL.

The situation from the salon to the party place was a total chaos. BUTT as soon as i reached the place, it all disappeared quickly:) HAHA

Relax folks, u haven't reached the best part YET.

SO, basically there were like tons of people there... n yeah of course, there were lots of people from my school...

THEN i found out that there were also some people from my friend's old school...N between those people, there were some guys that were actually my junior when i was in junior high school... before i moved at the 8th grade...

OHHH MY, after the long 3 or 4 years, i finally saw him again with my own very eyes!

MY old crush!LOLOLOLOL

 n he was even better than before<3 a="a" crush="crush" got="got" him="him" i="i" on="on" p="p" so="so" still="still" wat="wat" yeayea="yeayea">

But that one thing was one of the thing that made me smile that night... i can't even stop smiling now #truth

I know that he played basketball when we were on the same school n i miss his play...  n he's gotten so much taller, n charming:3 He was also wearing a SUIT! OWMY! i love guys with suits, seriously:") #sinceivebeenwatchingsuits

MANMAN, i really sound like a very girlish girl just now... but well, tht friday was a good day after all, so i dun care:)

BTW, i've told V, about him at that time, so she was sooo super curious about who he was:p but unfortunately she didn't get a chance to see him, so yea... wateverr:p

RITE, done with those girlish stuffs n moving on!

a week after that *ithink* my other fren den invited me to her bday party @ the Trans Hotel.. n man, this was when d fun started!

I had so much fun last night! it was only a simple dinner party, but i couldn't help it but to enjoy the moment so much:D me n my friends took so many pics and we talked and eat GUD STUFFS, like really GOOD STUFF<3 p="p">

i ate scone, medium rare steak, roasted duck, cocktail, sushi, cakes n other other good food i can't mention:P

i have to say taht my hair was kiiiiinda bad or terrible._.

BUT compare to the tons of fun i had, i dun care very much about my hair anymore:)))

i'll just say that the hotel was pretty awesome n i had gud food..

So i guess that's all for today, n i'll see YOU people later! BYE

Ciaosuuu~!!!!

Reviews Of Suits & Grimm...

HIHi, first of all, i'll just start my mighty entry with a very friendly and welcoming mood:)

benvenuto~!

it means welcome, in italianoooo~

So YES My fellow readers, i'm gonna do something a little different today...

I'm gonna post 2 mighty reviews of two awesome tv shows that i've been watching... 

FIRST UP

SUITS

Synopsis:

On the run from a drug deal gone bad, Mike Ross, a brilliant college-dropout, finds himself a job working with Harvey Specter, one of New York City's best lawyers.

Short n simple synopsis, just the way i like it:)

Impression:

Well, overall, i think Suits is a good show. N to be honest, i don't really like it, I LOVE IT.

I have to admit that i often got kinda confused because the story is about lawyers and they talked so much and well, let's just say i'm not a good listener..

But i still understand the main point of the stories though.. the story is superrr interesting.. that's why i like it:p

Not to mention about the characters! MAN! Patrick J Adams n Gabriel Macht ROCK.

I could not describe it in any other words. They just simply blew me away with their performance. LUV THEM.

but there one thing that i don't like from that show, it is the female main character, Rachel.. I just don't really like her personality n everything... i just don't think she's suited for the role._.

No offense tho, i'm just expressing my honest opinion:p

I totally recommend this series to those of you who love and is craved for dramas and NYClol

Patrick J Adams as Mike Ross

Gabriel Macht as Harvey Specter

SECOND PART

GRIMM

Synopsis:

In modern day Portland, Oregon, a police detective inherits the ability to see supernatural creatures.

Impression:

Supernatural isn't exactly called as 'my kind of thing', but Grimm is different. I adore everything about this show. The story is just simply enchanting, exciting, thrilling and each of every episode will always makes me wanting to watch more.

It is true though, i was often surprised, not in a good way by the shocking and scary creatures in this series, but it doesn't make me love it less.

The characters? It was obvious that I ADMIRE them, all of them.

But if i have to choose my favourites, then it'll have to be Nick and Monroe.

Why do i like Nick? Since he's cute, handsome, awesome at fighting, caring, kind and superrr hot<3 air="air" always="always" charming="charming" clue="clue" eyes="eyes" floating="floating" got="got" hav="hav" he="he" in="in" kept="kept" me="me" mention="mention" not="not" s="s" that="that" the="the" to="to">

Now, Monroe. He's absolutely hilarious... I will always laugh at everything  that he said.. Even a single sentence could make me laugh til i cried!LOL

He's super funny n charming in somehow...

MY 1st FAV ChARA @ GRIMM!

The story should b centered on him more often i think:P

 David Giuntoli as Nick Burkhardt

Silas Weir Mitchell as Monroe

K people, that's all for today.. KIIINDA sick of writing:D

N i'm gonna continue with my next entry which is totally gonna be made when i have the time:)

So for the time being, ENJOY READING N BYE!

Ciaosuuuu!~~

The Things I Should Have Done...

So FOLKS, please do forgive me for the absent... YES, i know that i haven't written anything this couple of weeks, but don't blame me, blame my mighty companion, Mr. Laziness and also Mrs. Business.

Anyway, to begin this entry, i first wanna apologize for keep making depressing and uninteresting entries... and yeaaah, this one is pretty much gonna be the same...

And actually, I am currently listening to David Choi's songs so it kiiiinda made me wanna write cuz his songs r so mellow" n relaxing n chilling~u~

So, wat i'm about to discuss today is actually about MYSELF again..

sorry 4 being wayy too self-centred, but this is my own friggin blog anyway so WHO D F Cares?:P

Til this moment, i just realized this fully, the fact that i have CHANGED since i entered highschool. N i think it's not a really good change.. #sighing

i dun even understand it myself.. but when i think back again, i was such a diff person back then..

Somehow, i was super motivated, diligent, willing to do anything n blablabla..

N Look at me now! i'm super lazy, sleepy all the time n i even think that i've become even stupider!ugh

What has gotten into me? well, don't ask me since i don't even understand wat the question means._.

I've been kiiinda experiencing this for almost more than a year... n now...  it's just worse than before.... SERIOUSLY DEPRESSING

This holiday was d worst one... my laziness has completely taken over. whether it's my mind, my body, my soul?#wtf

but i have some serious problem with the word B*LLSH*T..

i told my self, just rite before the holiday that i'm gonna read books, study, do homeworks and BE DILIGENT through the holiday.. BUT unfortunately, school starts tom n i haven't done a single thing..

WTF is wrong with me?

I'm seriously angry n furious at myself...

eventho i've realized this very fact, it doesn't really make me become better either since til now, I haven't finished a single thing..

This awful things called laziness has also affected my social life... like sometimes, i was even TOO LAZY TO TALK. WTH was tht rite?

I know that i often dream the impossible... Like living in NYC, travel around the world n do other awesome stuffs... like change d world?

Those dreams are like bullshits to me now...

i was like, "WTF mate? u wanna achieve those dreams but u dun wanna work hard for it? How wud u expect them to eventually come true then?"

K, so i'm practically lost now:| i dunno wat shud i do to make everything better n blablblblba...#sighing

see? i'm even too lazy to write now... i now believe that i , myself have a SERIOUS motivation problem...

so i gotta go now, cuz i'm too lazy to do anything besides watching eating n resting....

SO BYE

Ciaosuuu~!!

The Ferris Wheel Of Your Life...

Hiiiii~ AGAIN!

It's been almost a week since i last updated, so i decided to update again now.. perhaps._.

anyway.... this one mighty entry is random, seriously....

Well, i mean, it's more like what i've been thinking of.. or things on my mind?:/

Anyway, let's just get started:)

So FOLKS, have you ever felt that u think u don't have a talent on anything? or like ur not good at even ONE single thing? Well, i hav:) a loooooooot of times fyi...

Indeed, sometimes i feel worthless n needless to say, i kinda have a loser-like-mental.. #ouch

But it's true tho! I sometimes gave up first before even trying... i also think that i'm not really capable of doing something extraordinary, except for the future tho... hihihihi but it's just one of my impossible dreams:)

SeE? i'm being pessimistic, AGAIN.

Well, how can i not think this way? i'm not really good at both studying or sport, i'm really slow at understanding things, i'm kindaaaaaa deaf, i'm slow n well, let's just say etc.....

It's like, i haven't found my speciality yet or something.___.

n yeah, i feel kinda worthless because of this...

Indeed i know that this is wrong... i shouldn't be this way... I mean, maybe i got other good things about myself, which i dun even know what it is...

But eventho i didn't realize it, it doesn't mean that other people don't rite?;;)

N also, this entry was inspired by today actually:p

since well.....

today i had the mighty biology test... n well, i didn't really screw up i think?:) but i still dunno... things can happen anyway...

BUTT that's not the main point~!

We also had this mighty speaking test which was about introducing urself n blablabla..

it's in B.I. btw.....

n as i expected! i screwed up again my fellow readers!!

i couldn't remember wat shud i say, i was super nervous, n it was super awkward.. talking about urself in front of the class=0= n there was lots of laughter.....== super embarrassing, seriously..

n well, i overall think that others did much better den me... like MUCH BETTER...

why is this expected again?

well, this is because of my super laziness fellas! on sunday, i watched "SOUL EATER" for the whole day then i studied biology for like, an hour only== #sighing

there's something wrong with me definitely... hihihihihi

Butt den the UNXPECTED thing happened...

When the teacher informed us about our marks, truthfully, i didn't really wanna hear it ...

cuz i know i screwed up so bad...== n it'd be xtremely embarrassing to have d lowest mark in d class... just like wat i did in chemistry:( #istillhatethatsubbtw

N WOW...

apparently i got the highest mark._____.

i dun mean to b arrogant, but i just couldn't believe it...

i dun know if the teacher actually felt sorry for me or something==

OR

maybe there's still something good about me after all...

n on that moment, well, i was grateful, really grateful... for my only God...

for making me this way...

i'm not exactly perfect, i knw that perfectly... but i still have something tho... i have something good about myself... n that really makes me feel happier about today:) #n it's not like i was also sad today anyway haha

this also made me realize that maybe i am capable of doing awesome great things like i want to, but i just have to try n do my best!:)) #this sounds so cliche

Ah, b4 i end tis entry, let me tell u a bit about my school life too:)

i've been meaning to say this but it's just kinda weird for me to say this but, I MISS MY BUDS==

i miss my crowded class, i miss the noisiness, i miss the fun atmosphere, i miss everything...

I dun mean to complain tho... cuz this is totally normal #ithink

i mean, i used to have these many people around d class n i was able to talk to so many people...

n well, it's kinda diff now:(

i'm kinda/prettyyy sad about this, but life must goonnnnn #sighing

But it doesn't mean that i dun enjoy my class now...

let's just say that i have adapted;;) n a good thing about having only 5 people in the class? i could joke around again n again w/ the teachers... eventho it was kindaaaa weirdly funnyLOL

butt i still miss my pals:"((( #sighing

i'm seriously sighing wayyyy to often... well, life has probs n that's wht makes it beautiful!~#singinglalala #WTFFF

k den, i gotta go now....

i got a math test tom n i think i'm gonna fail:D #PESSIMISTICAGAINHAHA

but i'm gonna do my best tho:") Wish me luckkk<3

i'm gonna go for real now!

Ciaosuuuu~!!!!

Some Things Are Just More Precious Than Money...

Oh well, hello again my fellow readers! Miss Me?;;) #smacked

Anyway! I shall tell you now, bout this very day!

Since YES my friend, i am officially happy n free temporarily! Why is this so? Well, u c, i got no hws or tests for tom!:DDDD so yeaah, i'm practically free today from all the burden from life<333

Anyway, this is definitely what i wanna talk about today...

I'm just gonna write a piece of my mind slash opinion that i got from religion lesson today.. it was so interesting:p

So it's basically about a topic that says,"Can money buy happiness?"

That was asked by my teacher today, n apparently all my frens have diff opinion from one another..

There r those who said that money can buy happiness while there's also someone tht said it was d opposite n there's even someone who said yes n no..:/

Well, yeaah... i'm practically d only one who disagreed fully..

FYI, i'm just telling d truth, i dun wish to b seen as a holly person by people cuz i know im not:) i'm just trying my best to be one...

SURE, everyone wants to be rich, to buy things that they wish they have, to not experience money difficulty of watsoever....

cuz to be honest, sometimes i do wish that i can b rich so that i can buy all the clothes that i want to have, living a high class lifestyle, have a huge house or even a rich husband:o

BUtt somehow, this thought doesn't really exist on my mind anymore..

today, i dun really care if i can't buy all those stuffs, like d xpensive clothes, gadgets, huge house...  this is 4 real btw!

ONCE again, i'm just expressing my own thoughts..:)

so, how exactly did this happen?

i dun really get it either, i mean, i do recall that my dad has once said to me bout being rich doesn't make u happy n blablablablaa butt i dun really remember if tht was the one tht made me realize._.

i started to notice then, when i first got my iphone..

U c, it didn't exactly make me super happy or anything, well yeah, i was kinda excited for finally having an iphone, but i can tell u one thing folks, tht feeling i have inside my heart cudn't really be described as what u call as happiness...

Then there was also one time that i already forgot when, when i was hanging out w/ my pals perhaps @ ppj? we were talking, having fun as usual n i was just smiley for d whole day=u=

or there was even a time, when i was with my family when we went somewhere i cudn't remember, i just felt like myself, there was peace n something relaxing in my heart..

den it hit me , was  this wat my dad meant? was this d real happiness that he talked about? about being with the people u luv the most on this earth?

Well, since then perhaps, i began to notice how much happiness that had been happening around me in my everyday life... hihihihi

i guess i'm now able to understand more about how to enjoy d real happiness.. n i finally understand what does the "H" word mean...

I know that i have a naive kind of way of thinking n well, my friends do know tht i'm not that smart either, but i'm glad that i'm able to think this way cuz this was what made my life now, n also who n wat i am...:)))

Evntho i hav this method of thinking, it doesn't really mean i don't desire anything tho:p i mean, of course i want something, but it's just not really related to wealthiness n stuff..

this is VERY embarrassing but who cares i'm still gonna write it cuz this is my f*ing blog after all but yes, sometimes, i want people to like me for who i am...

YESYES i do very much know that i'm not the nicest person on earth, in fact, i'm selfish, egoistical, mean, sometimes evil n i even enjoyed to be a b*tch sometimes==

so, it wud mean the world, for people to like me for the real me... cuz u knw, it's just not easy to find the people who can like u for who u are these days:")

there r also times, when i am honestly happy for the people that i luv. like when they're happy, i'm just really glad for them n hoping that the happiness won't go away.. this is so very much true, since i just felt this way on my father's bday a few days ago... it was just such a bless tht day, seeing my father that happy, being smiley n cheerful all day, GOSH, it was such a rare sight... n yeah, it made me even more than happy for him... cuz i luv him the most in this world after all:")

N, one last thing tht i desire so very much is...... well... EHEM", this is even more embarrassing damn it..

but yes, i am a very much normal girl so of course i do want to have that someone who i can share my happiness with, who can give me the beautiful experiences of life that absolutely can't be bought by money n to have someone tht luv me the most in this world....>u< 

i dun really care if that person doesn't have much money, or high status or watever is tht, as long as he is kind,*handsome* n also care for me from all d world, i'm already grateful to have that person to be with me:"))) #i still got my own standards tho, i mean, if he's not my type n i'm not evn in luv w/ that very person for every single day, it doesn't really count as wht i call my socalledhappiness then:p

k, i'm just gonna stop cuz this is getting weirder n weirder==

but i'm glad that i can finally able to express my feelings today, n tell the world how happy i am today... hahahahahLOL

so i'm just gonna go now n take a break from this beautiful day=u=

gonna write later again i suppose!BYE!

P.S. eventho i wrote this, it doesn't mean i don't respect others' opinion, i mean i respect them but i just don't agree with their way of thinking, that's all:) so that's also the reason why i'm writing today.. hihihihi

Ciaosuuuu~!!!!