So FOLKS, please do forgive me for the absent... YES, i know that i haven't written anything this couple of weeks, but don't blame me, blame my mighty companion, Mr. Laziness and also Mrs. Business.
Anyway, to begin this entry, i first wanna apologize for keep making depressing and uninteresting entries... and yeaaah, this one is pretty much gonna be the same...
And actually, I am currently listening to David Choi's songs so it kiiiinda made me wanna write cuz his songs r so mellow" n relaxing n chilling~u~
So, wat i'm about to discuss today is actually about MYSELF again..
sorry 4 being wayy too self-centred, but this is my own friggin blog anyway so WHO D F Cares?:P
Til this moment, i just realized this fully, the fact that i have CHANGED since i entered highschool. N i think it's not a really good change.. #sighing
i dun even understand it myself.. but when i think back again, i was such a diff person back then..
Somehow, i was super motivated, diligent, willing to do anything n blablabla..
N Look at me now! i'm super lazy, sleepy all the time n i even think that i've become even stupider!ugh
What has gotten into me? well, don't ask me since i don't even understand wat the question means._.
I've been kiiinda experiencing this for almost more than a year... n now... it's just worse than before.... SERIOUSLY DEPRESSING
This holiday was d worst one... my laziness has completely taken over. whether it's my mind, my body, my soul?#wtf
but i have some serious problem with the word B*LLSH*T..
i told my self, just rite before the holiday that i'm gonna read books, study, do homeworks and BE DILIGENT through the holiday.. BUT unfortunately, school starts tom n i haven't done a single thing..
WTF is wrong with me?
I'm seriously angry n furious at myself...
eventho i've realized this very fact, it doesn't really make me become better either since til now, I haven't finished a single thing..
This awful things called laziness has also affected my social life... like sometimes, i was even TOO LAZY TO TALK. WTH was tht rite?
I know that i often dream the impossible... Like living in NYC, travel around the world n do other awesome stuffs... like change d world?
Those dreams are like bullshits to me now...
i was like, "WTF mate? u wanna achieve those dreams but u dun wanna work hard for it? How wud u expect them to eventually come true then?"
K, so i'm practically lost now:| i dunno wat shud i do to make everything better n blablblblba...#sighing
see? i'm even too lazy to write now... i now believe that i , myself have a SERIOUS motivation problem...
so i gotta go now, cuz i'm too lazy to do anything besides watching eating n resting....
SO BYE
Ciaosuuu~!!
