When Things Have Become Clear...

I have to be honest, this post is gonna be very embarrassing... and very private.. but i want my future self to remember this moment, the quirkiness that occasionally happens in my life... It just means that i'm the one who's weird.. HAHA

So you see, the Major impact of PEDC, apparently is still within me...

And wat's worse? It was even following me around to the mighty Batu or should i say somwhere in Malang..:|

RITE, i should just get started..

I'm sure that most of my classmates and some of my friends alredy knw this...

Yes, i do have a crush on someone who i'm not supposed to like._. and FYI, he's NOT the one who likes my hairr~ 

K, why do i say he's not who i'm supposed to like? That's because he lives farfarfar away from where i live now.____.

Sounds sad, i know...

But anyways, i got this weird feeling out of nowhere.. i don't understand why i could develop such weird feelings and stuffs=="

i mean, when i met him first, i felt nothing. there was even no INSTANT CRUSH.. like wat i've always had when i think a guy's my type:p

So, basically, i kinda had a crush on me, by my super "sesat" assumption actually.. i might have assumed that he has a crush on me which actually caught my attention and not to mention the TEASING! he was teased by his friends n stuff n it got me thinking that wat i thought was actually true...

but well, this is just purely my misguided untrue presumption..... so please forgive my full of myself attitude=)

And this secret of mine was officially exposed on the mighty Malang Trip.. when i was playing TRUTH N DARE w/ my classmates._.

and i'm gonna stop talking about him cuz it'll just make me even moree depressed n stuff...

cuz i think i like him n it's such a shame to let him get away so easily._______. plus, i think he's nice n fun 2 talk 2... well at least thts wat i think ehehe and if he's meant 4 me, mayb we'll meet again in d future! ha! just kidding:P

RITE, so folks, unfortunately my school life isn't getting anybetter! My scores for the examination was horrible as predicted.... and not to mention the school works that are piling up for every each day..

I know it was the time for me to finally be more diligent, but i just can't and i don't know why..

Maybe that's because i can't overcome my own laziness but that's just purely B*llsh*t...

YEa well, this year is definitely not my year, but i'm just hoping that i could actually survive the year and move on safely to the next one... HAHA

ok so, there are 2 things that i'm kinda excited for tho! which are!:

1. O's dinner party

2. Owl City's Concert w/ O! HAHAHAHA

Yes, i'm super pumped and i totally can't wait~

butt before that, i have to work on my school probs n stuff and try to get my mind off u know who:D

So i'm just gonna stop now since i'm getting more and more sleepy now so bye!

Ciaosuuuu~!!!!

Think First, Then Do Unbelievable Things...

Hey my loyal fellow readers! Life is tiring isn't it? Cause that's just how i feel about my life now indeed==

but now, yall should congratulate yourself, because this mighty entry ain't all about how my stupid days were:) it's actually a good experience that i htink i should share with other people:))

Alrighty then, i shall reveal what it is about:P

So people, have you ever felt that you've done something wrong and there's this weird clingy feeling in your heart? Well fellows, it's called "REGRETTING".

Indeed, i have done this numerous times.. Trust me, i'm an expert at making bad decisions for my life...

FRUSTRATING==

Anyway folks, you definitely don't wanna face this kind of feeling on your entire life, because it sucks terribly and it's actually making you feel uncomfortable all the time..*sigh*

I'm making this entry so that i can remind peole about how they should think sensibly first before making a decidison, especially a big one..

Sooo, i have got some things that i kinda regret doing in my life.. *it's actually the ones that i can remember only*:-9

1. Become not in touch with my best friend anymore when i was a 6th grader.. I mean, she was like one of the best thing that had happened to me and i stupidly let her go.. I HATE ME:"(
2. Be a nicer daughter to my parents.. Well you could say that i'm a pretty horrible daughter== and as i become older, i finally able to see what's the right thing to do and what's not to do..
3. Be nicer to my siblings.. Besides the role of a horrible daughter, i'm also a horrible sister you see... I rarely act as a good loving sister to all my siblings.. normally, sisters r pretty much close with each other, well in my case, i'm not that close with her== What a life..
4. Hurting other people's feelings with or without noticing it.. I'm extremely good at this actually.. N yes indeed, the guilt is killling me inside slowly== Folks, i specially remind yall to be aware of this one, cuz this definitely sucks the most-_-

Well, i guess that's all for the regretting things:D

Anyway, this week is all about QT3.. n tom's english!:)

the hard ones were already done!HMPH

i think i did well in math, i think i did kinda well in physics n BI n i think i did kinda horrible in chemistry:p

GOODNESS, i hate that subject so friggin much! why on earth should students study chemistry anyway? It's soo hard to understand and the questions are complicatedT^T

Last thing to tell!

Sooo, the crazy dance audition is gonna be on friday! YIKES, i'm nervous indeed.. but i can't screw up.. i have to doooo my best and make my friends proud of me!#sonotgonnahappen

Well, i guess that's all to tell.. i'm sick of writing n i can't wait for friday!!!

BYEE~

n

enjoy ur life! #WTH

ciaosuuuu~!!!!

The New Season Has Begun! + HUGO review:)

Alright folks, first of all let me just say this to welcome the brightest season of all time,

"HAPPY A WEEK HOLIDAY"

that definitely sounds awesome huh?:D that's right, all the pain in the butt stuff has passed away *even though it will come again later* but i'm still happy for now:3

First of all, i'm gonna start off with a super amazing movie review by me!:D

Just yesterday, i watched a movie w/ a fren and it's called "HUGO".

And i was like, WOW-ed. The genius director Martin Scorcese is really one of the greatest director of all time.

The movie simply gave me the chill. All the visual effect and how the story progress really blew me away... It was absolutely beautiful!!

I also love Paris Btw=w=

Another fun fact, i also cried a little when Hugo was recalling his memories with his dad. and when the stupid inspector tried to take him away... REALLY, my eyes got really teary.. which proves even more that this movie is definitely something worth to be watched:)))

So, moving on then........

finally, QT 2 is officially over suckers~!!!!:DDDD

n yet, i'm still pissed because i know that the result's gonna be totally horrible cuz i sux:"((

i'm not just babbling btw, because it's the reality! *it's actually my prediction that is also in fact, A FACT! #WTF AM I TALKING ABOUT

anyway, overall i screwed up. but at least i've done some of the test in my bestest effort. even though i kinda made an xtremely stupid mistake for physics==

i'm just gonna leave those stuff behind and keep moving forward! TEEHEE

I'm gonna be talking about holidays now.... i mean like what am i gonna do and stuff... Here's a list of those unimportant things that should be done in this holiday:

1. Arrange my comic books in order and PROPERLY + NEATLY

2. Practice more guitar

3. Buy more comics

4. Watch the movies i've bought n haven't been watched yet

5. Stay up til late

6. Sleep til it's not morning anymore

7. Do lots of hang outs with my buddies

8. Clean my super awesome disgusting messy room

so maybe one or two numbers of that list is likely to be impossible.. (especially num 2 n 8) but who cares? What if i actually can manage doing those stuffSSS:)

aaah! i also have another good news!

YOU SEE, i was watching american idol yesterday, even though i didn't manage to watch the show the day before yesterday:"( and guess what?? All my favourites are still safe!!!!! YIPPIE! eventhough shannon was in bottom 2 girls..=0=

BUTT my beloved Phil, Colton n Heejun perhaps? are still safeee!!! I'm so glad and happy<33

n i guess i kind of have add Joshua on my fav list since when i saw him singing, i was like... WOW... he's super awesomee!

GOING TO THE NEXT TOPIC:)

alsooo, i've watched american's next top model cycle 18!!!! it's british invasion!!!!!!

i thought i'm gonna be rooting for the american girls, but i guess i was wrong. here i now claim myself to support britain girls!!!!!

i guess i just find those american girls too arrogant or somethin like that-.- but i have to admit though, some of them are still awesomely good at modelling==

NEXT!

yesterday, after the exam was over, i did a dancing practice with my friends and it was F*CK*NG hard and tiring and sweaty. Damn, i've never thought i would hate this kind of stuff this fast. i mean, it was not fun and it was hard==

SPORT Is so muchhhhhh better. #TRUTH

i'd rather play basketball, soccer, volley, badminton, swimming or even table tennis!

so now i'm gonna post a statement that i think is never going to change for some time later:

"I DO NOT LIKE TO DANCE"

so i guess that's all for today... i kinda have to take a shower now hehe and prepare myself for my guitar lesson=3=

soo byee!!

Ciaosuuuu~!

End of the week, finally @ peace..

Gosh, it's been a week already... such a long time eh?

Blame the stupid dumb" quarter test... this week was just... super disappointing n hard... n that's all thanks to QT1..:"(

butt it's the end of the week already, which means it's all over already!:D

got so much to tell, but i'm gonna summarise it since i don't wanna write that long:))

1st day of QT, it was chemistry. i really thought that i could do it. Like i was soo sure that i won't get a red mark. but guess what? on thursday i finally found out that i got 70... sooooooooooooooo F*ck*NG depressing n disappointing=-=" 5 more points then no more remedial.... IHATECHEM!

2nd day, it was english... so i "THOUGHT" again, that i won't get a bad mark. but i still don't know about the score til now.. it's still heartpounding but i'm pretty much sure i'll do just fine, but not excellent:(((

3rd day, hmm, if i'm not mistaken, it was math n BI.. n JUST LIKE WAT I THOUGHT, i screwed them up.... n what's even more F*CK*N pissing me off is the fact that i managed to skip A VERY EASY NUM ON Math which even guaranteed me even more that i'm soo gonna get a bad mark:D about BI? i'm not pretty sure about that, but i know that whenever i felt that my score is not gonna be that bad for BI, i always get the worst mark._.

4th day, PHYSICS... who would've thought that i think i did better in physics than math? now physics is not on my screwed up schedule... butt i still got plenty mistakes so i'm not that confident that i'll get the best score ever=="

5th/last day... it's biology time... which was supposed to be the easiest but turned out to be one of the hardest... SH*T. but it was also partly my fault for underestimating biology... instead of studying, i ended up playing guitar n stayed up til midnight.. I'm 70% sure that my biology score is also gonna be another depressing one... Haaaa~

anyway, that's pretty much all summed up huh?

although, i'm hoping that things will turned out differently tomorrow.. i'm gonna hang out wid my friends tom, and i'm gonna sing til i run out of voiceLOL *i know it's not funny but i still wanna use that sentence*

but you know, this whole week, overall is not very bad... there were some moments that i really like.. but i can't really remember the ones i wanna write so...:D *all i can remember are the ones that i don't wanna write so, sorry*

Ah, i think i had some fun yesterday on chem lab... the experiment was kinda interesting, n yeah i guess that's all?:PPPPPP *smiley*

hmmm, i don't really have anything to talk about...so i guess this is the end?:D

p.s. i'm sorry if it's really boring, but i'm pretty much very bored now so don't blame me?:) *the lamest excuse ever*

quote 4 d day? HMMMMMMMMMMM

"Don't give up easily in your life, once you find the right path, you will feel right again."

i know that some people might not understand about the quote, but i just kinda feel like writing it now soo... nyahahahhaa

alrite, dat's pretty much all!~

CiaosuuuU~!

Older by a year:D

First of all, i just wanna say, HAPPY BDAY TO ME!!!!!! hahahahaha

alrighty, let's get this started...

ehem, anyway today i wasn't supposed to make an entry, butt since today's special, so i guess i have to make an exception:))

First of all *again*, i wanna thank all my friends who greeted me cheerfully in the morning. It totally changed my sleepy tired mood back den:D i even enjoyed it soo much in a weird way:))

I guess this year's bday is fun:DDD I'm actually happy u see:P

WHY DID I FEEL DAT WAY? bcuz i managed to make a person happy today, i was able to talk sooo much during d sessions *i know this was wrong but i just can't help it* -> stupid reason

n this was d first time in my life dat soooooo many people handshake meeeee, i feel like a famous person or something *I WISH*

ssooo,,,,

eventhough the sessions in the church took so longgg, it actually didn't feel that way to me! why? because i was too busy arranging stuff about my bday party! *agaaainn*

anyway i then decided to invite more people, which have around 60 people or something??

i know it's a lot, but i can't help but just felt bad for the nice people who i didn't invite== so d invitation was remade *because d destination of the restaurant changed* and i made another 30 copies...

n u know wat's worse? It's gonna be somehow awkward and embarrassing to tell people that i changed d restaurant=-=" so i hope tom's gonna be gooddddd:3

moving onnnn...

So i'm still excited for saturday but also worried again== because the terrifying horrible QUARTER TEST IS APPROACHING NEXT WEEK:"(((

i'm kinda or very stressed out hearing this out because i told myself that i would be more diligent but by the way i'm acting now, it's kind of impossible==really..

NNNNN, yesterday, i played sims 3 n guess wat? it turned out to be very interestingly awesome... officially addicted dude! but i still manage to handle my urge to play that stupid game...... *actually, it's because my bro is on d computer for the whole day*

ok, i got a stupid physics test tom, so yeah... I'M SUPER WORRIED

so i'm just gonna pray hard n study again in the morning, hoping that i will be able to get a good score for the test... wish me luck!

and that's also why i have to go to sleep nowww:"(

n i have a quote today!:

"Bday only happens once in a year, so you better rock it before you miss it!"

I don't really understand what the quote means, but whocares anyway:D

last thing! I LOVE CHARLIE MCDONNELL'S NEW SINGLE "TIME TO REPLY", it's addicting!!

i'm taking off now!!!

Ciaosuuuu~!!

New day, new background:P

Well, i'm officially back from my depression n all those stuffs. I'm sick of saying stupid things that i'll definitely regret saying later:))

it's november already.. i can't evn believe how fast time flies.. n in 2 days, my class is going to stay @ lembang for some kind of retreat that i dun evn know wat's d use of it n so on. but i guess it's gonna b better than studying in d skool hheehe

anywy, i got gud news.. today, i got my physics 3rd QT back n apparently, i got 99! i can't evn believe it>.< i dun evn knw wats wrong wid me, how can i got such score?? i mean, i've alwys suxed @ dat subject but i guess i got lucky this time;D but i'm also pretty sure dat i'm gonna get an EXTREMELY bad score for math:( my teacher is ruthless after all==

aaaah, also i'm so friggin tired yesterday, since i slept like @ 12 yesterday:P plus, i hvn't read stupid anne frank=A=

n also, i read dis one shot comic about a boy who's been in coma for 4 years when he was confessing to his childhood fren. n when he finally woke up, d girl alrdy had a BF! dang dang dang! i cried after dat.. d manga is pretty realistic but it's just so sad:( d boy was handsome n d stupid girl chose her BF @ d end! how cud she:(((((((

anywy, i'm kinda grateful for able to find that kind of good manga heheheeeee

actually, i shud b doing my math hw now, but i guess dat i'm just LAZY.. so i guess i'll hav to postpone when will i b doing my hw:D

my grammar is such a mess todayyyy!! wonder wats wrong wid me=-=

one last thing to tell.. last week, i watched Real Steel wid my frens n i think it was pretty gud.. hugh jackman is super awesome like usual n d actor who's playing to be his kid is also cute:3

ok, i hv to stop now... but before dat....

Tadaaa! nice pic rite? hehe is dis pic just awesome or wat?:) i luv dis kind of scenery. fireworks r awesomee hehehe

dat's all for today..

Ciaosuu!~

AAAAAHH~ Stupid result from QT1... one word: DISAPPOINTING

As u can c from d title... dis post is about d result of d 1st QT:((((((

well, actually, i only know d mark

s of 2 subjects, which are physics n math...

There are gud news n bad news...

Bad news first: i got f*ck*ng 57!!!! WTH was dat???? well, dis was pretty much entirely my fault, since i was d one who stupidly left 2 essay nums blank... n evn if i was able 2 finish d essay, i still don't think my result will b satisfying=A=

Good/xtremely gud news: well.. evnthough i got 57 for physics, i still got 100 for math!!! *banzai, banzai!*>w<

*pic of natsume yuujinchou as a present 4 my mark hehe*

i'm proud of myself n d hardwork i've put to finish dat crazy exam:P but i'm still xtremely disappointed 4 my physics:((((( i suck!

ehem, anywy, i've so busy today n i guess dat's all 4 today...

n dang, i hvn't practiced my guitar!!!!==

i guess it'll b another busy week 4 me:"(

Ciaosuu!:D

Physics Quarter Test, i Hate ya!

From d title, u'll probably undertstand already what does it mean rite?
well, first of all, i'll explain wat is quarter test. Well, basically it's an ordinary examination... plus, it's also worth 20% of ur grade! dang dang dang...

hm, must b wondering why wud i write dis evnthough d QT has already started 2 days ago rite?

EHEM"... i'll begin my story...

today i had a 1st physics QT.. i've studied as hard as i could n put all my effort into it...
i even friggin woke up @ 3.45 a.m. just 4 reviewing 4 d test...

RITE b4 d test, i explained 2 my friend about d essay questions.. i said dat d last 2 nums of d essay r located above d MCQ question..
Den, we proceed 2 d test...

IN MY SELF OPINION (*d test was so friggin hard!!!!! i left so many blanks 4 d first 30 mins..)

anywy, i continued working n working den time was up!
i gave d paper 2 d teacher n started talking 2 my friends bout d exam..

CLIMAX *not making sense*:
anywy, when i heard 2 of my frens talking i was TERRIBLY, LIKE SUPER DUPER TERRIBLY HORRIFIED N SHOCKED bcuz i just remembered/found out about d essay question num 5 & 6...

F*CK!! dat was wat my mind was saying.. damn damn damn u stupid paper!

i left 2 nums completely BLANK! n my friends said dat it was SUCH A SHAME SINCE THOSE 2 NUMBERS WORTH 22 F*CK*NG POINTS!!!
*pardon d language*

well, i almost cried actually, it was d most horrible experience ever... but u knw, aftr reading a manga called giant killing, i had become optimistic... bcuz in dat manga, it said"

"It's ok to keep failing n failing, because there are also gonna b times when u shine n make people surpised/wowed by u:))"
it's a pretty gud quote actually, evnthough most of them r written by me:P

anywy, i'm so friggin sleepy n tired of studyin math.. so i guess i'll sleep now....

May everyone hav a blessed nite n i hope my classmates n i will b able 2 do tom's examination...

GANBARIMASUU!!!!

ok, i'm off 2 bed 4 real now... Ciaosuuu:D
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