The Ferris Wheel Of Your Life...

Hiiiii~ AGAIN!

It's been almost a week since i last updated, so i decided to update again now.. perhaps._.

anyway.... this one mighty entry is random, seriously....

Well, i mean, it's more like what i've been thinking of.. or things on my mind?:/

Anyway, let's just get started:)

So FOLKS, have you ever felt that u think u don't have a talent on anything? or like ur not good at even ONE single thing? Well, i hav:) a loooooooot of times fyi...

Indeed, sometimes i feel worthless n needless to say, i kinda have a loser-like-mental.. #ouch

But it's true tho! I sometimes gave up first before even trying... i also think that i'm not really capable of doing something extraordinary, except for the future tho... hihihihi but it's just one of my impossible dreams:)

SeE? i'm being pessimistic, AGAIN.

Well, how can i not think this way? i'm not really good at both studying or sport, i'm really slow at understanding things, i'm kindaaaaaa deaf, i'm slow n well, let's just say etc.....

It's like, i haven't found my speciality yet or something.___.

n yeah, i feel kinda worthless because of this...

Indeed i know that this is wrong... i shouldn't be this way... I mean, maybe i got other good things about myself, which i dun even know what it is...

But eventho i didn't realize it, it doesn't mean that other people don't rite?;;)

N also, this entry was inspired by today actually:p

since well.....

today i had the mighty biology test... n well, i didn't really screw up i think?:) but i still dunno... things can happen anyway...

BUTT that's not the main point~!

We also had this mighty speaking test which was about introducing urself n blablabla..

it's in B.I. btw.....

n as i expected! i screwed up again my fellow readers!!

i couldn't remember wat shud i say, i was super nervous, n it was super awkward.. talking about urself in front of the class=0= n there was lots of laughter.....== super embarrassing, seriously..

n well, i overall think that others did much better den me... like MUCH BETTER...

why is this expected again?

well, this is because of my super laziness fellas! on sunday, i watched "SOUL EATER" for the whole day then i studied biology for like, an hour only== #sighing

there's something wrong with me definitely... hihihihihi

Butt den the UNXPECTED thing happened...

When the teacher informed us about our marks, truthfully, i didn't really wanna hear it ...

cuz i know i screwed up so bad...== n it'd be xtremely embarrassing to have d lowest mark in d class... just like wat i did in chemistry:( #istillhatethatsubbtw

N WOW...

apparently i got the highest mark._____.

i dun mean to b arrogant, but i just couldn't believe it...

i dun know if the teacher actually felt sorry for me or something==

OR

maybe there's still something good about me after all...

n on that moment, well, i was grateful, really grateful... for my only God...

for making me this way...

i'm not exactly perfect, i knw that perfectly... but i still have something tho... i have something good about myself... n that really makes me feel happier about today:) #n it's not like i was also sad today anyway haha

this also made me realize that maybe i am capable of doing awesome great things like i want to, but i just have to try n do my best!:)) #this sounds so cliche

Ah, b4 i end tis entry, let me tell u a bit about my school life too:)

i've been meaning to say this but it's just kinda weird for me to say this but, I MISS MY BUDS==

i miss my crowded class, i miss the noisiness, i miss the fun atmosphere, i miss everything...

I dun mean to complain tho... cuz this is totally normal #ithink

i mean, i used to have these many people around d class n i was able to talk to so many people...

n well, it's kinda diff now:(

i'm kinda/prettyyy sad about this, but life must goonnnnn #sighing

But it doesn't mean that i dun enjoy my class now...

let's just say that i have adapted;;) n a good thing about having only 5 people in the class? i could joke around again n again w/ the teachers... eventho it was kindaaaa weirdly funnyLOL

butt i still miss my pals:"((( #sighing

i'm seriously sighing wayyyy to often... well, life has probs n that's wht makes it beautiful!~#singinglalala #WTFFF

k den, i gotta go now....

i got a math test tom n i think i'm gonna fail:D #PESSIMISTICAGAINHAHA

but i'm gonna do my best tho:") Wish me luckkk<3

i'm gonna go for real now!

Ciaosuuuu~!!!!

Some Things Are Just More Precious Than Money...

Oh well, hello again my fellow readers! Miss Me?;;) #smacked

Anyway! I shall tell you now, bout this very day!

Since YES my friend, i am officially happy n free temporarily! Why is this so? Well, u c, i got no hws or tests for tom!:DDDD so yeaah, i'm practically free today from all the burden from life<333

Anyway, this is definitely what i wanna talk about today...

I'm just gonna write a piece of my mind slash opinion that i got from religion lesson today.. it was so interesting:p

So it's basically about a topic that says,"Can money buy happiness?"

That was asked by my teacher today, n apparently all my frens have diff opinion from one another..

There r those who said that money can buy happiness while there's also someone tht said it was d opposite n there's even someone who said yes n no..:/

Well, yeaah... i'm practically d only one who disagreed fully..

FYI, i'm just telling d truth, i dun wish to b seen as a holly person by people cuz i know im not:) i'm just trying my best to be one...

SURE, everyone wants to be rich, to buy things that they wish they have, to not experience money difficulty of watsoever....

cuz to be honest, sometimes i do wish that i can b rich so that i can buy all the clothes that i want to have, living a high class lifestyle, have a huge house or even a rich husband:o

BUtt somehow, this thought doesn't really exist on my mind anymore..

today, i dun really care if i can't buy all those stuffs, like d xpensive clothes, gadgets, huge house...  this is 4 real btw!

ONCE again, i'm just expressing my own thoughts..:)

so, how exactly did this happen?

i dun really get it either, i mean, i do recall that my dad has once said to me bout being rich doesn't make u happy n blablablablaa butt i dun really remember if tht was the one tht made me realize._.

i started to notice then, when i first got my iphone..

U c, it didn't exactly make me super happy or anything, well yeah, i was kinda excited for finally having an iphone, but i can tell u one thing folks, tht feeling i have inside my heart cudn't really be described as what u call as happiness...

Then there was also one time that i already forgot when, when i was hanging out w/ my pals perhaps @ ppj? we were talking, having fun as usual n i was just smiley for d whole day=u=

or there was even a time, when i was with my family when we went somewhere i cudn't remember, i just felt like myself, there was peace n something relaxing in my heart..

den it hit me , was  this wat my dad meant? was this d real happiness that he talked about? about being with the people u luv the most on this earth?

Well, since then perhaps, i began to notice how much happiness that had been happening around me in my everyday life... hihihihi

i guess i'm now able to understand more about how to enjoy d real happiness.. n i finally understand what does the "H" word mean...

I know that i have a naive kind of way of thinking n well, my friends do know tht i'm not that smart either, but i'm glad that i'm able to think this way cuz this was what made my life now, n also who n wat i am...:)))

Evntho i hav this method of thinking, it doesn't really mean i don't desire anything tho:p i mean, of course i want something, but it's just not really related to wealthiness n stuff..

this is VERY embarrassing but who cares i'm still gonna write it cuz this is my f*ing blog after all but yes, sometimes, i want people to like me for who i am...

YESYES i do very much know that i'm not the nicest person on earth, in fact, i'm selfish, egoistical, mean, sometimes evil n i even enjoyed to be a b*tch sometimes==

so, it wud mean the world, for people to like me for the real me... cuz u knw, it's just not easy to find the people who can like u for who u are these days:")

there r also times, when i am honestly happy for the people that i luv. like when they're happy, i'm just really glad for them n hoping that the happiness won't go away.. this is so very much true, since i just felt this way on my father's bday a few days ago... it was just such a bless tht day, seeing my father that happy, being smiley n cheerful all day, GOSH, it was such a rare sight... n yeah, it made me even more than happy for him... cuz i luv him the most in this world after all:")

N, one last thing tht i desire so very much is...... well... EHEM", this is even more embarrassing damn it..

but yes, i am a very much normal girl so of course i do want to have that someone who i can share my happiness with, who can give me the beautiful experiences of life that absolutely can't be bought by money n to have someone tht luv me the most in this world....>u< 

i dun really care if that person doesn't have much money, or high status or watever is tht, as long as he is kind,*handsome* n also care for me from all d world, i'm already grateful to have that person to be with me:"))) #i still got my own standards tho, i mean, if he's not my type n i'm not evn in luv w/ that very person for every single day, it doesn't really count as wht i call my socalledhappiness then:p

k, i'm just gonna stop cuz this is getting weirder n weirder==

but i'm glad that i can finally able to express my feelings today, n tell the world how happy i am today... hahahahahLOL

so i'm just gonna go now n take a break from this beautiful day=u=

gonna write later again i suppose!BYE!

P.S. eventho i wrote this, it doesn't mean i don't respect others' opinion, i mean i respect them but i just don't agree with their way of thinking, that's all:) so that's also the reason why i'm writing today.. hihihihi

Ciaosuuuu~!!!!

What Matters In This Life I Have...

#WARNING! THIS ENTRY IS XTREMELY LONG N XCITING N BORING @ D SAME TIME SO FEEL FREE TO NOT READ N TO READ!enjoyyyy~

Hello again! heeheee

I know that i'm not supposed to write, but nothing can stop me from writing! mwahahah! #wtf

Anyway, tom i got this hugeeeeee #exaggerating biology test n for some reasons, i dun feel stressed out or watever is tht called, instead, i feel so full of myself! #meaning: i became diligent in some way, just not in studying... i mean, i did weird things that i've never done before when it's sunday, such as cleaning my desk?;;)

so yeaah, it's really messy now, but maybe it'll get better later?:"p

Anway, that's not the only weird thing that happened today!

this weird thing happened too when i was sleeping in the middle of my study...

i slept at 2 yesterday n woke up at 8 today so i obviously got sleepy after a few hours of waking up._.

den i decided to take a happyy dreamy nappie....

THEN d weird thing started to happen!

It's like i was sleeping, but it was different than the rest of my sleeping time.. #???

to make it clearer, it's like i was gonna lose myself if i don't wake up.... WEIRD totally rite?

i don't really understand what happened but after that, i kept trying to sleep again n again... n the thing happened again n again..

n there was even one time when i tried to sleep, i imagined myself that my hand was moving...

then after a few movement i started to realize that i was trying to throw a baseball.... it was so freakingly weird....

but then i decided not to sleep again n tried to study...

after those weird things that happened to me, i started to imagine things like, was i really asleep back then? was i asleep at my own dream? was i just too stressed out? OR MAYBE it was God's doing to tell me that i should wake up n study...

K".. i know that the last assumption is kindaaaaaaaaaaa impossible..

but it was just a crazy suggestion n it was more like what i believe..

n btw, this stuff didn't really happen today only... i kinda had d same thing whenever i was sooooo tired, to even to sleep....

Well then, let's move on to the next topic!

just last night, i watched "The Dark Knight Rises" n mannnnnnnn, it was sooooooo awesome!<3333

i just have to say this about the movie, "Christopher Nolan, u did such an amazing job for combining Christian Bale, Joseph Gordon Levitt, Anne Hathaway, Marion Cotillard, Gary Oldman, Tom Hardy and other those famous actors slash actresses that i couldn't remember together.... The movie was moving, super cool n i love it so much:))))"

i finally able to find a movie that fulfill my thirst of awesomeness.. #i know it doesn't make any sense, but i just luv saying it... ha!

Christopher Nolan has continued impressed the world including me by his stunningly amazing work... He's officially my favorite movie director now! HAHAHAH n i love BATMAN!!!!

actually, i met some of my friends otw to the theater n they annoyingly told me that the batman was gonna die......

n because of that! i cried a little in the middle of the movie since it was gonna be so disappointing if my beloved Bruce Wayner/Batman dies!

but the ending turned out to be...~ u know lah ya..:p

K, now! the last stuff i'm gonna brag about.....

was about the scary experience that i had rite AFTER i watched the dark knight rises....... #cough"

so then, i was on my way to go to the New Look to browse some clothes n perhaps buy some? HEHE

then i proceed to the escalator that connects the mall n the theater..

fyi, i was way to busy answering people's text, so i kinda not paid attention to my surrouding.__. n that my friend, was my biggest mistake.....

You see, while i was typing my blackberry on the escalator, all of the sudden, the escalator moved so fast! like much much faster than the usual!

i didn't notice this until the very last moment before i touched the ground...

when i finally looked away from my BB, all of a sudden my head hit someone in front of me.. i realized that there was a large flock of people just in front of the escalator! OMGOMG

just before i could see what the F was going on, somebody hit me from the back n i was like stuck so hard between people... 

it was exactly like what happened on David Archie's concert that i had been to a year ago...

ANYWAY i realized that i was at the edge of the escalator... n u see, it was dangerous to be at that place since the escalator could eat your shoes/feet.. my sister had experienced it before, so yeah.. i kinda know about all those stuffs..

n DUDEs! who wants their feet to be eaten by the escalator n their shoes to be destroyed by the super MIGHTY escalator??????

So then i decided to move away from the crazy flock by moving my body to the side... well, i managed to escape but my escape wasn't so cool== since my feet kinda hit the trashbin/ashtray n the ashes/sand fell everywhere! hahahahahahah:p

the first thing that i checked was my dad n sister who were also at the escalator at that time then my brother....OMG

i had no idea whether he came down with us or to stayed upstairs to wait for my other brother...

I screamed like an insane person to my lil bro's nanny, asking if he was there..

OW MAN, my heart was pounding like crazy, i mean, what if he was hurt? i barely got out safely from the crowd n wat bout him????? he was so tiny n small n OMG

i was just panicking like crazy.. then my anxiety finally calmed when i saw his face above..

i was like, THANK GOD....

but the fear has not yet to end, my hands were still trembling n shaking in fear, i was terrified, really... i just couldn't stop thanking GOD for still letting me to live:")

it was such a crazy slash terrible experience.... #sighing

THEN i realized, there was one other thing to be checked! MY NEW SHOES!!!!!!! ARGH!

i panicked even more after that, i mean, it was my new shoes... i finally decided to wear it tht night n this happened? MANNNNNN

but thank God nothing happened to my shoes... n believe me, i was gonna cry on set if something happened to my shoes...==

Well, u can call me crazy by worrying my shoes, but at least i prioritize my fam first tehee!

the thing is that.... i am a possessive person... like in a bad way== n i just realized this today! for God's sakes!! ughhh

so this made me well.... STINGY n HATE LENDING THINGS TO PEOPLE #those r pretty much the same tho

but i've tried to be moreeee generous these days since my dad told me something that i couldn't remember== but i remember about the part of being generous tho! AHHAHAHA

one last thing! this life slash dead situation of me has happened twice n they all happened @ PPJ!!!

i seriously considering of tearing up the place apart because of the suckiness n my hatred to that mall!

but then again, i was dreaming too much n it was not appropriate... hihi

if ur curious about my other life slash dead situation at PPJ, u cud ask me in person:P since i'm just too tired to type now...

DONE/FIN

k, officially done writing this entry now!

n i really gotta go now for some church time!

C YALL AGAIN NEXT TIME

n

THX FOR READING MATES!:")

Ciaosuuuu~!!!

It Has Been A Month Already...

#sighing

seriously, i really am doing it now...

Well, it's just been a very busy week n also tiring too... being an A Level student is definitely no more joking around .__.

n guess wht? i did a math quiz today n i probably screwed up but who cares.... i was too panicked to even do the question:(

So... let me just start by telling u about my life now... which was pretty much tiring n weird...

butt, i got a veryy good news tho! i mean life's been pretty much frustrating, but my mom just got back from the mighty USA so all those frustrations have gotten much much better than before:)

What i've been trying to say is that,  the stuffs that my mom bought me made me feel better a bit about whole other things in my life... HIHI

SO, first of all  i wanna show my new mighty cd off.. GUESS WHT? my mom finally bought me Mindy Gledhill's album, "Anchor"! It's bought by mail order since it was so hard to find that CD...

but i'm sooo grateful that i finally have the CD now!<3

Again, my mom also bought some shirts for me, but only one shirt makes me very much excited...

I got a LAKERS' Tshirt too! YIPPIEE!! i'm just so happy about that one!:")

Hmm.. she got me a bunch of other stuffs too.__.

N!

There's fortune cookies too! i Had so much fun eating these!>:)The cookies r plain delicious n i just love reading the fortunes<3 It's cute:P

N there's one surprising souvenirs left for me!

Well, believe it or not, i just got a new digital hello kitty camera from a cousin that i didn't even recognize probably! i'm soosoooosoooooo happy about this one!

I mean, i've never had a camera before, so it was new! YEY

i'm not just grateful for the stuffs she's given me, i'm also grateful about the fact that she was able to return to my home country safely:D

K then, maybe this is it for now..  i got somethin else on my mind butt can't write it on this entry tho.. teehee!

i'll write em all later den i guess.....

so...

BYE for now! hihi

Ciaosuuuu!~~

Life Is Still Spinning Like A Wheel..

First of all, i wanna make the title to be,"Life Goes On", but then i thought it was too simple, so i kinda decided to change it like that.. sorry if it sucked:p

a.n.y.w.a.y

OMGOMG

it's been like a thousand years already, since the last time i updated this beloved blog of mine<3 it's been a month actually and i kinda miss n not miss writing:)

You see folks, i got so much to tell... to the point that i can't even write em all down... i mean, i did lots of stuffs in my holiday... n i forgot bout some of em alredy._.

but i will still write about the things that has happened n fortunately i still remember>:D

p.s. the days when these events are happening are totally random

1. I surely did lots of hangouts w/ my friends which was funnnnn<3 i had a great time w/ T, VH, VK, O, F, Y, I, P, N... i miss em all during my holidays.. but school has started already so i alredy met them up again this week:)
2. I went to Singapore 2 weeks ago i think.. n it WAS SUPER FUN.. USS is definitely a veryyy fun place to be at if you play almost all the rides... n Sentosa island is beautifulll<333 i did a lot of shopping here, whether it was in orchard, vivo city, bugis or even somerset... #forgot the rest
3. I finally able to visit TSB! weewww, the rides were scary._. eventho i only rode one scary ride which was the mighty giant swing.. i was practically dead when i rode it:( but i had tons of fun w/ my buddies... hihi
4. that's rite! i also did a bunch of sleepovers in my summer holiday~u~ i finally able to got to know some people better i guess:D n i'm glad heehee
5. I found two great shows called Grimm and Suits on my last week of holiday.. I'm currently watching Grimm and after that, i'll proceed to Suits<3 i luv tv shows(y)
6. F*CK*N WENT TO JASON MRAZ'S CONCERT! ALRIGHT BABYY!! N obviously, he rocked d concert n i love him even more<3
7. Somehow, i find myself addicted to Mindy Gledhill's songs.. this is my first time for liking all songs in an album<3 Mindy is d best after all! HEEHEE
8. Maroon 5 is having a concert this oct n i dun think i'm gonna b able to go to the concert so yeah, i'm disappointed:(
9. I also somehow find doramas r quite interesting these days! i luv Osamu Mukai<33

SOO

MAYBE THAT'S ALL?

again, i got something weirdly awesome to tell!

So listen up folks! your stupid buddy here, is finally an A Level student now! like officially!!! #applause

well, it's not really something to be proud of since it's gonna be a lotttt harder than last year n i'm gonna have to be even more diligent to survive._. but i'll do my best anyway, for the sake of my future! #puking

K, so i know this is now something to be proud of #again, but i can't help it but to feel that way sometimes.. i mean, from the previous years, i know that x-ALevel student from my school r mostly smart people like T n OD, that's why it's suchh a weird miracle that i also got in.. #burst into tears:p

n yeah, maybe it was kinda or xtrmely arrogant of me, but please just let me be like this for this moment only:) i got nothin else to be proud of anymore anyway...:D

it's actually a pretty good start for me, for this new school term.. since i suddenly got this spirit of fighting, i bought new stationary stuffs n i miraculously just almost finished my math hw.. i just hope that this year is gonna be different and i'm gonna be a better person whether it's about my personality n also my academic achievement:)

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm, so maybe now i'll proceed to what happened today! this is one good story to tell anyway!

So yesterday was practically my 3rd day of school.. n the lesson has started too...

First of all i wanna tell yall, in A Level, there'r gonna be some lecturers from wherever they are to come n teach us once a month i think? totally forgot about those stuffs..

anyway, so yesterday was the biology lecturer's turn. N man....  I really didn't expect this that happened.__.

i'm just trying to be honest about my opinion n i'm not mocking him or anything btw..

so yeah, i couldn't understand a single word he said in English and guess what? so did my friends..

the 2 hour period felt like it was 4 hour period for us, since well.. it was boring, we couldn't understand a thing n d class was so frigging cold...

i was sleepy like for the half of the lesson... n yeah, i'm not happy with the lecturer, i mean, it's very very good about the fact that he still wanted to teach us in English eventhough he couldn't really speak well, but what was it all for if neither of the students understand what he was saying?

I kinda feel bad for him but i'm still kinda pissed at him too since i just wasted the 2 hour period learning absolutely nothing... #mebeingbitchy >:(

k, done w/ the bitchy stuffs...

n i'm like sleepy as hell now, since i probably only got 3 hours sleep yesterday cuz i couldn't sleep for some reason:"(

so i guess this is good bye~!! n i'll post a new entry ASAP! TEEHEE!

CiaosuuuU~!!!!