One Night...

It all happened in just one single night. Not everything was bad but the bad things seemed to have overcome the good things..

Sorry for the very depressing intro, but i honestly don't know what am i supposed to do anymore, it's been a fun depressing day...

SO

Tonight was one of my closest friend's birthday celebration. And i happened to be one of the dancer for her party:D

Yes, we're getting to the fun stuff HAHA

Let's just say that the birthday girl is called I. so a couple of days ago, I has told me that my crush is gonna be at the party. Ofcourse i was excited at first, i mean, it's been long since the last i saw him:) But what i didn't realize was the fact that i also have to dance in front of him:|

I didn't think that he would actually be in front of me, seeing me dance but i was WRONG. He was right in front of me and O.M.G. All the dance moves that i've memorised the day earlier came into a HUGE BLANK. I didn't remember anything and my mind couldn't stop itself from being stressed out. Yes, i totally humiliated myself, in front of my crush, awesome.

Ok, i've accepted the fact that my image was already ruined. It's not like i expected something better either *sigh*

Anyway the party started and blablabla.. Somehow it was really awkward for me whenever he was near me:/ i guess i still KINDA idolize him lol

It sounds really creepy, but i couldn't help myself to not stare at him==" i know that i'm such a lame stalker but it was the only thing that i couldn't stop myself from doing it:>

So the night proceed well and yes he looked soo cool throughout the night and again, he's made another good impression~~~ Not to mention how well dressed he was tonight:D *totally exaggerating but whocares*

But for me, the best part was that i could finally listen to his voice. Again, why am i so creepy OMG

It was the first time and i was somehow happy because of that... weird meee~:DDDD i guess i have to thank I again n again for making all this happen to me! *hugs*

There are still alot of things that i'd like to talk about him but i don't wanna bore u with all the facts why he's so admirable and stuff:)

moving on to the second thing.

A really bad thing has happened to one of my closest friend. I'm not gonna say a name and i feel so sorry for her:( She kept blaming her self and didn't stop crying again and again. And as usual, as the most useless friend in the world, i didn't know what was the right thing to say or what can i say to cheer her up.

It was really sad for me to watch her suffer like that:( I really suck when it comes to consoling upset people. Since i'm not exactly that smart or knowledgeable about human psychology.......

But i hope what i did was enough.. I tried my best already, by giving her my useless advice and i can't do anything else besides wishing her nothing but happiness:D

anddd finally the last thing that had happened tonight...

On my way home, i got a message from my teacher, asking whether i've received a mail or no. Then it hit me, i remembered what I said that she was very worried for this week because this week was the final decision whether you were gonna pass the grade or NO. And i remembered her saying that if she got a mail, it would mean that she has failed.

Instead, i was the one who was screwed.

My mind went blank all of a sudden. I didn't know whether i was supposed to be happy or to be sad. I mean, if i didn't pass the grade, i would probably be transferred to the bilingual class. I said to myself that i was prepared to do this since i got along with most of the people and stuff, but something in my heart felt like sighing again and again.

I guess what made me feel that way was the fact that I HAVE FAILED MYSELF. 

And it's not just me who i have failed, there's also my dad whom i've disappointed:(

But when i think about it again, i guess my dad would be happier if i joined the bilingual programmed since it would definitely ease his burden.

okay, end of stories~

In the end, i still believe that everything happens for a reason. Whether it's a good or bad thing, It all happens because it's what's good for me. According to God ofcourse..

I guess everything has its own positive side:) if i joined the bilingual class, maybe my life would change into a better one? maybe i'll gain more friends than before? And what's even better is that i don't have to take the stupid A level examination when everyone's already on vacation:p

AND i also have to remember that i have to thank God for the good things that have happened to me today:)))))))) yes, i guess i'm still very much happy about that~

So folks, whether you think that your life sucks very much now or no, you should read what i just wrote>:D it's not like i'm trying to show off or anything, but i hope i can help more people to try to do what i'm doing:) It's definitely a rough road, but we still have to face it with optimism in the end;;)

Ok, i guess that's the end for today's depressing yet pleasant-ing entry..

Hope u guys enjoy it and i hope it's also gonna be helpful HAHA

BYEEE

Ciaosuuu!~~~

Friendship Matters...

Hiya folks!

So sorry for not updating a new entry for so long, i've just been so busy with my life and stuff:) AND yes, it's been fun and sad at the same time, but i've managed to survive until this very day, which is a pretty awesome achievement of myself HAHA

so now, what you're about to read is a super boring dumb story called my life:) actually, just a part of it and i still consider this as a very important part of my life:) so prepare to be bored by the longest, yet the most terrible entry ever made by ME. ENJOY.

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Her name is S.S. We met when we were in 6th grade. Eventhough we went to the same school for 5 years, we haven't been on the same class until the 6th year, which is our last year in elementary school. Our class is the mighty 6A which consist of the most awesome people among the other 6 graders.

Being a kid, i was super shy. I couldn't talk very well since i was SUPER SHY. not to mention that i was one of the shortest kid in the class== So yeah, i didn't have any courage to initiate a conversation with people back then._. i was just...quiet. Especially in a new class, i still didn't know some of the people and it was just, AWKWARD.

THEN, after a few weeks being in 6A, the teacher arranged the seating arrangement. I sat next to a boy *whose name i don't remember* and the table beside me is where S sat. And that was how we met for the first time.

I didn't really remember, but i'm pretty sure that she was the one who started talking to me first. Then i thought, this girl was so friendly and nice, maybe i can be friends with her!

And apparently i was right.

After a few days only, we started to fool around together by calling each other nicknames. I called her "onion" (in indonesia: bombay) while she called me "chili" (in indonesia: cabe). I absolutely have no idea where we came up with such stupid nicknamesLOL but it was so memorable:)

THEN, we started to give each other drawings of our nicknames in almost every lesson. so basically i drew her evil onions while she drew me evil chilis. We were so weird, laughing when nobody was, like we had the world to ourselves. It was one of the most beautiful memories i have in life, having fun with her:')

After doing doing that like for numerous times, she started approaching me everytime. like in the breaks, p.e. time, etc. I did pretty much the same as her. I enjoyed being with her, so it's obvious that i like being around her too.

Honestly, after 7 years studying in my school, i've never felt like i actually have a best friend. but i was just a stupid kid who knows nothing about the world, so i'm perfectly fine with just having friends. Then she happened to me. and my life got awesome all of a sudden.

From that moment on, we instantly became best friends. We texted each other all the time and i didn't even remember what we were talking about, but i do know that we had lots of fun together.

Back then, when i hadn't known her, i always visited my friend in other class on breaks. but after meeting her, i started to hang with her close friends. And i guess my social life turns a little better after that.LOL

there was also one time, on arts and crafts lesson, we were supposed to make something out of disgusting brown claysLOL. and we always sat next to each other whenever we can. So after the lesson, there were some left over clays. then i had an idea of making an onion figure from the left over clays for her. 

i didn't really remember whether i told her to make one for me to or she made a chili figure by her own will.

Then we ended up exchanging the weird clay figures to each other. And yes, i still kept the clay>:D

here's the mighty chili clay! *sorry for being too lazy to rotate the pic*

One of the fondest memory i have about her, was when we promised each other to meet up early at school just to read comics. I didn't really know why but i really enjoyed those times. I remember reading a comic that was so funny cuz the main character had a super weird pair of eyebrows== and at one of those early mornings when we were together, i told her to read the comic and just like what i thought, she laughed so hard like someone was tickling her nonstop.

Then i started laughing hard too while looking at the funny eyebrows and listening to her laughter. and we both laughed like crazy until people started coming to class.

I also remember that she was a sesat and good influence to me at the same time. cuz after getting to know her, i started copying homeworks from others>:) but since she was SOOO diligent about her studies, i started studying well too, not like i used to== since i didn't wanna be left behind by her too far.

On holidays, i would visit her house for almost everyday and we played computer games the whole time we were together. she introduced me to great games like sims 2, neighbors from hell, hotel giant, and other computer games that i still like playing until today. She got all the awesome GAMES from her big brother so i was kinda jealous of her back thenLOL *i was desperate by wanting to have an older brother at that time*

I was still so crazy about animes too back then, and when visiting her house, i would watch the funny anime dvds that i just bought with her. but one reason why i like visiting her house so much is actually because i loved eating the food there #plak

but seriously, the food was good there, so.........

Until today, my memory of her is still crystal clear, like how much she was obsessed with doraemon== n i still don't understand what's so cute about a blue cat robot who has a magic pocket that can stick to his tummyROFL *no offense S*

All of you will probably say that i'm totally exaggerating this matter. and actually, if i read this kind of post a few years back, i would probably say the same thing.

And all this exaggeration wouldn't be written if i didn't realize how super nice she is.

It was when all the 6th graders went to Gambung since we're just about to graduate. i recall that I didn't feel so well when i arrived at that place so i decided to use some kayuputih oil to my stomach to make me feel better.

apparently she didn't really like the smell of kayu putih oil so she covered her nose and stuff and said things that i don't remember:D

folks, i was still a DUMB kid, so you have to understand that after she acted that way, i became angry and isolate myself from her and her group *which was actually my group too*

for half the day, i spent myself hanging out with my friends from other class._.

Then on the night she approached me and all of a sudden, we started talking again. And i stopped acting like an *ssh*l*;)

i didn't realize this after a few years graduated from elementary school. when i was around 15/16, i realized that i was SUCH A J*CK*SS to her by getting mad because of something that stupid. *in my defense, i was just a dumb kid back then:(*

But the one important thing that i also realize is that, she could stand being around someone like me. even after i ditched her just like that just because of a STUPID matter. 

As a matter of fact, i think of myself as a horrible person. i'm selfish, complains a lot, impatience and also kinda dumb:)

so to all of you who are still friends with me, i want to thank yall, for still being able to stand someone like me and having me in your lives.. i know that i haven't been the "greatest" friend ever, but i'm gonna try my hardest to, so please, give me the chance to do so:)

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FUH, what a long entryy~

but it's over:) and i'm super tired of typing UGH

anyways, thx for reading and i hope you enjoy today's entry n i hope i can get a good night sleep tonight:) *wtf*

soo it's the end for today! n i'm gonna end it with a simple........BYE.

n

Ciaosuuu~~~~

That Moment When You Couldn't Think Of Anything Else Besides Happiness...

GOODNESS, i know i'm not supposed to write now, i'm supposed to sleep and prepare for tom, which is d BIG day but i can't help myself since today was officially, "one of my greatest/bestest day ever".

So, if you read my blog from last year, around september too, there was this debating competition called PEDC in my school. AND, i had my part there as the liaison officer... *if ur interested to know wat's liaison officer/LO, just read my previous post on last year:p

a.n.y.w.a.y.

so this year, i am taking care of students from... let's just say a school not from my city:p

I must say that they'r nice:) And most importantly, i support them with all my might! #haha

And today was actually when d REAL competition began! and it was intense, ladies n gentlemen! HAHAHA

well to be honest, i sometimes don't really understand wat were they talking about... butt i sometimes listened and the topics were actually pretty interesting;;)

so todayyy, my team won 2 rounds... and i'm pretty proud of em...HAHAHAHAHAH #wtf

but i really am, til now:)

so again, the thing is, being an LO is so much fun, cuz u got to know several new people there, u learn how to interact with strangers... it was pretty much all awkward but i did my best already anyway:p

NOT TO MENTION how much craziness i xperienced with my fellow LOs... MAANNNNN

I had so much fun with all of em... I'm gonna miss today sooooo bad for sure...

and to be honest *again*, i dun really care about my bio test on monday after wat happened today...~

funniest moment ever, had to be when i tried to eat some chocolate crackers with N while we were doing our job..

It was so hard to hide the stupid crackers, but my stomach wanted to eat something so i laughed for almost 10 mins when d debate started and started eating those crackers...=u=

BUTT readers, that's not the CLIMAX YET.

and i'm still gonna blabber about how all the LOs informed their teams whether they got into top 8 or NOT.

so all the LOs were given a glass of orange colored juice.. and they were 2 diff kinds of taste, mango and orange.. so the winning team or the top 8 will taste the mango juice while d rest got orange juice..

And soo yeaaah.. my team got the superb mango juice and i was just so excited for them~

unfortunately, they were some teams that i felt bad because of their lost. like my friend, Y's team... MAN, yall should have seen all their faces.. they were so sad and gloomy... i felt bad for em.. and Y also told me that she felt sorry like so terribly for em:'(

and THIS was when the real thing started!

So uhm, Y then asked me to take her pic with her team together, for the last memory..

i decided to help her, since well, i felt bad for them, really...

DEN, when i went to approached them, i could hear that someone from her team was saying something that i couldn't hear since well, i'm kinda deaf:)

i did not look at him back since i thought he was saying smething to Y...

BUTT den after a second later, he said something about not being heard...

then i realized, OMG, he was talking to me! #panicked/shocked

Then i asked him again, 2 friggin times!== since i couldn't listen wat he was trying to say...

n guess wat he said....

"i like ur hair"

DUDES, for someone like me, who has never been complimented on the hair department, it was like.... u were sent away to the sky with the super weird fluffy feeling==

But it was such a pleasing compliment;;) and eventho it was embarrassing..

Yeahhyeah, u must be thinking that i'm an easy girl or watsoever, but still, i am rarely complimented on those kind of things, so yeah, it really made me happy...:) and actually, i acted kinda crazy afterwards since i couldn't stop smiling and laughing to myself._. but i was so happy so wat?:p

actually, there was a whole lot other story about Y's team about i'm just too lazy to write em al down...

i just want today to not be forgotten:D

such a fine day eeh?:) i had so much fun and the fun continued for tom:)

wish my team luck and i hope tom's also gonna be super friggin awesome^^

I'm gonna take off now since i have to sleeepp, BYE

Ciaossuu!!~

It Takes A Long Time To Grow Young, Oscar WIlde

Hellooo again folks!!!! Welcome once again to my mighty blog:)

Now, i'm gonna stop with all those reviews n start to write more again about my lifeeeee... Sounds boring. I know.. but can't help it tho:p

So then, from the title, i'm pretty sure u'll understand wat's the entry's all about...

YES FOLKS, last friday, i was celebrating one my friend's SWEET 17~!

OH yes, it was a lot of fun...

I took lots of pictures theree~ with my beloved friends of course:)

Well i also have to say that i'm not particularly close w/ the bday girl so yeaah, all the fun things only happened between me n my besties #hugging

There were lots of performances n weird games= =

but i still think that some of the games were too............. :) #notgonnasayit

The mighty bday celebration was held in Deruzzi... it's my first time being there, so i was so stunned bcuz the place is HUGE n super elegant!

anyway, the day was not as beautiful as i just told yall just now.. since the preparation for the party was like one of the worst moment of my life #argh

We had to rush to do almost everything which was tiring physically n mentally seriously==

THE DAMN TRAFFIC was also not helping @ ALL.

The situation from the salon to the party place was a total chaos. BUTT as soon as i reached the place, it all disappeared quickly:) HAHA

Relax folks, u haven't reached the best part YET.

SO, basically there were like tons of people there... n yeah of course, there were lots of people from my school...

THEN i found out that there were also some people from my friend's old school...N between those people, there were some guys that were actually my junior when i was in junior high school... before i moved at the 8th grade...

OHHH MY, after the long 3 or 4 years, i finally saw him again with my own very eyes!

MY old crush!LOLOLOLOL

 n he was even better than before<3 a="a" crush="crush" got="got" him="him" i="i" on="on" p="p" so="so" still="still" wat="wat" yeayea="yeayea">

But that one thing was one of the thing that made me smile that night... i can't even stop smiling now #truth

I know that he played basketball when we were on the same school n i miss his play...  n he's gotten so much taller, n charming:3 He was also wearing a SUIT! OWMY! i love guys with suits, seriously:") #sinceivebeenwatchingsuits

MANMAN, i really sound like a very girlish girl just now... but well, tht friday was a good day after all, so i dun care:)

BTW, i've told V, about him at that time, so she was sooo super curious about who he was:p but unfortunately she didn't get a chance to see him, so yea... wateverr:p

RITE, done with those girlish stuffs n moving on!

a week after that *ithink* my other fren den invited me to her bday party @ the Trans Hotel.. n man, this was when d fun started!

I had so much fun last night! it was only a simple dinner party, but i couldn't help it but to enjoy the moment so much:D me n my friends took so many pics and we talked and eat GUD STUFFS, like really GOOD STUFF<3 p="p">

i ate scone, medium rare steak, roasted duck, cocktail, sushi, cakes n other other good food i can't mention:P

i have to say taht my hair was kiiiiinda bad or terrible._.

BUT compare to the tons of fun i had, i dun care very much about my hair anymore:)))

i'll just say that the hotel was pretty awesome n i had gud food..

So i guess that's all for today, n i'll see YOU people later! BYE

Ciaosuuu~!!!!

Some Things Are Just More Precious Than Money...

Oh well, hello again my fellow readers! Miss Me?;;) #smacked

Anyway! I shall tell you now, bout this very day!

Since YES my friend, i am officially happy n free temporarily! Why is this so? Well, u c, i got no hws or tests for tom!:DDDD so yeaah, i'm practically free today from all the burden from life<333

Anyway, this is definitely what i wanna talk about today...

I'm just gonna write a piece of my mind slash opinion that i got from religion lesson today.. it was so interesting:p

So it's basically about a topic that says,"Can money buy happiness?"

That was asked by my teacher today, n apparently all my frens have diff opinion from one another..

There r those who said that money can buy happiness while there's also someone tht said it was d opposite n there's even someone who said yes n no..:/

Well, yeaah... i'm practically d only one who disagreed fully..

FYI, i'm just telling d truth, i dun wish to b seen as a holly person by people cuz i know im not:) i'm just trying my best to be one...

SURE, everyone wants to be rich, to buy things that they wish they have, to not experience money difficulty of watsoever....

cuz to be honest, sometimes i do wish that i can b rich so that i can buy all the clothes that i want to have, living a high class lifestyle, have a huge house or even a rich husband:o

BUtt somehow, this thought doesn't really exist on my mind anymore..

today, i dun really care if i can't buy all those stuffs, like d xpensive clothes, gadgets, huge house...  this is 4 real btw!

ONCE again, i'm just expressing my own thoughts..:)

so, how exactly did this happen?

i dun really get it either, i mean, i do recall that my dad has once said to me bout being rich doesn't make u happy n blablablablaa butt i dun really remember if tht was the one tht made me realize._.

i started to notice then, when i first got my iphone..

U c, it didn't exactly make me super happy or anything, well yeah, i was kinda excited for finally having an iphone, but i can tell u one thing folks, tht feeling i have inside my heart cudn't really be described as what u call as happiness...

Then there was also one time that i already forgot when, when i was hanging out w/ my pals perhaps @ ppj? we were talking, having fun as usual n i was just smiley for d whole day=u=

or there was even a time, when i was with my family when we went somewhere i cudn't remember, i just felt like myself, there was peace n something relaxing in my heart..

den it hit me , was  this wat my dad meant? was this d real happiness that he talked about? about being with the people u luv the most on this earth?

Well, since then perhaps, i began to notice how much happiness that had been happening around me in my everyday life... hihihihi

i guess i'm now able to understand more about how to enjoy d real happiness.. n i finally understand what does the "H" word mean...

I know that i have a naive kind of way of thinking n well, my friends do know tht i'm not that smart either, but i'm glad that i'm able to think this way cuz this was what made my life now, n also who n wat i am...:)))

Evntho i hav this method of thinking, it doesn't really mean i don't desire anything tho:p i mean, of course i want something, but it's just not really related to wealthiness n stuff..

this is VERY embarrassing but who cares i'm still gonna write it cuz this is my f*ing blog after all but yes, sometimes, i want people to like me for who i am...

YESYES i do very much know that i'm not the nicest person on earth, in fact, i'm selfish, egoistical, mean, sometimes evil n i even enjoyed to be a b*tch sometimes==

so, it wud mean the world, for people to like me for the real me... cuz u knw, it's just not easy to find the people who can like u for who u are these days:")

there r also times, when i am honestly happy for the people that i luv. like when they're happy, i'm just really glad for them n hoping that the happiness won't go away.. this is so very much true, since i just felt this way on my father's bday a few days ago... it was just such a bless tht day, seeing my father that happy, being smiley n cheerful all day, GOSH, it was such a rare sight... n yeah, it made me even more than happy for him... cuz i luv him the most in this world after all:")

N, one last thing tht i desire so very much is...... well... EHEM", this is even more embarrassing damn it..

but yes, i am a very much normal girl so of course i do want to have that someone who i can share my happiness with, who can give me the beautiful experiences of life that absolutely can't be bought by money n to have someone tht luv me the most in this world....>u< 

i dun really care if that person doesn't have much money, or high status or watever is tht, as long as he is kind,*handsome* n also care for me from all d world, i'm already grateful to have that person to be with me:"))) #i still got my own standards tho, i mean, if he's not my type n i'm not evn in luv w/ that very person for every single day, it doesn't really count as wht i call my socalledhappiness then:p

k, i'm just gonna stop cuz this is getting weirder n weirder==

but i'm glad that i can finally able to express my feelings today, n tell the world how happy i am today... hahahahahLOL

so i'm just gonna go now n take a break from this beautiful day=u=

gonna write later again i suppose!BYE!

P.S. eventho i wrote this, it doesn't mean i don't respect others' opinion, i mean i respect them but i just don't agree with their way of thinking, that's all:) so that's also the reason why i'm writing today.. hihihihi

Ciaosuuuu~!!!!

Life Is Still Spinning Like A Wheel..

First of all, i wanna make the title to be,"Life Goes On", but then i thought it was too simple, so i kinda decided to change it like that.. sorry if it sucked:p

a.n.y.w.a.y

OMGOMG

it's been like a thousand years already, since the last time i updated this beloved blog of mine<3 it's been a month actually and i kinda miss n not miss writing:)

You see folks, i got so much to tell... to the point that i can't even write em all down... i mean, i did lots of stuffs in my holiday... n i forgot bout some of em alredy._.

but i will still write about the things that has happened n fortunately i still remember>:D

p.s. the days when these events are happening are totally random

1. I surely did lots of hangouts w/ my friends which was funnnnn<3 i had a great time w/ T, VH, VK, O, F, Y, I, P, N... i miss em all during my holidays.. but school has started already so i alredy met them up again this week:)
2. I went to Singapore 2 weeks ago i think.. n it WAS SUPER FUN.. USS is definitely a veryyy fun place to be at if you play almost all the rides... n Sentosa island is beautifulll<333 i did a lot of shopping here, whether it was in orchard, vivo city, bugis or even somerset... #forgot the rest
3. I finally able to visit TSB! weewww, the rides were scary._. eventho i only rode one scary ride which was the mighty giant swing.. i was practically dead when i rode it:( but i had tons of fun w/ my buddies... hihi
4. that's rite! i also did a bunch of sleepovers in my summer holiday~u~ i finally able to got to know some people better i guess:D n i'm glad heehee
5. I found two great shows called Grimm and Suits on my last week of holiday.. I'm currently watching Grimm and after that, i'll proceed to Suits<3 i luv tv shows(y)
6. F*CK*N WENT TO JASON MRAZ'S CONCERT! ALRIGHT BABYY!! N obviously, he rocked d concert n i love him even more<3
7. Somehow, i find myself addicted to Mindy Gledhill's songs.. this is my first time for liking all songs in an album<3 Mindy is d best after all! HEEHEE
8. Maroon 5 is having a concert this oct n i dun think i'm gonna b able to go to the concert so yeah, i'm disappointed:(
9. I also somehow find doramas r quite interesting these days! i luv Osamu Mukai<33

SOO

MAYBE THAT'S ALL?

again, i got something weirdly awesome to tell!

So listen up folks! your stupid buddy here, is finally an A Level student now! like officially!!! #applause

well, it's not really something to be proud of since it's gonna be a lotttt harder than last year n i'm gonna have to be even more diligent to survive._. but i'll do my best anyway, for the sake of my future! #puking

K, so i know this is now something to be proud of #again, but i can't help it but to feel that way sometimes.. i mean, from the previous years, i know that x-ALevel student from my school r mostly smart people like T n OD, that's why it's suchh a weird miracle that i also got in.. #burst into tears:p

n yeah, maybe it was kinda or xtrmely arrogant of me, but please just let me be like this for this moment only:) i got nothin else to be proud of anymore anyway...:D

it's actually a pretty good start for me, for this new school term.. since i suddenly got this spirit of fighting, i bought new stationary stuffs n i miraculously just almost finished my math hw.. i just hope that this year is gonna be different and i'm gonna be a better person whether it's about my personality n also my academic achievement:)

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm, so maybe now i'll proceed to what happened today! this is one good story to tell anyway!

So yesterday was practically my 3rd day of school.. n the lesson has started too...

First of all i wanna tell yall, in A Level, there'r gonna be some lecturers from wherever they are to come n teach us once a month i think? totally forgot about those stuffs..

anyway, so yesterday was the biology lecturer's turn. N man....  I really didn't expect this that happened.__.

i'm just trying to be honest about my opinion n i'm not mocking him or anything btw..

so yeah, i couldn't understand a single word he said in English and guess what? so did my friends..

the 2 hour period felt like it was 4 hour period for us, since well.. it was boring, we couldn't understand a thing n d class was so frigging cold...

i was sleepy like for the half of the lesson... n yeah, i'm not happy with the lecturer, i mean, it's very very good about the fact that he still wanted to teach us in English eventhough he couldn't really speak well, but what was it all for if neither of the students understand what he was saying?

I kinda feel bad for him but i'm still kinda pissed at him too since i just wasted the 2 hour period learning absolutely nothing... #mebeingbitchy >:(

k, done w/ the bitchy stuffs...

n i'm like sleepy as hell now, since i probably only got 3 hours sleep yesterday cuz i couldn't sleep for some reason:"(

so i guess this is good bye~!! n i'll post a new entry ASAP! TEEHEE!

CiaosuuuU~!!!!

Distractions By Sweets And Life...

Yeah, you could say that i've been very lazy to write this blog.. BUTT seeing my friend here who just started blogging like a couple of months ago have been soo diligently writing her blog, so i decided to tell something about my life again:)

Indeed a lot of things happened.. The one that i can't stop thinking about and also the ones that make me happy:)
Including the fact that the stupid report card has alredy been given to us! AND I PASSED GRADE 10 peacefully<3
THANK GOD:)

my marks weren't that wow-ing.. i mean at least now i'm able to go to A level! the mighty A LEVEL! hahaaha
yes i'm not kidding... i know the journey is not gonna b easy, but i just have to do this. I know i can and with God, what's impossible anyway?:DDDDD

K... EHM..
Done with the report card thingy and let's move on to the next topic:p

I've been busy with a lot of good happy stuff this week. It's summer after all! i'm so excited hahaha~
the start of this beautiful holiday is not that good though.. But i managed to get through all of em except for one effing thing which is personal and i can't stop thinking about it n kinda making me crazy:(
*this thing makes me unable to stop listening to Mindy Gledhill's songs=.=
sorry folks, i'm just not that ready to write about this prob.. so next time!:3

a.n.y.w.a.y! today my mom officially ciao-ed herself to the country i've always wanted to go... which obviously USA~!!! OMGOMG
I'm indeed disappointed the fact that i can't go. but i'll just let that go and just wait for my mum to come back and bring me lots and lots of souvenirs! SHE HAS TO! HAHALOL

so i think i should tell about how my day goes today huh?
so today's all about my day with VH n her sis! HAHAHAHAHA
it was fun indeed!!

we went swimming together, then even went to BSM!

DUUUDEEESS! we were so pathetically hilarious... LOL i mean, we purposely entered some high class stores that we can't even afford to buy! like Versace, Hugo Boss n lots of other stores.. i can only remember 2:|

here's the thing about today...
"WE ATE LIKE PIGS!"
it's true though hahaha

U see, first, we ate at this restaurant called "Plate For Me" and WOW man!
it was awsomely delicious...<333
we ate spaghetti pesto n pizza! YUMYUMMYY heheheeeee

but the day's not over yet!
we went to Bakerzin then, to buy some desserts! YEAAY

we were gonna eat souffle at first... butt guess what? the price was unbelievably expensive damn it!

and what's worse? the souffle that i wanted was not available.. so i decided to just buy a mango mousse..
it was sweet, mango-ish and tasty! i think!:)))

and sooo, VH decided to buy the raspberry souffle.. which was so expensive.. n not to mention... VERY SOUR-ish! LOLOLOL
B4:

After:

i can't stop laughing literally.. i mean the pudding-cake-like was delicious, i have to admit.. butt! the ice cream? UGH can't stand it at all!
it was super sour and bleeh..
my point is that: WE F-ING HATE IT HAHAHAH

but VH managed to eat em all which was amazed me actually:p

so we ended up walking around n around then without noticing, the day has ended....

YES today was good. n i can't thank anyone else beside my one and only God:) thanku...

K, so maybe that's all for today.. my eyes r getting sleepy n sleepier.. heheee

so c yall later! PEACE UP!




Ciaosuuuu~~!!!!

Summer Is Just Around The Corner

HELOO again! Man, it's been such a long time n i apologize for that:) I've been.. busy? not really i guess, i'm just being as lazy as i can as usual..

Life's been pretty gud to me.. I'm fine and finally able to enjoy these days of my life...

K, i'm just gonna start blabbering about the things that have happened this couple of weeks... TEEHEE

1st, i'm gonna b talking about~~ my sleepover w/ V.K. n V.H. at V.K.'s house!

Man, we took like tons of pics... i had so much fun and it was just very enjoyable..:))

AND since i'm as usual too lazy to do anything, so i'm not gonna write the details of my sleepover... HAHA

THough i'm gonna write one thing that we managed to make that day, which was the bucket list of what are we gonna do for this summer... Exciting huh? n moreover, we're planning to do em all for the entire summer! HA!!

2nd, my life's officially back since QT4 has ended!!!! YEAH! but unfortunately i still got a week more for the remediation test which was pointless i think=3= *sigh* but it's only one more week so i gotta stay strong man!!!:D

3rd, I finally went to that place called "Suga Rush", well i have to say, overall, the food was good, but it was ONLY gud, not more than that:) and the employees? i'm not here to complain but man, the service sucked. me n my friend even had to queue for like a half of an hour just to buy a friggin creme brulee! Yes maybe that was very impatient of me, but really, there was only ONE person serving the dessert counter and how was that supposed to make the line of people keep moving forward?>:(The creme Brulee fortunately, didn't suck though! HEEHEE We ate the blueberry pancake, baked tuna rice n my mighty salad:P

K again, so i've been doing a lot of thinking... I actually have been thinking to make a new blog! Relax fellas, it doesn't mean i'll leave this one out, my other blog is actually gonna be like movie reviews:) I dunno why but i luv movies n tv series so much! *americans of course* n i just kinda decided to make a new blog after a long time of thinking:P

SOO, summer holiday is just around the corner n i'm super xcited:3 i'm gonna do lots of fun stuffs w/ my pals! YEY! there will be tons of hang outs and talking of course~

Last one, i, the most embarrassing person who at first decided not to buy a blackberry decided to buy one now... it took me 3 friggin years to buy one 4 God's sake!==

But it doesn't mean i'll throw my iphone away, i'll still keep it, but it means i have to say gudbye to my white phone:"(

But i guess this is for the best=3= i just hope my decision is not wrong this time._.

SO again, 3 more days of stupid unimportant remediation.. n the rest is about having fun with my friends... hahaha

Maybe that's all for today? i'm just very much lazy n haven't studied biology... Damn i'm screwed!

but at least i still enjoy my life n i'm smiling heeheeeeeee

One last thing, today i talked to 'him' and indeed, i'm the happiest person on earth noww! haha!

K, now i really gotta go... I'll update some more later so BYE!

Ciaosuuuu~!

Secrets In Your Heart...

Well, hello again perhaps?HAHA

it's been a long time n yeah, i'm still a horrible person as ever== wat a life..

Anywy, that's not wht i wanna talk about, i'm actually gonna talk about these past few interesting days.. n regretful n sad n embarrassing n weird...

So just this friday... as usual i talked with my girlfriends... n suddenly the topic became weird slash embarrassing..

actually, i was the one who accidentally brought it up.. SH*T

i told em that i had nvr been in love with anyone== butt it doesn't mean tht i've nvr gotten a crush on someone b4;P

butt, it was fun indeed! it was something new for me n man, i really enjoyed "The Talk"...

What does "The Talk" actually mean? *drumroll*

Actually, there was nothing pretty much that special... it was just talking about boys/guys that we kinda likeLOL

Owh yeah! it was soooooo much fun! n i, unfortunately was the one who admitted first==

I told em that the person's name starts with a LETTER which i'm not telling:P *i only told my girls cuz it was a secret! ha!*

THEeen,, weirdly, T who doesn't even know the person guessed correctly! WOW

V.K then laughed so hard since she knows the person== embarrassing!!!!!!!

but she kinda understood why i like him, cuz he's indeed gud looking==:)

butt, the stupid crush ended on junior highschool, since i rarely saw him these days:) 

UNFORTUNATELY V.H. n T didn't know who the person was... sooo, it was kinda relieving:9

it was totally the first time in my life, telling someone about my feelings or the people that i like:P MANN

But the talk ended early since we had something else to do... n guess wat? i ended up smiling like a crazy person when i was waiting for my guitar teacher because of the stupid talk!! n i couldn't stop thinking about it!! AHAHAHHA

So moving on today...

i had this photoshoot w/ my classmates in Bale Pare.. it was fun n tiring.... we took tons of pics! AHHAAHAH *again

anyway, there was trouble at first, cuz i amazingly put on a wrong dress:"( sh*tty right? so then FORTUNATELY, my friend, V brought an extra dress, so i ended up wearing her dress which was soo short n cute i think:))

The photo shoot went well i guess.. n we had so much fun there... even though it was mostly all about taking pics and talking HEHE there were balloons, wines, flowers, baskets n lots of other properties:o

there was this one shitty thing happened after that, i accidentally hurt my feet cuz of the stupid flat shoes..:"(( it hurts like hell... damndamndamn *sigh*

BUTT the story hasn't ended yet folks!

so the journey continued on our way home.. actually V.K n i join T's car to paskal... there was also V.H there!:))

AND there, officially, THE TALK CONTINUED!

All these 3 crazy people were xtremely insisting... n that was actually my fault, for telling V.H on the day b4, that i've actually got a crush on someone now... *truth* different person from junior highschool though*

I refused at first, by insisting them back to also tell me:)) so T finally confessed bout her old crush but unfortunately i didn't know the person so it was disappointing...=3=

BUTT again, the topic went back to me:"(

they started to suggest things which were true indeed, cuz i was soooo embarrassed for telling them who it was..

V.K promised that she would tell hers if i tell mine.. so after that i finally said it! only the characteristic though.. nyahahahaha:))

i told them that: 

1. He's a kind person, cuz i know the kind of person like him:)

2. He doesn't consider himself as a cool slash handsome looking guy..

I actually told them the things that i kinda like about him== which was embarrassing indeed._.

THEN, guess who guessed rightly this time? that crazy girl V.K!lolol

when she guessed the name, i immediately hide my face and the girls were laughing like crazy... DAMN IT.. n i was kinda blushing of course...=-=

but i guess, sooner or later i have to tell the truth, soooo..:P who cares lahh..:P

i also stupidly told them about the way my eyes were always looking for him.. *uuughh* but 4 real, when u like someone, he just suddenly became the centre of attention of ur eyes, ur eyes just instantly look 4 his presence=="yikes! 

n also, he's always on ur mind whenever n wherever i was==

Then, finally V.K admitted bout hers.. n i was d only one who was laughing weirdly hehehe

but it didn't end there!! u see, V.K n i insisted V.H n T to admit who was the guy they wanted to make him to be their bfs... HEHE so it'd fair for all of us:))

N weeeww... the person that they said were the same, n to make it even weirder, it was also the person that i like..LOL

i guess, our tastes of guys are pretty much the same.. hehehee *high5*

anyway, our talk continued into weddings, after weddings and we even made the stupidest promise ever... we promise that we would pick the rest of us to become the bride's maids!LOLLOL

we even talked about having kids... n V.K also said this weird stupid thing...

"But guys look cute when they were playing with kids."

N SOmehow in a weird way, i just couldn't help myself but to imagine 'him' playing with kids..

then we mocked V.K by telling her that she must b thinking bout the person that she said b4!LOL n V.H also read my mind damn it.. 

and the day ended...

it was tiringggg n super fun!

After the mighty QT4, i am sooo gonna have a sleepover w/ those crazy girls! nyahahahahaha

anyway, QT4 starts next week... so i just hope that i can do my bestest! YEY!!

ok den, i gotta leave now.. i'm bored n tired of typing... but i definitely enjoyed writing this one:)))

SEE yall next week!!! i'll write again after this period of suffering n studying:3

Ciaosuuuu~!!!!!