Secrets In Your Heart...

Well, hello again perhaps?HAHA

it's been a long time n yeah, i'm still a horrible person as ever== wat a life..

Anywy, that's not wht i wanna talk about, i'm actually gonna talk about these past few interesting days.. n regretful n sad n embarrassing n weird...

So just this friday... as usual i talked with my girlfriends... n suddenly the topic became weird slash embarrassing..

actually, i was the one who accidentally brought it up.. SH*T

i told em that i had nvr been in love with anyone== butt it doesn't mean tht i've nvr gotten a crush on someone b4;P

butt, it was fun indeed! it was something new for me n man, i really enjoyed "The Talk"...

What does "The Talk" actually mean? *drumroll*

Actually, there was nothing pretty much that special... it was just talking about boys/guys that we kinda likeLOL

Owh yeah! it was soooooo much fun! n i, unfortunately was the one who admitted first==

I told em that the person's name starts with a LETTER which i'm not telling:P *i only told my girls cuz it was a secret! ha!*

THEeen,, weirdly, T who doesn't even know the person guessed correctly! WOW

V.K then laughed so hard since she knows the person== embarrassing!!!!!!!

but she kinda understood why i like him, cuz he's indeed gud looking==:)

butt, the stupid crush ended on junior highschool, since i rarely saw him these days:) 

UNFORTUNATELY V.H. n T didn't know who the person was... sooo, it was kinda relieving:9

it was totally the first time in my life, telling someone about my feelings or the people that i like:P MANN

But the talk ended early since we had something else to do... n guess wat? i ended up smiling like a crazy person when i was waiting for my guitar teacher because of the stupid talk!! n i couldn't stop thinking about it!! AHAHAHHA

So moving on today...

i had this photoshoot w/ my classmates in Bale Pare.. it was fun n tiring.... we took tons of pics! AHHAAHAH *again

anyway, there was trouble at first, cuz i amazingly put on a wrong dress:"( sh*tty right? so then FORTUNATELY, my friend, V brought an extra dress, so i ended up wearing her dress which was soo short n cute i think:))

The photo shoot went well i guess.. n we had so much fun there... even though it was mostly all about taking pics and talking HEHE there were balloons, wines, flowers, baskets n lots of other properties:o

there was this one shitty thing happened after that, i accidentally hurt my feet cuz of the stupid flat shoes..:"(( it hurts like hell... damndamndamn *sigh*

BUTT the story hasn't ended yet folks!

so the journey continued on our way home.. actually V.K n i join T's car to paskal... there was also V.H there!:))

AND there, officially, THE TALK CONTINUED!

All these 3 crazy people were xtremely insisting... n that was actually my fault, for telling V.H on the day b4, that i've actually got a crush on someone now... *truth* different person from junior highschool though*

I refused at first, by insisting them back to also tell me:)) so T finally confessed bout her old crush but unfortunately i didn't know the person so it was disappointing...=3=

BUTT again, the topic went back to me:"(

they started to suggest things which were true indeed, cuz i was soooo embarrassed for telling them who it was..

V.K promised that she would tell hers if i tell mine.. so after that i finally said it! only the characteristic though.. nyahahahaha:))

i told them that: 

1. He's a kind person, cuz i know the kind of person like him:)

2. He doesn't consider himself as a cool slash handsome looking guy..

I actually told them the things that i kinda like about him== which was embarrassing indeed._.

THEN, guess who guessed rightly this time? that crazy girl V.K!lolol

when she guessed the name, i immediately hide my face and the girls were laughing like crazy... DAMN IT.. n i was kinda blushing of course...=-=

but i guess, sooner or later i have to tell the truth, soooo..:P who cares lahh..:P

i also stupidly told them about the way my eyes were always looking for him.. *uuughh* but 4 real, when u like someone, he just suddenly became the centre of attention of ur eyes, ur eyes just instantly look 4 his presence=="yikes! 

n also, he's always on ur mind whenever n wherever i was==

Then, finally V.K admitted bout hers.. n i was d only one who was laughing weirdly hehehe

but it didn't end there!! u see, V.K n i insisted V.H n T to admit who was the guy they wanted to make him to be their bfs... HEHE so it'd fair for all of us:))

N weeeww... the person that they said were the same, n to make it even weirder, it was also the person that i like..LOL

i guess, our tastes of guys are pretty much the same.. hehehee *high5*

anyway, our talk continued into weddings, after weddings and we even made the stupidest promise ever... we promise that we would pick the rest of us to become the bride's maids!LOLLOL

we even talked about having kids... n V.K also said this weird stupid thing...

"But guys look cute when they were playing with kids."

N SOmehow in a weird way, i just couldn't help myself but to imagine 'him' playing with kids..

then we mocked V.K by telling her that she must b thinking bout the person that she said b4!LOL n V.H also read my mind damn it.. 

and the day ended...

it was tiringggg n super fun!

After the mighty QT4, i am sooo gonna have a sleepover w/ those crazy girls! nyahahahahaha

anyway, QT4 starts next week... so i just hope that i can do my bestest! YEY!!

ok den, i gotta leave now.. i'm bored n tired of typing... but i definitely enjoyed writing this one:)))

SEE yall next week!!! i'll write again after this period of suffering n studying:3

Ciaosuuuu~!!!!!

The Way It Is Supposed To Be..

It's been what? 2 weeks? Yes indeed readers, i haven't been that diligent to write more entries since my days were just filled with nothing but laziness..

but trust me, those days r so very much enjoyable n they've been very good to me:)

So anyway, there r lots of things to write, starting with last week:P

There were 2 bday celebration last week! which were F n Rs'!

F's bday was in Azzura, PPJ...

N on that very day, i ate something so terrible== it was super sour, weird n lemony? EW

The stupid sour fish was disgusting, i wouldn't even wanna go to that place anymore.. I'm so friggin traumatized with that sour dori fish:"(

And @ that time,i was still sick, with mucusy nose n sore throat.. What a life right? My head was also pounding so hard after a while being there=-=

But i had fun:D Well, hanging out w/ friends is always fun indeed:*

So on the night of the next day, it was R's turn...

That day was as busy as hell! Damn! on dat stupid day, i found out that i will have my guitar examination on sunday, so i have to go to my guitar course first==

after my guitar course, i immediately went home, washed my hair, dried them and dressed up..

My hair was still horrible but whocares?== The dress was still gorgeous:)

So den on a restaurant called Queen, i ate juan lo there? It was sooo damn delicioussss<3 i wanna eat it again..:)

Yeah, well d rest of the days were pretty much just like that... lots of dancing practice n idling around with myself...

Ah! that's right! On sunday i have the stupid guitar exam n it was such a mess:)) i am pretty much sure that i'm so gonna fail, i mean, i played so horribly and nervously... n i hate the person beside me! Why d hell was he so good at playing it! i feel like the worst person in this worldTT

N it didn't get better after dat..

So me n V had promised to each other to meet up at church on sunday afternoon.. in order to become an altar girl or something like that...

IT was SUPER EMBARRASSING.. There were only kids there! like stupid careless kids! n we were d only ones who r teenagers... I'm sooooooo embarrassed== not to mention the mentor is someone i knew once! i even talked to him before== when i was in the elementary school.. DANG

But on tuesday,i went out to PPJ w/ my friends... it was fun:) we played Pump n i ate a quiche n finally able to pronounce it!:DDDD

I wasn't able to bring myself to do all the stupid homeworks n all== i don't know why on earth am i this lazy, but it's just really hard to do the hws:"(

i hope i can't finish em all before the deadline...

Anyway, school starts in 2 days n it sucks... why can't holidays be longer? I don't wanna go to school yet!!!!! UGGGHHh

also, QT3 starts next week n i can't even touch those stupid horrifying books:DDDDDD

Okso, dats pretty much the end of my complain n how my days go on with this stupid boring idling life=_=

I'll b writing again soon!

Ciaosuuuuu~!!

End of the week, finally @ peace..

Gosh, it's been a week already... such a long time eh?

Blame the stupid dumb" quarter test... this week was just... super disappointing n hard... n that's all thanks to QT1..:"(

butt it's the end of the week already, which means it's all over already!:D

got so much to tell, but i'm gonna summarise it since i don't wanna write that long:))

1st day of QT, it was chemistry. i really thought that i could do it. Like i was soo sure that i won't get a red mark. but guess what? on thursday i finally found out that i got 70... sooooooooooooooo F*ck*NG depressing n disappointing=-=" 5 more points then no more remedial.... IHATECHEM!

2nd day, it was english... so i "THOUGHT" again, that i won't get a bad mark. but i still don't know about the score til now.. it's still heartpounding but i'm pretty much sure i'll do just fine, but not excellent:(((

3rd day, hmm, if i'm not mistaken, it was math n BI.. n JUST LIKE WAT I THOUGHT, i screwed them up.... n what's even more F*CK*N pissing me off is the fact that i managed to skip A VERY EASY NUM ON Math which even guaranteed me even more that i'm soo gonna get a bad mark:D about BI? i'm not pretty sure about that, but i know that whenever i felt that my score is not gonna be that bad for BI, i always get the worst mark._.

4th day, PHYSICS... who would've thought that i think i did better in physics than math? now physics is not on my screwed up schedule... butt i still got plenty mistakes so i'm not that confident that i'll get the best score ever=="

5th/last day... it's biology time... which was supposed to be the easiest but turned out to be one of the hardest... SH*T. but it was also partly my fault for underestimating biology... instead of studying, i ended up playing guitar n stayed up til midnight.. I'm 70% sure that my biology score is also gonna be another depressing one... Haaaa~

anyway, that's pretty much all summed up huh?

although, i'm hoping that things will turned out differently tomorrow.. i'm gonna hang out wid my friends tom, and i'm gonna sing til i run out of voiceLOL *i know it's not funny but i still wanna use that sentence*

but you know, this whole week, overall is not very bad... there were some moments that i really like.. but i can't really remember the ones i wanna write so...:D *all i can remember are the ones that i don't wanna write so, sorry*

Ah, i think i had some fun yesterday on chem lab... the experiment was kinda interesting, n yeah i guess that's all?:PPPPPP *smiley*

hmmm, i don't really have anything to talk about...so i guess this is the end?:D

p.s. i'm sorry if it's really boring, but i'm pretty much very bored now so don't blame me?:) *the lamest excuse ever*

quote 4 d day? HMMMMMMMMMMM

"Don't give up easily in your life, once you find the right path, you will feel right again."

i know that some people might not understand about the quote, but i just kinda feel like writing it now soo... nyahahahhaa

alrite, dat's pretty much all!~

CiaosuuuU~!

Voilà~! Celebration n Tiresome!

WOOHOO! i'm writing again today! mwahhahahaa

Anyway, today's entry is all about yesterday which was my weird sweet bday party:D

OVERALL, i just wanna say thanks to all people who came n gave me these awesome presents.. so let's just get started:p

ok soo @ 4.30 i arrived @ glosis wid my mom, N FYI, i hadn't put my dress on because there was no time!:) anway, while i was putting my dress on, OD came. First guest!

Then my mom took some pics of me which was weirdly embarassing and thank GOD paddy came. so when there were two of my friends already, i won't take any pics anylonger:) *evil daughter

So after pady came, people were starting to show up. I was pretty much relieved and @ 6, almost all people had come:D

BUTT something was kinda pissing me off because no matter how many times i told people to sit and order something, they didn't listen to me and kept standing n talking==

a.n.y.w.a.y

everything well went after that...

i ate good stuffs and also on that night, i felt like i was a famous person or something. i mean, people kept asking for a photograph wid me! which made me felt pretty good about myself and busy at the same time. and it was very tiring in the end==

this is wat i ate yesterday btw... it was too salty but delicious:D

moving on...

so when it was time to blow the candle n stuff, it was pretty weird i must say. at one moment everyone was like singing n i was blowing d candle n there were clapping everywhere. then the cake was taken to be cut *so people can eat em* and the activity changed into opening presents!LOL

there were some presents that pissed me off, like it was wrapped beautifully on the inside, but on the inside, THERE WERE HORRIBLE ROCKS, GINGER DRINKS, MILK 4 losing weight, A GIANT ORANGE N SOME WEIRD BOTTLES==

those stuffs were crazy...

but then i started opening other presents which had the REAL present in it.

then finally d final moment came. n i was about to open another present that had a shape like a guitar. i was frustrated n tired so i wouldn't really think that it was a guitar. i thought it was gonna b another rock n stuffs==

but guess wat?

my prediction was all wrong N I GOT A NEW F*CK*NG GUITAR~~~~~~~@!!!

truth: i was so touched, surprised n happy. it was like d best present i'd ever gotten in my lifeeeeee~~!! and u knw wat's even better? the guitar smelled so good and it was soooo friggin smoothLOL everyone took a lot of pics with it!!

another shocking moment:

finally me n my friends were able to convince my fren T and Jeff to took a pic together!! DAMN~ they looked good together!!! i really wish that this couple could be a real couple in the next couple of months!

@ homeeee...

finally i was home. i was worn out and just sleepy. but it didn't make me stop ripping off the presents!!! n yeah, my room was a total mess after opening those presents. butt i really enjoy that moment too because it was just.... enjoyable? *not making any sense*

anway, i got great presents and THANK YOU AGAIN SO MUCH 4 ALL MY FRIENDS WHO HAD COME AND GIVE ME THESE AWESOME PRESENTS!

I REALLY"""""" APPRECIATE EM ALL!!

ok, i gotta change to the next new entry, about something super amazing that just happened.. so bye!

Oops.. new post!

it seems dat last week, i'd already made another new post. n since d inet was not working n watsoever, i ended up forget to post it:D soo, i'm gonna post it now! *such a waste if dis is not posted, it's about MUSIC~

hmhmhm, weekend has come by! which is super awesome! i'm definitely excited n can't wait to spend it little by little bcuz on monday, hell is back:P

i knw i'm KIND OF *mayb very* exaggerating about dis, but really, these days, skool was not very enjoyable== everyday, there's little time 4 me to relax since after skool, i still hv private lesson somewhere else.. i can't sleep i can't watch i can't read. dangdang!

it's been a tough n tiring week, but i'm hoping it will change next week!

OK so, d reason i'm making a new post is bcuz:

1. i've become more interested in my guitar

2. i've started searching guitar chords on d inet

3. DEN I FOUND PEOPLE PLAYING BOKURA GA ITA'S SONGS!!!

ok, i'm gonna discuss mostly about num3:DDD

first of all, bokura ga ita is d most awesome romantic anime i've evr watched in my life. The characters are perfect, d guy is sooooo handsome n real n their luv story is sooo friggin beautiful *crying

so, den i searched sum guitar chords on utube n find out people hav been playing suki dakara n merry go around wid a guitar!! damn i'm about to scream:DDDD

so, as soon as i heard it, my tears r instantly flowing... i'm very touched by d songs n it seemed dat lots of people hav d same reaction as i do *if they've alredy watched d anime*

oh well, but in d end, i was not able to play any songs since i cudn't understand guitar chords *like how to play em== but it was a fun experience to search 4 these kind of things:D

but, i manage to play romance de amour, not d whole song, but a quarter of it i guess heheh *another improvement

well, i guess dat's all i gotta report today... n tonight, i shall eat delicious gourmet:D

Quote 4 d day: "Being in luv wid music is d best thing that's evr happened"

I'm off now!

CiaosuuU!