Thoughts.

Finally, after being absent for half a year, I AM BACK B*TCHES....

And what's also great is the fact that this entry is not gonna be a depressing one, since all the previous ones were "quite" like that.

But this one entry is gonna be super random since it's so late and i have to sleep FAST or else my dad's gonna be pissed AGAIN :)

You can see what is this entry all about from the title. Without further do, here i GO.

• I am currently studying Deutsch. I don't hate the language, but the thought of memorizing of every single word and articles sickens me.
• Also very much obsessed with a blogger who lives in Berlin. Her blog is very inspiring and humorous. It got my spirit of studying DEUTSCH back too:D
• My super-maybe-not-so-impossible-goal-now: studying in german.
• Ah yes, after i didn't decided to not take my A Levels, i despise my old SCHOOL. (it's a long story) And hate it even more for every single day til this point.
• Been trying my best to become "mature" and "nicer". It's so hard since i'm so childish and selfish but still working on it.
• The older i get, the more i get to know myself even more. I'm temperamental, emotional, quiet, gloomy, easily depressed, overthinking, mean (like a b*tch and i enjoy being one) aaaand also easily disgusted. (may have develop OCD)
• As much as i like being around people, being alone is when i am able to enjoy my relaxing time the most.
• I always JUDGE other people. Sometimes i can't even accept them for who they are. That's probably one of the reason why i should just be left alone.
• (copying this from a website) I prefer to lead my life FREE. Freedom is something that can't be taken away from meh.
• In the end, i'm also one of those mainstream people who miss their highschool life. (on the 11th grade only though) Life does get harder the older you get.
• I still wonder what is the right and wrong thing to do. Sometimes it confuses me.
• Believe it or not, people like me, who are too lazy to even talk, exist in this world.
• Starting a youtube channel has always been my dream since 11th grade. But still no progress at all until now. (yes, i am full of sh*t)
• Just had the realization that i only like depressing songs. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME.

And i guess that's all, since i don't really know what else to write.

I'm gonna be writing more oftenly these days, HOPEFULLY. So when i look back in time, i will be able to remember all those funny and sad memories that i had in life.

It's time for me to go. Ciao~su!

WORST.NIGHT.EVER.

Ok, so something really horrible just happened to me:) And actually, it happened just now. Exactly on this cursed night of the 25th May 2013. Once again, I have succeeded in making a very BAD impression to my friend's parents:)

And that's exactly why i want to write this. So that in the future, i won't do the same thing and NEVER EVER LET THIS KIND OF THING HAPPEN TO ME AGAIN ;_;

Yes, i'm still freaking out about what just happened, but i'm gonna try to calm myself and start writing the story......

Today started horribly. I woke up late with my hair, being messy as always. When i looked at my watch, apparently it was already 10. On that moment, i knew that i barely had time to get ready to go. I had to run here and there, just to prepare the things that i might need for my friend's sweet seventeen dinner party on the night. Then at around 11, my dad, me and my sister with her friend went to V's house since i thought it would be nice to hang around her house and then go to the dinner party together.

I had a pretty good time there. We watched, cooked and talked about nonsense stuffs like we always do. Then at 3.30 we started to prepare ourselves for the dinner party, and finally went together at 6. Most of V's classmates who were invited didn't come so there were not many people there. Then i talked to my friends and blablabla. And somehow the conversation between me and V came to a point where we talked about how badly i behave at her house.____________.

Apparently her dad thought that i was not polite enough as a teenager. And damn. It was like a cannon bomb was fired at me. The guilty feeling inside of me was eating me up. That thought kept reminding me how impolite i was everytime i was at her house, or my other friends' house. it was indeed stressful and i was about to go crazy at that time. I spent the rest of my time on the party by thinking how horrible my image is to her parents.

Ah, before i reached that conversation, i talked to my dad about what time will he pick me up. And apparently he had to eat and do stuff first before he could pick me up. So i decided that it would be a good idea if i just went to V's house and my dad would then pick me up from there.

When we were on our way to V's house (along with her mother and sister), her mom suggested to take me home. I literally ran out of words. I didn't know what to say or what should i do. I had tried everything to refuse the offer countless time. I felt even more terrible after she decided to drive me home instead.

Finally i gave up and just go along with it. I mean, what could possibly go even more wrong?

THEN another unfortunate moment happened as soon as i reached home. I completely forgot that my house maids always slept at around 8.30 because they thought that the whole family would arrive at home late. So as soon as i reached home. i tried to press the bell again and again. It didn't work:) And my house maids were still sleeping soundly. I started to freak out since it started to rain. V's mom then told me to wait inside the car before the front gate was opened.

Inside the car, i tried calling the house. Then something SHITTY happened again. once again i forgot that my phone can't be used to call since no more credit were left. SO YES, i have to borrow V's phone in order to call the house. I tried countless times to call the house but it did not work:) so i tried calling my dad and he didn't answer:) i tried calling my driver to ask my house maids' numbers and he hung up the phone:)

How can i not freak out in this kind of situation??????????

I'd tried almost everything that i could to wake those STUPID MAIDS up and nothing worked. Even V's mom had tried to honk the car for several times. And nothing seemed to work. I was desperate and I panicked. And in the midst of the chaos situation, i said something that kind of indicated that V's mom shouldn't had taken me home. I literally about to killed myself when i realized about what i just said.

Then i finally got an idea to end this SUPER AWKWARD SITUATION.

I climbed the front gate and started banging the door like crazy. I kept banging and banging the door, hoping that those STUPID MAIDS would finally wake up and save me from this hell. And after a minute of two, the front door was finally opened. I was so pissed and glad at the same time.

After that i took my bags from V's car and while apologizing again and again at the same time. And apparently, her phone that i used to call my house, dad and driver was inside one of my bag. Yes, another unfortunate situation i suppose. So after all that, V's family finally went home safely. And me? I'm feeling more than guilty than ever until this point.

So folks, from this embarrassing situation of mine, you can learn that you must always think before you act. Because your actions could end up with bad consequences that you have to take. And trust me, it did not feel good at ALL:)

So i guess that's all for today. Starting to get sick of writing and i didn't wanna make my entry too long.

SO SEE YALL NEXT TIME!

Ciaosuuuu~!!!!

When Things Have Become Clear...

I have to be honest, this post is gonna be very embarrassing... and very private.. but i want my future self to remember this moment, the quirkiness that occasionally happens in my life... It just means that i'm the one who's weird.. HAHA

So you see, the Major impact of PEDC, apparently is still within me...

And wat's worse? It was even following me around to the mighty Batu or should i say somwhere in Malang..:|

RITE, i should just get started..

I'm sure that most of my classmates and some of my friends alredy knw this...

Yes, i do have a crush on someone who i'm not supposed to like._. and FYI, he's NOT the one who likes my hairr~ 

K, why do i say he's not who i'm supposed to like? That's because he lives farfarfar away from where i live now.____.

Sounds sad, i know...

But anyways, i got this weird feeling out of nowhere.. i don't understand why i could develop such weird feelings and stuffs=="

i mean, when i met him first, i felt nothing. there was even no INSTANT CRUSH.. like wat i've always had when i think a guy's my type:p

So, basically, i kinda had a crush on me, by my super "sesat" assumption actually.. i might have assumed that he has a crush on me which actually caught my attention and not to mention the TEASING! he was teased by his friends n stuff n it got me thinking that wat i thought was actually true...

but well, this is just purely my misguided untrue presumption..... so please forgive my full of myself attitude=)

And this secret of mine was officially exposed on the mighty Malang Trip.. when i was playing TRUTH N DARE w/ my classmates._.

and i'm gonna stop talking about him cuz it'll just make me even moree depressed n stuff...

cuz i think i like him n it's such a shame to let him get away so easily._______. plus, i think he's nice n fun 2 talk 2... well at least thts wat i think ehehe and if he's meant 4 me, mayb we'll meet again in d future! ha! just kidding:P

RITE, so folks, unfortunately my school life isn't getting anybetter! My scores for the examination was horrible as predicted.... and not to mention the school works that are piling up for every each day..

I know it was the time for me to finally be more diligent, but i just can't and i don't know why..

Maybe that's because i can't overcome my own laziness but that's just purely B*llsh*t...

YEa well, this year is definitely not my year, but i'm just hoping that i could actually survive the year and move on safely to the next one... HAHA

ok so, there are 2 things that i'm kinda excited for tho! which are!:

1. O's dinner party

2. Owl City's Concert w/ O! HAHAHAHA

Yes, i'm super pumped and i totally can't wait~

butt before that, i have to work on my school probs n stuff and try to get my mind off u know who:D

So i'm just gonna stop now since i'm getting more and more sleepy now so bye!

Ciaosuuuu~!!!!

That Moment When You Couldn't Think Of Anything Else Besides Happiness...

GOODNESS, i know i'm not supposed to write now, i'm supposed to sleep and prepare for tom, which is d BIG day but i can't help myself since today was officially, "one of my greatest/bestest day ever".

So, if you read my blog from last year, around september too, there was this debating competition called PEDC in my school. AND, i had my part there as the liaison officer... *if ur interested to know wat's liaison officer/LO, just read my previous post on last year:p

a.n.y.w.a.y.

so this year, i am taking care of students from... let's just say a school not from my city:p

I must say that they'r nice:) And most importantly, i support them with all my might! #haha

And today was actually when d REAL competition began! and it was intense, ladies n gentlemen! HAHAHA

well to be honest, i sometimes don't really understand wat were they talking about... butt i sometimes listened and the topics were actually pretty interesting;;)

so todayyy, my team won 2 rounds... and i'm pretty proud of em...HAHAHAHAHAH #wtf

but i really am, til now:)

so again, the thing is, being an LO is so much fun, cuz u got to know several new people there, u learn how to interact with strangers... it was pretty much all awkward but i did my best already anyway:p

NOT TO MENTION how much craziness i xperienced with my fellow LOs... MAANNNNN

I had so much fun with all of em... I'm gonna miss today sooooo bad for sure...

and to be honest *again*, i dun really care about my bio test on monday after wat happened today...~

funniest moment ever, had to be when i tried to eat some chocolate crackers with N while we were doing our job..

It was so hard to hide the stupid crackers, but my stomach wanted to eat something so i laughed for almost 10 mins when d debate started and started eating those crackers...=u=

BUTT readers, that's not the CLIMAX YET.

and i'm still gonna blabber about how all the LOs informed their teams whether they got into top 8 or NOT.

so all the LOs were given a glass of orange colored juice.. and they were 2 diff kinds of taste, mango and orange.. so the winning team or the top 8 will taste the mango juice while d rest got orange juice..

And soo yeaaah.. my team got the superb mango juice and i was just so excited for them~

unfortunately, they were some teams that i felt bad because of their lost. like my friend, Y's team... MAN, yall should have seen all their faces.. they were so sad and gloomy... i felt bad for em.. and Y also told me that she felt sorry like so terribly for em:'(

and THIS was when the real thing started!

So uhm, Y then asked me to take her pic with her team together, for the last memory..

i decided to help her, since well, i felt bad for them, really...

DEN, when i went to approached them, i could hear that someone from her team was saying something that i couldn't hear since well, i'm kinda deaf:)

i did not look at him back since i thought he was saying smething to Y...

BUTT den after a second later, he said something about not being heard...

then i realized, OMG, he was talking to me! #panicked/shocked

Then i asked him again, 2 friggin times!== since i couldn't listen wat he was trying to say...

n guess wat he said....

"i like ur hair"

DUDES, for someone like me, who has never been complimented on the hair department, it was like.... u were sent away to the sky with the super weird fluffy feeling==

But it was such a pleasing compliment;;) and eventho it was embarrassing..

Yeahhyeah, u must be thinking that i'm an easy girl or watsoever, but still, i am rarely complimented on those kind of things, so yeah, it really made me happy...:) and actually, i acted kinda crazy afterwards since i couldn't stop smiling and laughing to myself._. but i was so happy so wat?:p

actually, there was a whole lot other story about Y's team about i'm just too lazy to write em al down...

i just want today to not be forgotten:D

such a fine day eeh?:) i had so much fun and the fun continued for tom:)

wish my team luck and i hope tom's also gonna be super friggin awesome^^

I'm gonna take off now since i have to sleeepp, BYE

Ciaossuu!!~

The Things I Should Have Done...

So FOLKS, please do forgive me for the absent... YES, i know that i haven't written anything this couple of weeks, but don't blame me, blame my mighty companion, Mr. Laziness and also Mrs. Business.

Anyway, to begin this entry, i first wanna apologize for keep making depressing and uninteresting entries... and yeaaah, this one is pretty much gonna be the same...

And actually, I am currently listening to David Choi's songs so it kiiiinda made me wanna write cuz his songs r so mellow" n relaxing n chilling~u~

So, wat i'm about to discuss today is actually about MYSELF again..

sorry 4 being wayy too self-centred, but this is my own friggin blog anyway so WHO D F Cares?:P

Til this moment, i just realized this fully, the fact that i have CHANGED since i entered highschool. N i think it's not a really good change.. #sighing

i dun even understand it myself.. but when i think back again, i was such a diff person back then..

Somehow, i was super motivated, diligent, willing to do anything n blablabla..

N Look at me now! i'm super lazy, sleepy all the time n i even think that i've become even stupider!ugh

What has gotten into me? well, don't ask me since i don't even understand wat the question means._.

I've been kiiinda experiencing this for almost more than a year... n now...  it's just worse than before.... SERIOUSLY DEPRESSING

This holiday was d worst one... my laziness has completely taken over. whether it's my mind, my body, my soul?#wtf

but i have some serious problem with the word B*LLSH*T..

i told my self, just rite before the holiday that i'm gonna read books, study, do homeworks and BE DILIGENT through the holiday.. BUT unfortunately, school starts tom n i haven't done a single thing..

WTF is wrong with me?

I'm seriously angry n furious at myself...

eventho i've realized this very fact, it doesn't really make me become better either since til now, I haven't finished a single thing..

This awful things called laziness has also affected my social life... like sometimes, i was even TOO LAZY TO TALK. WTH was tht rite?

I know that i often dream the impossible... Like living in NYC, travel around the world n do other awesome stuffs... like change d world?

Those dreams are like bullshits to me now...

i was like, "WTF mate? u wanna achieve those dreams but u dun wanna work hard for it? How wud u expect them to eventually come true then?"

K, so i'm practically lost now:| i dunno wat shud i do to make everything better n blablblblba...#sighing

see? i'm even too lazy to write now... i now believe that i , myself have a SERIOUS motivation problem...

so i gotta go now, cuz i'm too lazy to do anything besides watching eating n resting....

SO BYE

Ciaosuuu~!!

The Ferris Wheel Of Your Life...

Hiiiii~ AGAIN!

It's been almost a week since i last updated, so i decided to update again now.. perhaps._.

anyway.... this one mighty entry is random, seriously....

Well, i mean, it's more like what i've been thinking of.. or things on my mind?:/

Anyway, let's just get started:)

So FOLKS, have you ever felt that u think u don't have a talent on anything? or like ur not good at even ONE single thing? Well, i hav:) a loooooooot of times fyi...

Indeed, sometimes i feel worthless n needless to say, i kinda have a loser-like-mental.. #ouch

But it's true tho! I sometimes gave up first before even trying... i also think that i'm not really capable of doing something extraordinary, except for the future tho... hihihihi but it's just one of my impossible dreams:)

SeE? i'm being pessimistic, AGAIN.

Well, how can i not think this way? i'm not really good at both studying or sport, i'm really slow at understanding things, i'm kindaaaaaa deaf, i'm slow n well, let's just say etc.....

It's like, i haven't found my speciality yet or something.___.

n yeah, i feel kinda worthless because of this...

Indeed i know that this is wrong... i shouldn't be this way... I mean, maybe i got other good things about myself, which i dun even know what it is...

But eventho i didn't realize it, it doesn't mean that other people don't rite?;;)

N also, this entry was inspired by today actually:p

since well.....

today i had the mighty biology test... n well, i didn't really screw up i think?:) but i still dunno... things can happen anyway...

BUTT that's not the main point~!

We also had this mighty speaking test which was about introducing urself n blablabla..

it's in B.I. btw.....

n as i expected! i screwed up again my fellow readers!!

i couldn't remember wat shud i say, i was super nervous, n it was super awkward.. talking about urself in front of the class=0= n there was lots of laughter.....== super embarrassing, seriously..

n well, i overall think that others did much better den me... like MUCH BETTER...

why is this expected again?

well, this is because of my super laziness fellas! on sunday, i watched "SOUL EATER" for the whole day then i studied biology for like, an hour only== #sighing

there's something wrong with me definitely... hihihihihi

Butt den the UNXPECTED thing happened...

When the teacher informed us about our marks, truthfully, i didn't really wanna hear it ...

cuz i know i screwed up so bad...== n it'd be xtremely embarrassing to have d lowest mark in d class... just like wat i did in chemistry:( #istillhatethatsubbtw

N WOW...

apparently i got the highest mark._____.

i dun mean to b arrogant, but i just couldn't believe it...

i dun know if the teacher actually felt sorry for me or something==

OR

maybe there's still something good about me after all...

n on that moment, well, i was grateful, really grateful... for my only God...

for making me this way...

i'm not exactly perfect, i knw that perfectly... but i still have something tho... i have something good about myself... n that really makes me feel happier about today:) #n it's not like i was also sad today anyway haha

this also made me realize that maybe i am capable of doing awesome great things like i want to, but i just have to try n do my best!:)) #this sounds so cliche

Ah, b4 i end tis entry, let me tell u a bit about my school life too:)

i've been meaning to say this but it's just kinda weird for me to say this but, I MISS MY BUDS==

i miss my crowded class, i miss the noisiness, i miss the fun atmosphere, i miss everything...

I dun mean to complain tho... cuz this is totally normal #ithink

i mean, i used to have these many people around d class n i was able to talk to so many people...

n well, it's kinda diff now:(

i'm kinda/prettyyy sad about this, but life must goonnnnn #sighing

But it doesn't mean that i dun enjoy my class now...

let's just say that i have adapted;;) n a good thing about having only 5 people in the class? i could joke around again n again w/ the teachers... eventho it was kindaaaa weirdly funnyLOL

butt i still miss my pals:"((( #sighing

i'm seriously sighing wayyyy to often... well, life has probs n that's wht makes it beautiful!~#singinglalala #WTFFF

k den, i gotta go now....

i got a math test tom n i think i'm gonna fail:D #PESSIMISTICAGAINHAHA

but i'm gonna do my best tho:") Wish me luckkk<3

i'm gonna go for real now!

Ciaosuuuu~!!!!

Some Things Are Just More Precious Than Money...

Oh well, hello again my fellow readers! Miss Me?;;) #smacked

Anyway! I shall tell you now, bout this very day!

Since YES my friend, i am officially happy n free temporarily! Why is this so? Well, u c, i got no hws or tests for tom!:DDDD so yeaah, i'm practically free today from all the burden from life<333

Anyway, this is definitely what i wanna talk about today...

I'm just gonna write a piece of my mind slash opinion that i got from religion lesson today.. it was so interesting:p

So it's basically about a topic that says,"Can money buy happiness?"

That was asked by my teacher today, n apparently all my frens have diff opinion from one another..

There r those who said that money can buy happiness while there's also someone tht said it was d opposite n there's even someone who said yes n no..:/

Well, yeaah... i'm practically d only one who disagreed fully..

FYI, i'm just telling d truth, i dun wish to b seen as a holly person by people cuz i know im not:) i'm just trying my best to be one...

SURE, everyone wants to be rich, to buy things that they wish they have, to not experience money difficulty of watsoever....

cuz to be honest, sometimes i do wish that i can b rich so that i can buy all the clothes that i want to have, living a high class lifestyle, have a huge house or even a rich husband:o

BUtt somehow, this thought doesn't really exist on my mind anymore..

today, i dun really care if i can't buy all those stuffs, like d xpensive clothes, gadgets, huge house...  this is 4 real btw!

ONCE again, i'm just expressing my own thoughts..:)

so, how exactly did this happen?

i dun really get it either, i mean, i do recall that my dad has once said to me bout being rich doesn't make u happy n blablablablaa butt i dun really remember if tht was the one tht made me realize._.

i started to notice then, when i first got my iphone..

U c, it didn't exactly make me super happy or anything, well yeah, i was kinda excited for finally having an iphone, but i can tell u one thing folks, tht feeling i have inside my heart cudn't really be described as what u call as happiness...

Then there was also one time that i already forgot when, when i was hanging out w/ my pals perhaps @ ppj? we were talking, having fun as usual n i was just smiley for d whole day=u=

or there was even a time, when i was with my family when we went somewhere i cudn't remember, i just felt like myself, there was peace n something relaxing in my heart..

den it hit me , was  this wat my dad meant? was this d real happiness that he talked about? about being with the people u luv the most on this earth?

Well, since then perhaps, i began to notice how much happiness that had been happening around me in my everyday life... hihihihi

i guess i'm now able to understand more about how to enjoy d real happiness.. n i finally understand what does the "H" word mean...

I know that i have a naive kind of way of thinking n well, my friends do know tht i'm not that smart either, but i'm glad that i'm able to think this way cuz this was what made my life now, n also who n wat i am...:)))

Evntho i hav this method of thinking, it doesn't really mean i don't desire anything tho:p i mean, of course i want something, but it's just not really related to wealthiness n stuff..

this is VERY embarrassing but who cares i'm still gonna write it cuz this is my f*ing blog after all but yes, sometimes, i want people to like me for who i am...

YESYES i do very much know that i'm not the nicest person on earth, in fact, i'm selfish, egoistical, mean, sometimes evil n i even enjoyed to be a b*tch sometimes==

so, it wud mean the world, for people to like me for the real me... cuz u knw, it's just not easy to find the people who can like u for who u are these days:")

there r also times, when i am honestly happy for the people that i luv. like when they're happy, i'm just really glad for them n hoping that the happiness won't go away.. this is so very much true, since i just felt this way on my father's bday a few days ago... it was just such a bless tht day, seeing my father that happy, being smiley n cheerful all day, GOSH, it was such a rare sight... n yeah, it made me even more than happy for him... cuz i luv him the most in this world after all:")

N, one last thing tht i desire so very much is...... well... EHEM", this is even more embarrassing damn it..

but yes, i am a very much normal girl so of course i do want to have that someone who i can share my happiness with, who can give me the beautiful experiences of life that absolutely can't be bought by money n to have someone tht luv me the most in this world....>u< 

i dun really care if that person doesn't have much money, or high status or watever is tht, as long as he is kind,*handsome* n also care for me from all d world, i'm already grateful to have that person to be with me:"))) #i still got my own standards tho, i mean, if he's not my type n i'm not evn in luv w/ that very person for every single day, it doesn't really count as wht i call my socalledhappiness then:p

k, i'm just gonna stop cuz this is getting weirder n weirder==

but i'm glad that i can finally able to express my feelings today, n tell the world how happy i am today... hahahahahLOL

so i'm just gonna go now n take a break from this beautiful day=u=

gonna write later again i suppose!BYE!

P.S. eventho i wrote this, it doesn't mean i don't respect others' opinion, i mean i respect them but i just don't agree with their way of thinking, that's all:) so that's also the reason why i'm writing today.. hihihihi

Ciaosuuuu~!!!!

It Has Been A Month Already...

#sighing

seriously, i really am doing it now...

Well, it's just been a very busy week n also tiring too... being an A Level student is definitely no more joking around .__.

n guess wht? i did a math quiz today n i probably screwed up but who cares.... i was too panicked to even do the question:(

So... let me just start by telling u about my life now... which was pretty much tiring n weird...

butt, i got a veryy good news tho! i mean life's been pretty much frustrating, but my mom just got back from the mighty USA so all those frustrations have gotten much much better than before:)

What i've been trying to say is that,  the stuffs that my mom bought me made me feel better a bit about whole other things in my life... HIHI

SO, first of all  i wanna show my new mighty cd off.. GUESS WHT? my mom finally bought me Mindy Gledhill's album, "Anchor"! It's bought by mail order since it was so hard to find that CD...

but i'm sooo grateful that i finally have the CD now!<3

Again, my mom also bought some shirts for me, but only one shirt makes me very much excited...

I got a LAKERS' Tshirt too! YIPPIEE!! i'm just so happy about that one!:")

Hmm.. she got me a bunch of other stuffs too.__.

N!

There's fortune cookies too! i Had so much fun eating these!>:)The cookies r plain delicious n i just love reading the fortunes<3 It's cute:P

N there's one surprising souvenirs left for me!

Well, believe it or not, i just got a new digital hello kitty camera from a cousin that i didn't even recognize probably! i'm soosoooosoooooo happy about this one!

I mean, i've never had a camera before, so it was new! YEY

i'm not just grateful for the stuffs she's given me, i'm also grateful about the fact that she was able to return to my home country safely:D

K then, maybe this is it for now..  i got somethin else on my mind butt can't write it on this entry tho.. teehee!

i'll write em all later den i guess.....

so...

BYE for now! hihi

Ciaosuuuu!~~

Life Is Still Spinning Like A Wheel..

First of all, i wanna make the title to be,"Life Goes On", but then i thought it was too simple, so i kinda decided to change it like that.. sorry if it sucked:p

a.n.y.w.a.y

OMGOMG

it's been like a thousand years already, since the last time i updated this beloved blog of mine<3 it's been a month actually and i kinda miss n not miss writing:)

You see folks, i got so much to tell... to the point that i can't even write em all down... i mean, i did lots of stuffs in my holiday... n i forgot bout some of em alredy._.

but i will still write about the things that has happened n fortunately i still remember>:D

p.s. the days when these events are happening are totally random

1. I surely did lots of hangouts w/ my friends which was funnnnn<3 i had a great time w/ T, VH, VK, O, F, Y, I, P, N... i miss em all during my holidays.. but school has started already so i alredy met them up again this week:)
2. I went to Singapore 2 weeks ago i think.. n it WAS SUPER FUN.. USS is definitely a veryyy fun place to be at if you play almost all the rides... n Sentosa island is beautifulll<333 i did a lot of shopping here, whether it was in orchard, vivo city, bugis or even somerset... #forgot the rest
3. I finally able to visit TSB! weewww, the rides were scary._. eventho i only rode one scary ride which was the mighty giant swing.. i was practically dead when i rode it:( but i had tons of fun w/ my buddies... hihi
4. that's rite! i also did a bunch of sleepovers in my summer holiday~u~ i finally able to got to know some people better i guess:D n i'm glad heehee
5. I found two great shows called Grimm and Suits on my last week of holiday.. I'm currently watching Grimm and after that, i'll proceed to Suits<3 i luv tv shows(y)
6. F*CK*N WENT TO JASON MRAZ'S CONCERT! ALRIGHT BABYY!! N obviously, he rocked d concert n i love him even more<3
7. Somehow, i find myself addicted to Mindy Gledhill's songs.. this is my first time for liking all songs in an album<3 Mindy is d best after all! HEEHEE
8. Maroon 5 is having a concert this oct n i dun think i'm gonna b able to go to the concert so yeah, i'm disappointed:(
9. I also somehow find doramas r quite interesting these days! i luv Osamu Mukai<33

SOO

MAYBE THAT'S ALL?

again, i got something weirdly awesome to tell!

So listen up folks! your stupid buddy here, is finally an A Level student now! like officially!!! #applause

well, it's not really something to be proud of since it's gonna be a lotttt harder than last year n i'm gonna have to be even more diligent to survive._. but i'll do my best anyway, for the sake of my future! #puking

K, so i know this is now something to be proud of #again, but i can't help it but to feel that way sometimes.. i mean, from the previous years, i know that x-ALevel student from my school r mostly smart people like T n OD, that's why it's suchh a weird miracle that i also got in.. #burst into tears:p

n yeah, maybe it was kinda or xtrmely arrogant of me, but please just let me be like this for this moment only:) i got nothin else to be proud of anymore anyway...:D

it's actually a pretty good start for me, for this new school term.. since i suddenly got this spirit of fighting, i bought new stationary stuffs n i miraculously just almost finished my math hw.. i just hope that this year is gonna be different and i'm gonna be a better person whether it's about my personality n also my academic achievement:)

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm, so maybe now i'll proceed to what happened today! this is one good story to tell anyway!

So yesterday was practically my 3rd day of school.. n the lesson has started too...

First of all i wanna tell yall, in A Level, there'r gonna be some lecturers from wherever they are to come n teach us once a month i think? totally forgot about those stuffs..

anyway, so yesterday was the biology lecturer's turn. N man....  I really didn't expect this that happened.__.

i'm just trying to be honest about my opinion n i'm not mocking him or anything btw..

so yeah, i couldn't understand a single word he said in English and guess what? so did my friends..

the 2 hour period felt like it was 4 hour period for us, since well.. it was boring, we couldn't understand a thing n d class was so frigging cold...

i was sleepy like for the half of the lesson... n yeah, i'm not happy with the lecturer, i mean, it's very very good about the fact that he still wanted to teach us in English eventhough he couldn't really speak well, but what was it all for if neither of the students understand what he was saying?

I kinda feel bad for him but i'm still kinda pissed at him too since i just wasted the 2 hour period learning absolutely nothing... #mebeingbitchy >:(

k, done w/ the bitchy stuffs...

n i'm like sleepy as hell now, since i probably only got 3 hours sleep yesterday cuz i couldn't sleep for some reason:"(

so i guess this is good bye~!! n i'll post a new entry ASAP! TEEHEE!

CiaosuuuU~!!!!

Distractions By Sweets And Life...

Yeah, you could say that i've been very lazy to write this blog.. BUTT seeing my friend here who just started blogging like a couple of months ago have been soo diligently writing her blog, so i decided to tell something about my life again:)

Indeed a lot of things happened.. The one that i can't stop thinking about and also the ones that make me happy:)
Including the fact that the stupid report card has alredy been given to us! AND I PASSED GRADE 10 peacefully<3
THANK GOD:)

my marks weren't that wow-ing.. i mean at least now i'm able to go to A level! the mighty A LEVEL! hahaaha
yes i'm not kidding... i know the journey is not gonna b easy, but i just have to do this. I know i can and with God, what's impossible anyway?:DDDDD

K... EHM..
Done with the report card thingy and let's move on to the next topic:p

I've been busy with a lot of good happy stuff this week. It's summer after all! i'm so excited hahaha~
the start of this beautiful holiday is not that good though.. But i managed to get through all of em except for one effing thing which is personal and i can't stop thinking about it n kinda making me crazy:(
*this thing makes me unable to stop listening to Mindy Gledhill's songs=.=
sorry folks, i'm just not that ready to write about this prob.. so next time!:3

a.n.y.w.a.y! today my mom officially ciao-ed herself to the country i've always wanted to go... which obviously USA~!!! OMGOMG
I'm indeed disappointed the fact that i can't go. but i'll just let that go and just wait for my mum to come back and bring me lots and lots of souvenirs! SHE HAS TO! HAHALOL

so i think i should tell about how my day goes today huh?
so today's all about my day with VH n her sis! HAHAHAHAHA
it was fun indeed!!

we went swimming together, then even went to BSM!

DUUUDEEESS! we were so pathetically hilarious... LOL i mean, we purposely entered some high class stores that we can't even afford to buy! like Versace, Hugo Boss n lots of other stores.. i can only remember 2:|

here's the thing about today...
"WE ATE LIKE PIGS!"
it's true though hahaha

U see, first, we ate at this restaurant called "Plate For Me" and WOW man!
it was awsomely delicious...<333
we ate spaghetti pesto n pizza! YUMYUMMYY heheheeeee

but the day's not over yet!
we went to Bakerzin then, to buy some desserts! YEAAY

we were gonna eat souffle at first... butt guess what? the price was unbelievably expensive damn it!

and what's worse? the souffle that i wanted was not available.. so i decided to just buy a mango mousse..
it was sweet, mango-ish and tasty! i think!:)))

and sooo, VH decided to buy the raspberry souffle.. which was so expensive.. n not to mention... VERY SOUR-ish! LOLOLOL
B4:

After:

i can't stop laughing literally.. i mean the pudding-cake-like was delicious, i have to admit.. butt! the ice cream? UGH can't stand it at all!
it was super sour and bleeh..
my point is that: WE F-ING HATE IT HAHAHAH

but VH managed to eat em all which was amazed me actually:p

so we ended up walking around n around then without noticing, the day has ended....

YES today was good. n i can't thank anyone else beside my one and only God:) thanku...

K, so maybe that's all for today.. my eyes r getting sleepy n sleepier.. heheee

so c yall later! PEACE UP!




Ciaosuuuu~~!!!!

Sinking Slowly To The Bottom

K", so yeah holiday has already started...

I should be full of enjoyment and excitement all around, but i don't.

Soo, many things have happened this week n they're not all that good.

Plus, i did bad things, things that i'm not proud of, but i had to do it bcause i'm selfish and other reasons.

This is just the start of the holiday and i'm already this disappointed in myself. I hate me really.

You  see, my class here is gonna rent a villa in Lembang for all of us to stay there for a few days. It sounds fun doesn't it? Indeed i was interested... i mean, everyone's gonna join and i just hope that i can still have so much fun there.

Unfortunately, people started to bail.

and there's only a few people who are gonna stay in that villa.

Then it got me thinking, maybe i should bail to!

Then there i go so recklessly, bailing myself to go to the villa..

But things don't end there since my friend who's in charge of this whole thing said that she has paid the DP so people can't cancel.

Man, i felt so horrible.. i mean i dun even wanna go there but i still have to pay? it's such a waste of money..

I know that i'm being irresponsible, and i'm totally selfish. But i guess i'm also a human being..

And there are way more reasons that i dun wanna go thre, besides the fact that it's expensive, i may also have an event i have to attend which will cost more money to dad. I felt bad for him, i just bought a new phone and now i'm gonna ask him for more money? for the concerts and also the trip? HELL NO!

I feel horrible now as a result. Sometimes i wonder, why do i have to be this selfish? I'm causing problems for my friends and i just feel terrible.

Yes, i hate myself for that.. but then again, i have to do what i was supposed to do from the start.

I just hope she will forgive what i did and so does God. I hate myself for lying and be this selfish...:(

Anyway that's all maybe for today.. i'm not really in the mood to write things now, so i'll just continue sometime later hahaha

Ciaosuuu~!