A Foreign Place.

WELL my first post that is actually published on my blog is my third actual draft, YEAP. So much for the hesitation and laziness within me. And while i was rereading those drafts, i realized that i wrote both when i was either depressed, or when i couldn't get my mind off something. Both actually show how negative i am as a human being. BUT at least for today, i am currently writing with no mood swings and it kinda feels greird. (great and weird)

Yes, the topic is supposed to be my first time living alone in Germany. Okay where do i start? Hmm living alone can be fun and boring sometimes, which is probably the reason i gained weight so quickly here. I was basically bored and got nothing to do, so my last resort was, EATING. For some reasons it's been hard for me to control my appetite. In fact, i think it's getting worse day by day. But i am still willing to change this rotten lifestyle i've been living and go back to my old healthy self.

What do i miss the most? There is no doubt that i miss my family the most. Well my dad to be exact. I miss his kindness, caring personality and the fact that he's willing to sacrifice anything for the ones he loves. Oh how i miss that. Here i stand alone. I solve my own problems and so do other people. My dad isn't around anymore to clean up my messes. I guess that's how i realized how life hard gets as i got older and independent.

Food. ah right. Right now i'm craving indonesian food so badly. It's not like i hate the food here, it was actually the opposite. The fact that i was able to gain weight so easily here, proves that my tastebud is more suitable for western food. BUT that doesn't make me a westerner though. My hometown still has the best food, memories and happiness in each every one of them.

Myself? Well i've change, i suppose...? I am no longer the person i used to be. What's worse, i am not getting better either, i'm actually in a confused state now. Sometimes weird questions came into my mind, like what is actually right and wrong. I am utterly confused of what i should do and i am getting no answer til this very day. What's worse is the fact that i close myself up from other people. I guess my trust problem has gotten even worse. But looking back at my past experiences, it's no surprise that  i was able to get to this point. This is probably why i haven't been getting answers. Cause i'm alone with no help from the outside world.

It's not just me who change though, my friends do too. The more you get to know someone, the more you realize, that nobody's perfect. They're pretty much the same as me, i got my horrible side and so do they. What matters is whether the person would want to accept the negativity or not. And i guess i'm kind of lucky since i still have friends:) 

Even so, i enjoy my time alone here. I've become a loner and i'm actually fine by it. WHICH MAKES IT EVEN HARDER FOR ME TO CHANGE. I guess everything has its own phase and i just have to let this phase pass by.... when it even happened though.

I haven't said much but that pretty much describe my current situation now. I guess i have made quite a progress by writing this post huh? Well hopefully everything turned out well later for all of us and our future:)

Thoughts.

Finally, after being absent for half a year, I AM BACK B*TCHES....

And what's also great is the fact that this entry is not gonna be a depressing one, since all the previous ones were "quite" like that.

But this one entry is gonna be super random since it's so late and i have to sleep FAST or else my dad's gonna be pissed AGAIN :)

You can see what is this entry all about from the title. Without further do, here i GO.

• I am currently studying Deutsch. I don't hate the language, but the thought of memorizing of every single word and articles sickens me.
• Also very much obsessed with a blogger who lives in Berlin. Her blog is very inspiring and humorous. It got my spirit of studying DEUTSCH back too:D
• My super-maybe-not-so-impossible-goal-now: studying in german.
• Ah yes, after i didn't decided to not take my A Levels, i despise my old SCHOOL. (it's a long story) And hate it even more for every single day til this point.
• Been trying my best to become "mature" and "nicer". It's so hard since i'm so childish and selfish but still working on it.
• The older i get, the more i get to know myself even more. I'm temperamental, emotional, quiet, gloomy, easily depressed, overthinking, mean (like a b*tch and i enjoy being one) aaaand also easily disgusted. (may have develop OCD)
• As much as i like being around people, being alone is when i am able to enjoy my relaxing time the most.
• I always JUDGE other people. Sometimes i can't even accept them for who they are. That's probably one of the reason why i should just be left alone.
• (copying this from a website) I prefer to lead my life FREE. Freedom is something that can't be taken away from meh.
• In the end, i'm also one of those mainstream people who miss their highschool life. (on the 11th grade only though) Life does get harder the older you get.
• I still wonder what is the right and wrong thing to do. Sometimes it confuses me.
• Believe it or not, people like me, who are too lazy to even talk, exist in this world.
• Starting a youtube channel has always been my dream since 11th grade. But still no progress at all until now. (yes, i am full of sh*t)
• Just had the realization that i only like depressing songs. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME.

And i guess that's all, since i don't really know what else to write.

I'm gonna be writing more oftenly these days, HOPEFULLY. So when i look back in time, i will be able to remember all those funny and sad memories that i had in life.

It's time for me to go. Ciao~su!

Next Stop After Summer Holiday, SCHOOL.

Waaaat up folks! Yes, it is me again and i'm finally back writing somehow.

After experiencing 2 week holiday, i will now tell yall all about it. And before continue reading, i hereby apologize for the boringness that you're about to read because my vacation is just simply LAME. :) and the other stuff that i wrote is even worse:):):)

So Bali was my family's destination for vacationing eventhough i strongly against it. Why? Cause on october, i'll then again go to Bali with my friggin school. *sigh*

But i guess Bali wasn't that bad. Eventhough i personally prefer going to modern cities *obnoxious metropolitan girl* HAHA

n i guess the beaches weren't that bad... But the most enjoyable one was definitely THE VIEW. ;;) *if you know what i mean lol*

aside from Bali, i spent the whole vacation by idling around at home. Basically, all i did was eat, watch, read and sleep. And the consequences of this kind of unhealthy lifestyle is becoming a PIG:)

There is so much to write but i don't wanna make this entry too long and boring so i guess i would just simplify them into several points:

• I'm starting to concern about my future. I still don't know what university i will go to and what major should i pick. It's starting to tear me up pieces by pieces._. GAH i'm so friggin stressed out just thinking about this STUPID MATTER UGH. *dies* i also think that forensic science will probably be an interesting major to study, aside of nutrition ofcoo.
• GOSH school starts already and i am most definitely not EXCITED at all.
• *sigh* my friends back when i was in elementary school have graduated and possibly gone to college while i'm still stuck in THE high school and it's kinda sad really ;_;
• Most of my ex-classmates are also gone for good. Most of them went abroad, leaving me alone in this mighty school. SADDDD AGAIN:(
• I currently have no money like SERIOUSLY. I blame it on my addiction of comic books and other unnecessary spending on the holidays~ 
• I've started to learn how to play tennis and i'm getting better and better! *i think* But i really enjoy playing it anyways and that's all that matter. *eventhough it took me SOME TIME to be able to hit the ball properly*
• Ah, i forgot to write this earlier, but i finally experienced staying overnight at the hospital and being infused. *i don't know if thats the right word, watevs anyway*
• I also got a new glasses since i lost my previous one while i was in bali playing jetski. My dad even said this to me: "WHAT KIND OF PERSON USE GLASSES WHILE PLAYING JET SKI FOR GOD'S SAKES!" lol *pardon the exaggeration*
• I've kind of lost my motivation to study so i decided to buy a new pencil case to lift my spirit up! *don't judge* =D
• My ipod is nowhere to be found until now so yea i think i've lost it..... :'(
• YOUTUBE and MANGAFOX have been such a big part of my holiday. and yes i'm still very much addicted watching Connor Franta's videos. He's my idol and fashion guru!;;)
• I've become so unfaithful on watching american series. Meaning: i only watched half season of a series and ended up not finishing any of it. i guess i got bored very easily..
• There are so many things that i desperately need *i meanwant* but my financial condition doesn't support it. There are headphones, comic books, super cool backpack, a pair of new stiletto, dresses and mostly comic books anyways TEEHEE
• Somehow, my life has turned into some kind of a comic sketch because of the stupidness and embarrassing experienceS i've had recently. Don't ask.. TT~TT

well i guess that's all to tell. Again, I'm sorry if it's really boring... I'm still in no mood of thinking anything besides my mysteriously creepy future. 

Okay folks, enjoy your day and i hope you'll be able to survive this new school year.

HAPPY SCHOOL DAYS~! *yay* *sarcastically*

this is the real ending so bye! HAHAH

Ciaosuuu~!!!

Opening Up A New Chapter Of Life...

YES, it's 30 more minutes before the mighty new year. and YES again, i'm as sleepy as hell right now..

I can't stop yawning like crazy while the super noisy fireworks can't stop making loud noise which is annoying==

N No i am not drunk while writing this entry, evnthough i very much sound like i am, but i'm just very" dizzy since i'd eaten so much meat n soft drink. Now i'm not even sure where my mind is floating to #yawning

Rite, so 2013 is coming soon.

• do i have regrets from the things i've done in 2012?

PLENTY

But what can i do anyway? It's all been done, and the best that i can do is to look forward to the future and never look back.

• what are the best memories from the mighty year of 2012?

Not that much, but there's owl city, the mighty malang trip, PEDC and some new crushes of mine HAHA

• do i look forward for this new year of 2013?

Noooot really:) I mean, i'm still gonna be the same me, who's always easily frustrated and depressed. Not to mention how often i complain about my awsome life. AND how annoying i always am to people. WITH the laziness that's always within me. Still the same as ever.

• any new year resolution?

A LOT. not sure i can do all of em tho, especially the part about being diligent, have more confidence, being more outgoing person n most importantly, not annoy people most of the time.

END OF NEW YEAR THINGY TALK.

so i'm not really sure what this entry is all about, but i just wanna write something before this year is offcially over.

so a message for the mighty 2012:

Dear 2012, i know that you haven't been exactly my favorite year ever, since most of the time in this year, i get depressed even more oftenly and easily. And lots of weird things happened in this year. Some good, some bad. And it's gonna be so weird when i'm looking back to all of this. Despite all of that, i'm also glad to have this year in my life, since i can meet new people, get to know my crazy fun friends much better and also get along more with my family members. So good bye 2012, we'll never meet again, but i'll surely remember you. You're memorable in both good and bad ways:)

RITE, this entry is getting even weirder and weirder.__.

So it's 15 more mins before new year, which means i have to go!

HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS

MAY ALL THE BLESSING BE WITH ALL OF YOU

AND MAY THIS NEW YEAR BE A NEW BEGINNING TO MAKE YOUR LIFE EVEN BETTER

AND ALSO TO OTHERS \m/

Ciaosuuuu~!!!!

The Things I Should Have Done...

So FOLKS, please do forgive me for the absent... YES, i know that i haven't written anything this couple of weeks, but don't blame me, blame my mighty companion, Mr. Laziness and also Mrs. Business.

Anyway, to begin this entry, i first wanna apologize for keep making depressing and uninteresting entries... and yeaaah, this one is pretty much gonna be the same...

And actually, I am currently listening to David Choi's songs so it kiiiinda made me wanna write cuz his songs r so mellow" n relaxing n chilling~u~

So, wat i'm about to discuss today is actually about MYSELF again..

sorry 4 being wayy too self-centred, but this is my own friggin blog anyway so WHO D F Cares?:P

Til this moment, i just realized this fully, the fact that i have CHANGED since i entered highschool. N i think it's not a really good change.. #sighing

i dun even understand it myself.. but when i think back again, i was such a diff person back then..

Somehow, i was super motivated, diligent, willing to do anything n blablabla..

N Look at me now! i'm super lazy, sleepy all the time n i even think that i've become even stupider!ugh

What has gotten into me? well, don't ask me since i don't even understand wat the question means._.

I've been kiiinda experiencing this for almost more than a year... n now...  it's just worse than before.... SERIOUSLY DEPRESSING

This holiday was d worst one... my laziness has completely taken over. whether it's my mind, my body, my soul?#wtf

but i have some serious problem with the word B*LLSH*T..

i told my self, just rite before the holiday that i'm gonna read books, study, do homeworks and BE DILIGENT through the holiday.. BUT unfortunately, school starts tom n i haven't done a single thing..

WTF is wrong with me?

I'm seriously angry n furious at myself...

eventho i've realized this very fact, it doesn't really make me become better either since til now, I haven't finished a single thing..

This awful things called laziness has also affected my social life... like sometimes, i was even TOO LAZY TO TALK. WTH was tht rite?

I know that i often dream the impossible... Like living in NYC, travel around the world n do other awesome stuffs... like change d world?

Those dreams are like bullshits to me now...

i was like, "WTF mate? u wanna achieve those dreams but u dun wanna work hard for it? How wud u expect them to eventually come true then?"

K, so i'm practically lost now:| i dunno wat shud i do to make everything better n blablblblba...#sighing

see? i'm even too lazy to write now... i now believe that i , myself have a SERIOUS motivation problem...

so i gotta go now, cuz i'm too lazy to do anything besides watching eating n resting....

SO BYE

Ciaosuuu~!!

Distractions By Sweets And Life...

Yeah, you could say that i've been very lazy to write this blog.. BUTT seeing my friend here who just started blogging like a couple of months ago have been soo diligently writing her blog, so i decided to tell something about my life again:)

Indeed a lot of things happened.. The one that i can't stop thinking about and also the ones that make me happy:)
Including the fact that the stupid report card has alredy been given to us! AND I PASSED GRADE 10 peacefully<3
THANK GOD:)

my marks weren't that wow-ing.. i mean at least now i'm able to go to A level! the mighty A LEVEL! hahaaha
yes i'm not kidding... i know the journey is not gonna b easy, but i just have to do this. I know i can and with God, what's impossible anyway?:DDDDD

K... EHM..
Done with the report card thingy and let's move on to the next topic:p

I've been busy with a lot of good happy stuff this week. It's summer after all! i'm so excited hahaha~
the start of this beautiful holiday is not that good though.. But i managed to get through all of em except for one effing thing which is personal and i can't stop thinking about it n kinda making me crazy:(
*this thing makes me unable to stop listening to Mindy Gledhill's songs=.=
sorry folks, i'm just not that ready to write about this prob.. so next time!:3

a.n.y.w.a.y! today my mom officially ciao-ed herself to the country i've always wanted to go... which obviously USA~!!! OMGOMG
I'm indeed disappointed the fact that i can't go. but i'll just let that go and just wait for my mum to come back and bring me lots and lots of souvenirs! SHE HAS TO! HAHALOL

so i think i should tell about how my day goes today huh?
so today's all about my day with VH n her sis! HAHAHAHAHA
it was fun indeed!!

we went swimming together, then even went to BSM!

DUUUDEEESS! we were so pathetically hilarious... LOL i mean, we purposely entered some high class stores that we can't even afford to buy! like Versace, Hugo Boss n lots of other stores.. i can only remember 2:|

here's the thing about today...
"WE ATE LIKE PIGS!"
it's true though hahaha

U see, first, we ate at this restaurant called "Plate For Me" and WOW man!
it was awsomely delicious...<333
we ate spaghetti pesto n pizza! YUMYUMMYY heheheeeee

but the day's not over yet!
we went to Bakerzin then, to buy some desserts! YEAAY

we were gonna eat souffle at first... butt guess what? the price was unbelievably expensive damn it!

and what's worse? the souffle that i wanted was not available.. so i decided to just buy a mango mousse..
it was sweet, mango-ish and tasty! i think!:)))

and sooo, VH decided to buy the raspberry souffle.. which was so expensive.. n not to mention... VERY SOUR-ish! LOLOLOL
B4:

After:

i can't stop laughing literally.. i mean the pudding-cake-like was delicious, i have to admit.. butt! the ice cream? UGH can't stand it at all!
it was super sour and bleeh..
my point is that: WE F-ING HATE IT HAHAHAH

but VH managed to eat em all which was amazed me actually:p

so we ended up walking around n around then without noticing, the day has ended....

YES today was good. n i can't thank anyone else beside my one and only God:) thanku...

K, so maybe that's all for today.. my eyes r getting sleepy n sleepier.. heheee

so c yall later! PEACE UP!




Ciaosuuuu~~!!!!

Sinking Slowly To The Bottom

K", so yeah holiday has already started...

I should be full of enjoyment and excitement all around, but i don't.

Soo, many things have happened this week n they're not all that good.

Plus, i did bad things, things that i'm not proud of, but i had to do it bcause i'm selfish and other reasons.

This is just the start of the holiday and i'm already this disappointed in myself. I hate me really.

You  see, my class here is gonna rent a villa in Lembang for all of us to stay there for a few days. It sounds fun doesn't it? Indeed i was interested... i mean, everyone's gonna join and i just hope that i can still have so much fun there.

Unfortunately, people started to bail.

and there's only a few people who are gonna stay in that villa.

Then it got me thinking, maybe i should bail to!

Then there i go so recklessly, bailing myself to go to the villa..

But things don't end there since my friend who's in charge of this whole thing said that she has paid the DP so people can't cancel.

Man, i felt so horrible.. i mean i dun even wanna go there but i still have to pay? it's such a waste of money..

I know that i'm being irresponsible, and i'm totally selfish. But i guess i'm also a human being..

And there are way more reasons that i dun wanna go thre, besides the fact that it's expensive, i may also have an event i have to attend which will cost more money to dad. I felt bad for him, i just bought a new phone and now i'm gonna ask him for more money? for the concerts and also the trip? HELL NO!

I feel horrible now as a result. Sometimes i wonder, why do i have to be this selfish? I'm causing problems for my friends and i just feel terrible.

Yes, i hate myself for that.. but then again, i have to do what i was supposed to do from the start.

I just hope she will forgive what i did and so does God. I hate myself for lying and be this selfish...:(

Anyway that's all maybe for today.. i'm not really in the mood to write things now, so i'll just continue sometime later hahaha

Ciaosuuu~!

When Spring Comes => Another Romance Story!

I know", i've just post a story on my last entry... but i can't help it... this idea on my head is still fresh from the oven! TEEHEE

so i just have to write and pour all my ideas into beautiful awesome writing:D

Alright, so i wanna do something different now... so actually, the story is told from different point of views.. And, there are 5 character who are going to tell the stories:)) hHEHe

if u still don't understand, then it's like this... IF i were a manga artist, i would make 5 different comics with each book is told by a character only...:)

Aah, this story is also insipired by Sakamichi No Apollon... an anime that i just watched today.. it was super interesting exciting and fresh + realistic which was totally my thing>:D

then i'm gonna start telling the story-es..:-9

Synopsis:

Story 1

Sagami Teshiro

It all started when Onda-san and I worked together for a school project. I didn't feel anything when we first meet, but when i realized the fact that she was in love with her childhood friend, she just got me interested in her. My eyes couldn't help but to always try to find her, whenever i was. Indeed, my first love was unrequited because she had never looked at me while she was already in love with someone else.

This made me depressed indeed, but fortunately, Amasaka was there for me, listening to all my stories and accompanied me whenever i felt lonely. It always made my heart shiver when she was around.

Story 2

Kogayama Mitsuru

I have a sister and she is an illustrator. i love seeing her pictures but it seemed that nobody felt the same as i do. Well, i guess Kiri or my so-called-childhood-friend likes it too, but it doesn't count. Then that very moment when i was in a bookstore, i found out that someone also admired my sister's artwork. It made terribly happy but it was only for one time, because we didn't see each other anymore.

Years passed and we met again in the same class, she's Amasaka Haruhi, a nice talkative girl who has this bright personality that i really like. Without noticing this, i fell for her, i know i do because i just wanna be with her all the time and i will do anything to make her smile at me. I just can't stop this overflowing feeling, even though i know that someone else was already on her heart.

Story 3

Amasaka Haruhi

My father passed away when i was on my second year of junior high school. It was a terrible shock for me, since we were so close together. When i was on my weakest state, Sagami was there, comforting me in a way no one could ever think of. Indeed, he is someone important for me and i would do anything just to make him happy just like what he did to me.

He's known as a very cold and not sociable person in our class, but i know the real him, the caring and emotional Sagami.

Despite all that, i have another obstacle to face because someone other than Sagami had made my heart pound so fast when there was just the two of us alone.

Story 4

Onda Kiri

"We will always be together and never be apart!". That was his promise to me, the one promise i could never forget. And also the one most likely won't come true regarding the complicated situation now. I didn't care about the fact that other girls hate me. As long as i had him by my side, i can continue living on this world without worrying about a single thing.

I know it's stupid, but i love Mitsu. His silly looks, the way he talks his kind personality, i love them all. He was everything to me. We were always together since we were little, until he met that girl. I just knew it, from the way that he looked at her, his heart was already belongs to her. And the person whom he loves is not me. I can do nothing about it but just to watch silently watching Mitsu being taken away from my side.

Story 5

Saionji Rentarou

Nobody has ever cared about me. I was always alone in the darkness. I can do anything else but to fight and be rebellious. My parents were always disappointed in me and my friends only cared for me because they were practically scared of me.

It all changed when that Onda girl came to me. She actually tried to help me despite all the bad things people have said about me. She changed me. And as i got close to her, i then realized that i want to make this girl mine and i will do whatever it takes to be with her.

Indeed, who could've thought that the one person that i care so much in my life has always been in love with my own best friend?

FIN

it's 3 guys and 2 girls! WOW rite?

So wat yall think about this?HEHE

i feel soo good after writing this! i just hope i can write more:D this is such a great feeling!

Well that's the end for today's entry cuz i got a cyber quiz comin up tomorrow which means i have to read some papers and this that i don't understand like at all==

See yall later then!

CiaosuuuuU~!!!

Some things I Am Not Aware Of..

These days, it just kinda seems that something has been bugging me. I don't really understand it myself though, like what exactly it is and why in the world i have become like this?

I mean, i'm not depressed or frustrated like at all... so that's why i've been n still am confused about what the hell is going on with me==

Still unclear about what am i talking about? Then i'll give you a very simple example..

I, J, am officially no longer motivated or wanting to study slash memorise for tests and quizzes.. D*MN!

It's like i've lost my appetite.. or more like that one purpose or somethin like that== I just feel mostly tired and sleepy all day and all time... I don't really know if it's because of my lack of sleep, but who knows damn it=_=

I guess this can be also called as laziness huh? *scratching my head*

Ok, then one more thing that i'm kinda concerned of==

I've been asking myself this question somehow: "Am i a cold person?"

I mean, it's kinda weird you see, i'm already this old and guess what? I, NOW OFFICIALLY DECLARE THAT I HAVE NEVER FALLEN IN LOVE WITH ANYBODY TIL THIS POINT OF MY LIFE!

Am i even normal FG'sS????

you see, normal teenage girls tend to fall in love and blablabla in this age, but to tell you the truth, i haven't even once=-=

Maybe i just don't understand what love means, also how to love someone fully.. *including the bad side*

I've heard tons of love stories from my friends... n they all just seem... adulty?:D i'm actually implying for mature==

*sigh*

But don't get me wrong though, it's not like i've never been interested in boys, i have actually... a lot of times== BUTT there's something telling me that all this stupid crushes were not LOVE. cuz actually, it eventually goes away in the next couple of months! AM I CRAZY OR SOMETHIN RIGHT?UGH

To tell the truth, i'd been crushing on someone on these couple of months but guess what? IT's all gone now in april... i'm starting to think that i'm a zombie or somethin like that==

I kinda hate myself for being like this, but who knows? I mean this can be really what's best for me? So that i don't have to worry about unnecessary stuff about love? *means i have one less thing to be concerned of* i got other tons of things that i have to b concerned anyway==

AAAAAAAH, F*CK this SH*T! i dun care anymore!!!! let's just talk about other other stuff.. this is so weird..

So yesterday, a crazy thing happened at my house:) YOUSEE, A FRIGGIN CAT ACTUALLY ENTERED THE BATHROOM N NOBODY CAN'T GET IT OUT FROM THERE!LOL

SO DANG disgustingly funny.. since my driver was the one who made it out of my house:) and the cat was already there like a half of an hour since my driver was still with me while i had my course when the mighty cat arrived:P

Yesterday was just hilarious... and i freaked out of course:) the cat was gigantic, brown n EW.. i hate cats<3

Another thing to tell again:D

yousee, i've been sick last week, like real sick... but NOT WITH BIEBER FEVER!!!#WTF

n i just wanna apologize to all people that i've infected..:"( i didn't mean to n i really do hope yall will get well sooN!:) Dang i'm nice:3

i guess that's kinda all for today... i wanna watch some gintamaaa *anime that i'm kinda addicted right now*.. n eat some dried fish fillet?LOL

I'm OFF!

CiaosuuuuU~!

The Way It Is Supposed To Be..

It's been what? 2 weeks? Yes indeed readers, i haven't been that diligent to write more entries since my days were just filled with nothing but laziness..

but trust me, those days r so very much enjoyable n they've been very good to me:)

So anyway, there r lots of things to write, starting with last week:P

There were 2 bday celebration last week! which were F n Rs'!

F's bday was in Azzura, PPJ...

N on that very day, i ate something so terrible== it was super sour, weird n lemony? EW

The stupid sour fish was disgusting, i wouldn't even wanna go to that place anymore.. I'm so friggin traumatized with that sour dori fish:"(

And @ that time,i was still sick, with mucusy nose n sore throat.. What a life right? My head was also pounding so hard after a while being there=-=

But i had fun:D Well, hanging out w/ friends is always fun indeed:*

So on the night of the next day, it was R's turn...

That day was as busy as hell! Damn! on dat stupid day, i found out that i will have my guitar examination on sunday, so i have to go to my guitar course first==

after my guitar course, i immediately went home, washed my hair, dried them and dressed up..

My hair was still horrible but whocares?== The dress was still gorgeous:)

So den on a restaurant called Queen, i ate juan lo there? It was sooo damn delicioussss<3 i wanna eat it again..:)

Yeah, well d rest of the days were pretty much just like that... lots of dancing practice n idling around with myself...

Ah! that's right! On sunday i have the stupid guitar exam n it was such a mess:)) i am pretty much sure that i'm so gonna fail, i mean, i played so horribly and nervously... n i hate the person beside me! Why d hell was he so good at playing it! i feel like the worst person in this worldTT

N it didn't get better after dat..

So me n V had promised to each other to meet up at church on sunday afternoon.. in order to become an altar girl or something like that...

IT was SUPER EMBARRASSING.. There were only kids there! like stupid careless kids! n we were d only ones who r teenagers... I'm sooooooo embarrassed== not to mention the mentor is someone i knew once! i even talked to him before== when i was in the elementary school.. DANG

But on tuesday,i went out to PPJ w/ my friends... it was fun:) we played Pump n i ate a quiche n finally able to pronounce it!:DDDD

I wasn't able to bring myself to do all the stupid homeworks n all== i don't know why on earth am i this lazy, but it's just really hard to do the hws:"(

i hope i can't finish em all before the deadline...

Anyway, school starts in 2 days n it sucks... why can't holidays be longer? I don't wanna go to school yet!!!!! UGGGHHh

also, QT3 starts next week n i can't even touch those stupid horrifying books:DDDDDD

Okso, dats pretty much the end of my complain n how my days go on with this stupid boring idling life=_=

I'll b writing again soon!

Ciaosuuuuu~!!

It's Cold Outside and Inside..

I'm officially back again!

How r u readers? please don't be bored to read this full-of-bullsh*t-blog-about-me:D

I know i haven't put a lot of entries lately, i'm just... BUSY? *hell yeah!*

so anyway, i got tons of stuffs to tell now...

HMmm, so just yesterday i went out to ciwok w/ my friends to watch "the Mighty Hunger Games", well i guess dat's wat G n V called itLOL

but you see, after seeing the movie, i wasn't fully intrigued by it... maybe i'm just stupid to not understand the story, but i just don't get it til now...

My point is only that: THE FILM WAS OKAY...

p.s. i also think it'd be better to choose liam hemsworth as the male lead role and other female aside from JL for the female lead role*

Indeed i am evil... HEHE but my opinion is always honest if i'm talking about a movie:))

n yeah, i had so much fun yesterday... i ate this fish n chips dat i kinda forgot to take the photograph=_= but it was delicious... *yum"*

a funny moment of yesterday: G was soo persistent to take pictures with V.K. in front of the giant poster of the hunger gamesLOL wats so funny? the fact that V.H n i were trying to ruin the pics..ROFL

after d long day, i was then able to relax at home n watch american idol.. it's even unnecessary to ask about the fact how amazing Phillip Phillips was yesterday<333

BUT d day was definitely not over yet, since my dad decided to go to the church== the mass started at 8.30 - 10.30 and weirdly, I was not sleepy like at all! hehehe

I'm actually glad that we did go to the church yesterday, because after this long long time, i, the most idiotic n embarrassing person in this world, was able to see my first's crush's face again!>3< indeed it's embarrassing to write somethin like dat, but i'm just... floating..#wtf

moving on to today!

i had this dancing practice today n i was soooo tired.. BUTT, i was pretty gud actually... like not that bad HEHE

i had fun too! -> V.H. n i were able to highfive-ing on the air n we managed to waltz dancing for a while! #UNIMPORTANTSTUFF

den i went to my course, n i ended up being a zombie... i was so friggin sleepy, tired n starving..

anyway, the weather is cold as usual, n it's soo cloudy+rainy.. i guess wat my teacher said about this friday is true==

ok den, i guess dat's all to tell today, since i pretty much got nothing else to tell about....

quote of the day: "Everything that's happened in your life must have happened for a very good reason."

i'm taking off now!!!

Ciaosuuuu~!!!!

Just Being.. Me('-'*)ｵﾋｻ♪

A week has passed by and guess what? I'm still Sleepyy!:D

Anyways, i got nothing worth to tell you see.. but i'm still writing somehow... WOW

So anyways, a lot of things happened this week and i guess that's what makes me feel sleepy now!! *kinda not making sense due to stressfulness*

let's move back a few days ago:D

ok, monday is fine, but not so much on the night cuz i got a stupid PBL presentation and Math Hw.. but guess what? Tuesday was even worse because i had to make a stupid BI speech for wednesday... eventhough we ended up not having the test in d end(,,#ﾟДﾟ):∴;'･,;`:ｺﾞﾙｧ!!

Wednesday was PISSING. I WAS PISSED for the entire day. that's why i hate school:)

why was i pissed: 1. i got a stupid anne frank quiz

2. i got a chem test which meant i had to study 2 chaps on that nite.. which apparently didn't happen in the end, SH*TTTT

3. my math teacher is insane so he gave us tons of hws to finish, damn.

4. i only got the time from 6 p.m. to do all these stuffs because i just finished my chem course.

WEDNESDAY WAS THE MOST TIRING DAY EVER. TRUST ME. NOT just tiring btw, also mad, crazily boring and tiring.

n also, the seating arrangement in my class was changed on that very day== i was separated from my friends, damn again, but i guess my new seat has a whole new good impact one me TEEHEE

so finally, tom's d last day of the week. i will finally able to rest. sleep all day. eat all day and just chill.

finally, there's one statement i wanna say, it was very very true and came from the bottom of my heart, just kiddin! but 4 real:

"I

H

A

T

E

SCHOOL.."

IT was so friggin stressful, torturing, tiring, merciful, evil and UGH

and trust me *again*, this is not the first time i wanna b a highschool drop out. Living a life like this everyday is HELL. *i guess i'm just kinda frustated now:P*

alrite, enough wid the mockings. i'm so very much tired and i think i will go to the bed earlier than usual.

SO

i guess this is d end...

P.s. no quote~ on hiatusXD

Ciaosuuuu~!

End of the week, finally @ peace..

Gosh, it's been a week already... such a long time eh?

Blame the stupid dumb" quarter test... this week was just... super disappointing n hard... n that's all thanks to QT1..:"(

butt it's the end of the week already, which means it's all over already!:D

got so much to tell, but i'm gonna summarise it since i don't wanna write that long:))

1st day of QT, it was chemistry. i really thought that i could do it. Like i was soo sure that i won't get a red mark. but guess what? on thursday i finally found out that i got 70... sooooooooooooooo F*ck*NG depressing n disappointing=-=" 5 more points then no more remedial.... IHATECHEM!

2nd day, it was english... so i "THOUGHT" again, that i won't get a bad mark. but i still don't know about the score til now.. it's still heartpounding but i'm pretty much sure i'll do just fine, but not excellent:(((

3rd day, hmm, if i'm not mistaken, it was math n BI.. n JUST LIKE WAT I THOUGHT, i screwed them up.... n what's even more F*CK*N pissing me off is the fact that i managed to skip A VERY EASY NUM ON Math which even guaranteed me even more that i'm soo gonna get a bad mark:D about BI? i'm not pretty sure about that, but i know that whenever i felt that my score is not gonna be that bad for BI, i always get the worst mark._.

4th day, PHYSICS... who would've thought that i think i did better in physics than math? now physics is not on my screwed up schedule... butt i still got plenty mistakes so i'm not that confident that i'll get the best score ever=="

5th/last day... it's biology time... which was supposed to be the easiest but turned out to be one of the hardest... SH*T. but it was also partly my fault for underestimating biology... instead of studying, i ended up playing guitar n stayed up til midnight.. I'm 70% sure that my biology score is also gonna be another depressing one... Haaaa~

anyway, that's pretty much all summed up huh?

although, i'm hoping that things will turned out differently tomorrow.. i'm gonna hang out wid my friends tom, and i'm gonna sing til i run out of voiceLOL *i know it's not funny but i still wanna use that sentence*

but you know, this whole week, overall is not very bad... there were some moments that i really like.. but i can't really remember the ones i wanna write so...:D *all i can remember are the ones that i don't wanna write so, sorry*

Ah, i think i had some fun yesterday on chem lab... the experiment was kinda interesting, n yeah i guess that's all?:PPPPPP *smiley*

hmmm, i don't really have anything to talk about...so i guess this is the end?:D

p.s. i'm sorry if it's really boring, but i'm pretty much very bored now so don't blame me?:) *the lamest excuse ever*

quote 4 d day? HMMMMMMMMMMM

"Don't give up easily in your life, once you find the right path, you will feel right again."

i know that some people might not understand about the quote, but i just kinda feel like writing it now soo... nyahahahhaa

alrite, dat's pretty much all!~

CiaosuuuU~!