Thoughts.

Finally, after being absent for half a year, I AM BACK B*TCHES....

And what's also great is the fact that this entry is not gonna be a depressing one, since all the previous ones were "quite" like that.

But this one entry is gonna be super random since it's so late and i have to sleep FAST or else my dad's gonna be pissed AGAIN :)

You can see what is this entry all about from the title. Without further do, here i GO.

• I am currently studying Deutsch. I don't hate the language, but the thought of memorizing of every single word and articles sickens me.
• Also very much obsessed with a blogger who lives in Berlin. Her blog is very inspiring and humorous. It got my spirit of studying DEUTSCH back too:D
• My super-maybe-not-so-impossible-goal-now: studying in german.
• Ah yes, after i didn't decided to not take my A Levels, i despise my old SCHOOL. (it's a long story) And hate it even more for every single day til this point.
• Been trying my best to become "mature" and "nicer". It's so hard since i'm so childish and selfish but still working on it.
• The older i get, the more i get to know myself even more. I'm temperamental, emotional, quiet, gloomy, easily depressed, overthinking, mean (like a b*tch and i enjoy being one) aaaand also easily disgusted. (may have develop OCD)
• As much as i like being around people, being alone is when i am able to enjoy my relaxing time the most.
• I always JUDGE other people. Sometimes i can't even accept them for who they are. That's probably one of the reason why i should just be left alone.
• (copying this from a website) I prefer to lead my life FREE. Freedom is something that can't be taken away from meh.
• In the end, i'm also one of those mainstream people who miss their highschool life. (on the 11th grade only though) Life does get harder the older you get.
• I still wonder what is the right and wrong thing to do. Sometimes it confuses me.
• Believe it or not, people like me, who are too lazy to even talk, exist in this world.
• Starting a youtube channel has always been my dream since 11th grade. But still no progress at all until now. (yes, i am full of sh*t)
• Just had the realization that i only like depressing songs. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME.

And i guess that's all, since i don't really know what else to write.

I'm gonna be writing more oftenly these days, HOPEFULLY. So when i look back in time, i will be able to remember all those funny and sad memories that i had in life.

It's time for me to go. Ciao~su!

The Ferris Wheel Of Your Life...

Hiiiii~ AGAIN!

It's been almost a week since i last updated, so i decided to update again now.. perhaps._.

anyway.... this one mighty entry is random, seriously....

Well, i mean, it's more like what i've been thinking of.. or things on my mind?:/

Anyway, let's just get started:)

So FOLKS, have you ever felt that u think u don't have a talent on anything? or like ur not good at even ONE single thing? Well, i hav:) a loooooooot of times fyi...

Indeed, sometimes i feel worthless n needless to say, i kinda have a loser-like-mental.. #ouch

But it's true tho! I sometimes gave up first before even trying... i also think that i'm not really capable of doing something extraordinary, except for the future tho... hihihihi but it's just one of my impossible dreams:)

SeE? i'm being pessimistic, AGAIN.

Well, how can i not think this way? i'm not really good at both studying or sport, i'm really slow at understanding things, i'm kindaaaaaa deaf, i'm slow n well, let's just say etc.....

It's like, i haven't found my speciality yet or something.___.

n yeah, i feel kinda worthless because of this...

Indeed i know that this is wrong... i shouldn't be this way... I mean, maybe i got other good things about myself, which i dun even know what it is...

But eventho i didn't realize it, it doesn't mean that other people don't rite?;;)

N also, this entry was inspired by today actually:p

since well.....

today i had the mighty biology test... n well, i didn't really screw up i think?:) but i still dunno... things can happen anyway...

BUTT that's not the main point~!

We also had this mighty speaking test which was about introducing urself n blablabla..

it's in B.I. btw.....

n as i expected! i screwed up again my fellow readers!!

i couldn't remember wat shud i say, i was super nervous, n it was super awkward.. talking about urself in front of the class=0= n there was lots of laughter.....== super embarrassing, seriously..

n well, i overall think that others did much better den me... like MUCH BETTER...

why is this expected again?

well, this is because of my super laziness fellas! on sunday, i watched "SOUL EATER" for the whole day then i studied biology for like, an hour only== #sighing

there's something wrong with me definitely... hihihihihi

Butt den the UNXPECTED thing happened...

When the teacher informed us about our marks, truthfully, i didn't really wanna hear it ...

cuz i know i screwed up so bad...== n it'd be xtremely embarrassing to have d lowest mark in d class... just like wat i did in chemistry:( #istillhatethatsubbtw

N WOW...

apparently i got the highest mark._____.

i dun mean to b arrogant, but i just couldn't believe it...

i dun know if the teacher actually felt sorry for me or something==

OR

maybe there's still something good about me after all...

n on that moment, well, i was grateful, really grateful... for my only God...

for making me this way...

i'm not exactly perfect, i knw that perfectly... but i still have something tho... i have something good about myself... n that really makes me feel happier about today:) #n it's not like i was also sad today anyway haha

this also made me realize that maybe i am capable of doing awesome great things like i want to, but i just have to try n do my best!:)) #this sounds so cliche

Ah, b4 i end tis entry, let me tell u a bit about my school life too:)

i've been meaning to say this but it's just kinda weird for me to say this but, I MISS MY BUDS==

i miss my crowded class, i miss the noisiness, i miss the fun atmosphere, i miss everything...

I dun mean to complain tho... cuz this is totally normal #ithink

i mean, i used to have these many people around d class n i was able to talk to so many people...

n well, it's kinda diff now:(

i'm kinda/prettyyy sad about this, but life must goonnnnn #sighing

But it doesn't mean that i dun enjoy my class now...

let's just say that i have adapted;;) n a good thing about having only 5 people in the class? i could joke around again n again w/ the teachers... eventho it was kindaaaa weirdly funnyLOL

butt i still miss my pals:"((( #sighing

i'm seriously sighing wayyyy to often... well, life has probs n that's wht makes it beautiful!~#singinglalala #WTFFF

k den, i gotta go now....

i got a math test tom n i think i'm gonna fail:D #PESSIMISTICAGAINHAHA

but i'm gonna do my best tho:") Wish me luckkk<3

i'm gonna go for real now!

Ciaosuuuu~!!!!

What Matters In This Life I Have...

#WARNING! THIS ENTRY IS XTREMELY LONG N XCITING N BORING @ D SAME TIME SO FEEL FREE TO NOT READ N TO READ!enjoyyyy~

Hello again! heeheee

I know that i'm not supposed to write, but nothing can stop me from writing! mwahahah! #wtf

Anyway, tom i got this hugeeeeee #exaggerating biology test n for some reasons, i dun feel stressed out or watever is tht called, instead, i feel so full of myself! #meaning: i became diligent in some way, just not in studying... i mean, i did weird things that i've never done before when it's sunday, such as cleaning my desk?;;)

so yeaah, it's really messy now, but maybe it'll get better later?:"p

Anway, that's not the only weird thing that happened today!

this weird thing happened too when i was sleeping in the middle of my study...

i slept at 2 yesterday n woke up at 8 today so i obviously got sleepy after a few hours of waking up._.

den i decided to take a happyy dreamy nappie....

THEN d weird thing started to happen!

It's like i was sleeping, but it was different than the rest of my sleeping time.. #???

to make it clearer, it's like i was gonna lose myself if i don't wake up.... WEIRD totally rite?

i don't really understand what happened but after that, i kept trying to sleep again n again... n the thing happened again n again..

n there was even one time when i tried to sleep, i imagined myself that my hand was moving...

then after a few movement i started to realize that i was trying to throw a baseball.... it was so freakingly weird....

but then i decided not to sleep again n tried to study...

after those weird things that happened to me, i started to imagine things like, was i really asleep back then? was i asleep at my own dream? was i just too stressed out? OR MAYBE it was God's doing to tell me that i should wake up n study...

K".. i know that the last assumption is kindaaaaaaaaaaa impossible..

but it was just a crazy suggestion n it was more like what i believe..

n btw, this stuff didn't really happen today only... i kinda had d same thing whenever i was sooooo tired, to even to sleep....

Well then, let's move on to the next topic!

just last night, i watched "The Dark Knight Rises" n mannnnnnnn, it was sooooooo awesome!<3333

i just have to say this about the movie, "Christopher Nolan, u did such an amazing job for combining Christian Bale, Joseph Gordon Levitt, Anne Hathaway, Marion Cotillard, Gary Oldman, Tom Hardy and other those famous actors slash actresses that i couldn't remember together.... The movie was moving, super cool n i love it so much:))))"

i finally able to find a movie that fulfill my thirst of awesomeness.. #i know it doesn't make any sense, but i just luv saying it... ha!

Christopher Nolan has continued impressed the world including me by his stunningly amazing work... He's officially my favorite movie director now! HAHAHAH n i love BATMAN!!!!

actually, i met some of my friends otw to the theater n they annoyingly told me that the batman was gonna die......

n because of that! i cried a little in the middle of the movie since it was gonna be so disappointing if my beloved Bruce Wayner/Batman dies!

but the ending turned out to be...~ u know lah ya..:p

K, now! the last stuff i'm gonna brag about.....

was about the scary experience that i had rite AFTER i watched the dark knight rises....... #cough"

so then, i was on my way to go to the New Look to browse some clothes n perhaps buy some? HEHE

then i proceed to the escalator that connects the mall n the theater..

fyi, i was way to busy answering people's text, so i kinda not paid attention to my surrouding.__. n that my friend, was my biggest mistake.....

You see, while i was typing my blackberry on the escalator, all of the sudden, the escalator moved so fast! like much much faster than the usual!

i didn't notice this until the very last moment before i touched the ground...

when i finally looked away from my BB, all of a sudden my head hit someone in front of me.. i realized that there was a large flock of people just in front of the escalator! OMGOMG

just before i could see what the F was going on, somebody hit me from the back n i was like stuck so hard between people... 

it was exactly like what happened on David Archie's concert that i had been to a year ago...

ANYWAY i realized that i was at the edge of the escalator... n u see, it was dangerous to be at that place since the escalator could eat your shoes/feet.. my sister had experienced it before, so yeah.. i kinda know about all those stuffs..

n DUDEs! who wants their feet to be eaten by the escalator n their shoes to be destroyed by the super MIGHTY escalator??????

So then i decided to move away from the crazy flock by moving my body to the side... well, i managed to escape but my escape wasn't so cool== since my feet kinda hit the trashbin/ashtray n the ashes/sand fell everywhere! hahahahahahah:p

the first thing that i checked was my dad n sister who were also at the escalator at that time then my brother....OMG

i had no idea whether he came down with us or to stayed upstairs to wait for my other brother...

I screamed like an insane person to my lil bro's nanny, asking if he was there..

OW MAN, my heart was pounding like crazy, i mean, what if he was hurt? i barely got out safely from the crowd n wat bout him????? he was so tiny n small n OMG

i was just panicking like crazy.. then my anxiety finally calmed when i saw his face above..

i was like, THANK GOD....

but the fear has not yet to end, my hands were still trembling n shaking in fear, i was terrified, really... i just couldn't stop thanking GOD for still letting me to live:")

it was such a crazy slash terrible experience.... #sighing

THEN i realized, there was one other thing to be checked! MY NEW SHOES!!!!!!! ARGH!

i panicked even more after that, i mean, it was my new shoes... i finally decided to wear it tht night n this happened? MANNNNNN

but thank God nothing happened to my shoes... n believe me, i was gonna cry on set if something happened to my shoes...==

Well, u can call me crazy by worrying my shoes, but at least i prioritize my fam first tehee!

the thing is that.... i am a possessive person... like in a bad way== n i just realized this today! for God's sakes!! ughhh

so this made me well.... STINGY n HATE LENDING THINGS TO PEOPLE #those r pretty much the same tho

but i've tried to be moreeee generous these days since my dad told me something that i couldn't remember== but i remember about the part of being generous tho! AHHAHAHA

one last thing! this life slash dead situation of me has happened twice n they all happened @ PPJ!!!

i seriously considering of tearing up the place apart because of the suckiness n my hatred to that mall!

but then again, i was dreaming too much n it was not appropriate... hihi

if ur curious about my other life slash dead situation at PPJ, u cud ask me in person:P since i'm just too tired to type now...

DONE/FIN

k, officially done writing this entry now!

n i really gotta go now for some church time!

C YALL AGAIN NEXT TIME

n

THX FOR READING MATES!:")

Ciaosuuuu~!!!

Secrets In Your Heart...

Well, hello again perhaps?HAHA

it's been a long time n yeah, i'm still a horrible person as ever== wat a life..

Anywy, that's not wht i wanna talk about, i'm actually gonna talk about these past few interesting days.. n regretful n sad n embarrassing n weird...

So just this friday... as usual i talked with my girlfriends... n suddenly the topic became weird slash embarrassing..

actually, i was the one who accidentally brought it up.. SH*T

i told em that i had nvr been in love with anyone== butt it doesn't mean tht i've nvr gotten a crush on someone b4;P

butt, it was fun indeed! it was something new for me n man, i really enjoyed "The Talk"...

What does "The Talk" actually mean? *drumroll*

Actually, there was nothing pretty much that special... it was just talking about boys/guys that we kinda likeLOL

Owh yeah! it was soooooo much fun! n i, unfortunately was the one who admitted first==

I told em that the person's name starts with a LETTER which i'm not telling:P *i only told my girls cuz it was a secret! ha!*

THEeen,, weirdly, T who doesn't even know the person guessed correctly! WOW

V.K then laughed so hard since she knows the person== embarrassing!!!!!!!

but she kinda understood why i like him, cuz he's indeed gud looking==:)

butt, the stupid crush ended on junior highschool, since i rarely saw him these days:) 

UNFORTUNATELY V.H. n T didn't know who the person was... sooo, it was kinda relieving:9

it was totally the first time in my life, telling someone about my feelings or the people that i like:P MANN

But the talk ended early since we had something else to do... n guess wat? i ended up smiling like a crazy person when i was waiting for my guitar teacher because of the stupid talk!! n i couldn't stop thinking about it!! AHAHAHHA

So moving on today...

i had this photoshoot w/ my classmates in Bale Pare.. it was fun n tiring.... we took tons of pics! AHHAAHAH *again

anyway, there was trouble at first, cuz i amazingly put on a wrong dress:"( sh*tty right? so then FORTUNATELY, my friend, V brought an extra dress, so i ended up wearing her dress which was soo short n cute i think:))

The photo shoot went well i guess.. n we had so much fun there... even though it was mostly all about taking pics and talking HEHE there were balloons, wines, flowers, baskets n lots of other properties:o

there was this one shitty thing happened after that, i accidentally hurt my feet cuz of the stupid flat shoes..:"(( it hurts like hell... damndamndamn *sigh*

BUTT the story hasn't ended yet folks!

so the journey continued on our way home.. actually V.K n i join T's car to paskal... there was also V.H there!:))

AND there, officially, THE TALK CONTINUED!

All these 3 crazy people were xtremely insisting... n that was actually my fault, for telling V.H on the day b4, that i've actually got a crush on someone now... *truth* different person from junior highschool though*

I refused at first, by insisting them back to also tell me:)) so T finally confessed bout her old crush but unfortunately i didn't know the person so it was disappointing...=3=

BUTT again, the topic went back to me:"(

they started to suggest things which were true indeed, cuz i was soooo embarrassed for telling them who it was..

V.K promised that she would tell hers if i tell mine.. so after that i finally said it! only the characteristic though.. nyahahahaha:))

i told them that: 

1. He's a kind person, cuz i know the kind of person like him:)

2. He doesn't consider himself as a cool slash handsome looking guy..

I actually told them the things that i kinda like about him== which was embarrassing indeed._.

THEN, guess who guessed rightly this time? that crazy girl V.K!lolol

when she guessed the name, i immediately hide my face and the girls were laughing like crazy... DAMN IT.. n i was kinda blushing of course...=-=

but i guess, sooner or later i have to tell the truth, soooo..:P who cares lahh..:P

i also stupidly told them about the way my eyes were always looking for him.. *uuughh* but 4 real, when u like someone, he just suddenly became the centre of attention of ur eyes, ur eyes just instantly look 4 his presence=="yikes! 

n also, he's always on ur mind whenever n wherever i was==

Then, finally V.K admitted bout hers.. n i was d only one who was laughing weirdly hehehe

but it didn't end there!! u see, V.K n i insisted V.H n T to admit who was the guy they wanted to make him to be their bfs... HEHE so it'd fair for all of us:))

N weeeww... the person that they said were the same, n to make it even weirder, it was also the person that i like..LOL

i guess, our tastes of guys are pretty much the same.. hehehee *high5*

anyway, our talk continued into weddings, after weddings and we even made the stupidest promise ever... we promise that we would pick the rest of us to become the bride's maids!LOLLOL

we even talked about having kids... n V.K also said this weird stupid thing...

"But guys look cute when they were playing with kids."

N SOmehow in a weird way, i just couldn't help myself but to imagine 'him' playing with kids..

then we mocked V.K by telling her that she must b thinking bout the person that she said b4!LOL n V.H also read my mind damn it.. 

and the day ended...

it was tiringggg n super fun!

After the mighty QT4, i am sooo gonna have a sleepover w/ those crazy girls! nyahahahahaha

anyway, QT4 starts next week... so i just hope that i can do my bestest! YEY!!

ok den, i gotta leave now.. i'm bored n tired of typing... but i definitely enjoyed writing this one:)))

SEE yall next week!!! i'll write again after this period of suffering n studying:3

Ciaosuuuu~!!!!!

When Spring Comes => Another Romance Story!

I know", i've just post a story on my last entry... but i can't help it... this idea on my head is still fresh from the oven! TEEHEE

so i just have to write and pour all my ideas into beautiful awesome writing:D

Alright, so i wanna do something different now... so actually, the story is told from different point of views.. And, there are 5 character who are going to tell the stories:)) hHEHe

if u still don't understand, then it's like this... IF i were a manga artist, i would make 5 different comics with each book is told by a character only...:)

Aah, this story is also insipired by Sakamichi No Apollon... an anime that i just watched today.. it was super interesting exciting and fresh + realistic which was totally my thing>:D

then i'm gonna start telling the story-es..:-9

Synopsis:

Story 1

Sagami Teshiro

It all started when Onda-san and I worked together for a school project. I didn't feel anything when we first meet, but when i realized the fact that she was in love with her childhood friend, she just got me interested in her. My eyes couldn't help but to always try to find her, whenever i was. Indeed, my first love was unrequited because she had never looked at me while she was already in love with someone else.

This made me depressed indeed, but fortunately, Amasaka was there for me, listening to all my stories and accompanied me whenever i felt lonely. It always made my heart shiver when she was around.

Story 2

Kogayama Mitsuru

I have a sister and she is an illustrator. i love seeing her pictures but it seemed that nobody felt the same as i do. Well, i guess Kiri or my so-called-childhood-friend likes it too, but it doesn't count. Then that very moment when i was in a bookstore, i found out that someone also admired my sister's artwork. It made terribly happy but it was only for one time, because we didn't see each other anymore.

Years passed and we met again in the same class, she's Amasaka Haruhi, a nice talkative girl who has this bright personality that i really like. Without noticing this, i fell for her, i know i do because i just wanna be with her all the time and i will do anything to make her smile at me. I just can't stop this overflowing feeling, even though i know that someone else was already on her heart.

Story 3

Amasaka Haruhi

My father passed away when i was on my second year of junior high school. It was a terrible shock for me, since we were so close together. When i was on my weakest state, Sagami was there, comforting me in a way no one could ever think of. Indeed, he is someone important for me and i would do anything just to make him happy just like what he did to me.

He's known as a very cold and not sociable person in our class, but i know the real him, the caring and emotional Sagami.

Despite all that, i have another obstacle to face because someone other than Sagami had made my heart pound so fast when there was just the two of us alone.

Story 4

Onda Kiri

"We will always be together and never be apart!". That was his promise to me, the one promise i could never forget. And also the one most likely won't come true regarding the complicated situation now. I didn't care about the fact that other girls hate me. As long as i had him by my side, i can continue living on this world without worrying about a single thing.

I know it's stupid, but i love Mitsu. His silly looks, the way he talks his kind personality, i love them all. He was everything to me. We were always together since we were little, until he met that girl. I just knew it, from the way that he looked at her, his heart was already belongs to her. And the person whom he loves is not me. I can do nothing about it but just to watch silently watching Mitsu being taken away from my side.

Story 5

Saionji Rentarou

Nobody has ever cared about me. I was always alone in the darkness. I can do anything else but to fight and be rebellious. My parents were always disappointed in me and my friends only cared for me because they were practically scared of me.

It all changed when that Onda girl came to me. She actually tried to help me despite all the bad things people have said about me. She changed me. And as i got close to her, i then realized that i want to make this girl mine and i will do whatever it takes to be with her.

Indeed, who could've thought that the one person that i care so much in my life has always been in love with my own best friend?

FIN

it's 3 guys and 2 girls! WOW rite?

So wat yall think about this?HEHE

i feel soo good after writing this! i just hope i can write more:D this is such a great feeling!

Well that's the end for today's entry cuz i got a cyber quiz comin up tomorrow which means i have to read some papers and this that i don't understand like at all==

See yall later then!

CiaosuuuuU~!!!

Think First, Then Do Unbelievable Things...

Hey my loyal fellow readers! Life is tiring isn't it? Cause that's just how i feel about my life now indeed==

but now, yall should congratulate yourself, because this mighty entry ain't all about how my stupid days were:) it's actually a good experience that i htink i should share with other people:))

Alrighty then, i shall reveal what it is about:P

So people, have you ever felt that you've done something wrong and there's this weird clingy feeling in your heart? Well fellows, it's called "REGRETTING".

Indeed, i have done this numerous times.. Trust me, i'm an expert at making bad decisions for my life...

FRUSTRATING==

Anyway folks, you definitely don't wanna face this kind of feeling on your entire life, because it sucks terribly and it's actually making you feel uncomfortable all the time..*sigh*

I'm making this entry so that i can remind peole about how they should think sensibly first before making a decidison, especially a big one..

Sooo, i have got some things that i kinda regret doing in my life.. *it's actually the ones that i can remember only*:-9

1. Become not in touch with my best friend anymore when i was a 6th grader.. I mean, she was like one of the best thing that had happened to me and i stupidly let her go.. I HATE ME:"(
2. Be a nicer daughter to my parents.. Well you could say that i'm a pretty horrible daughter== and as i become older, i finally able to see what's the right thing to do and what's not to do..
3. Be nicer to my siblings.. Besides the role of a horrible daughter, i'm also a horrible sister you see... I rarely act as a good loving sister to all my siblings.. normally, sisters r pretty much close with each other, well in my case, i'm not that close with her== What a life..
4. Hurting other people's feelings with or without noticing it.. I'm extremely good at this actually.. N yes indeed, the guilt is killling me inside slowly== Folks, i specially remind yall to be aware of this one, cuz this definitely sucks the most-_-

Well, i guess that's all for the regretting things:D

Anyway, this week is all about QT3.. n tom's english!:)

the hard ones were already done!HMPH

i think i did well in math, i think i did kinda well in physics n BI n i think i did kinda horrible in chemistry:p

GOODNESS, i hate that subject so friggin much! why on earth should students study chemistry anyway? It's soo hard to understand and the questions are complicatedT^T

Last thing to tell!

Sooo, the crazy dance audition is gonna be on friday! YIKES, i'm nervous indeed.. but i can't screw up.. i have to doooo my best and make my friends proud of me!#sonotgonnahappen

Well, i guess that's all to tell.. i'm sick of writing n i can't wait for friday!!!

BYEE~

n

enjoy ur life! #WTH

ciaosuuuu~!!!!

It Keeps On Going..

HUaaaa, it's been like a thousand years since the last time i

updated!!! i MISS U SO FRIGGIN MUCH BLOG! #WTF

anywayyy, enough with the babbling n let's just start to the important things i've got to tell!

so there's a new pizzeria @ PPJ n i went there a couple of weeks ago with my buddies n guess wat? The food was awesome n i love

the place!!

I think it's called "Pizza e Birra"

n trust me, u won't b disappointed if u eat here! #promotion+WTH

So this is the place pretty much looks like....

Here's also a pic of my plate n yeah.. the food was absentLOL

FUNNiest part: since i wanted to cut back my expense, so i decided to buy a drink, not just a drink btw, but a tea that the three of us drank in one glass!

I'm cheap n i know it...:PP

Moving on then!

Hmmm.. a lot a lot of things has happened, so i can't really write every single one of em...

school has started again btw... n things r as stressful as it was before...*sigh*

but i'm actually getting better.. i'm already KINDA cured from the craziest disease ever called laziness!!! what's happening to me is actually gud, since i've become jussst a lil more diligent:D

n wat's upsetting about this?

cuz i have to go to singapore, i can't really join this!! *sobbing*

BUTT, if the study tour to japan is REALLY happening, then i will definitely bail singapore n HELOO JAPAN!

*but this is mostly impossible n i'm just dreaming big*

Furthermore, today i, this super awesome cool person, was officially able to do a fasting for a whole day! MWAHAHAHAHAHHA

Yes indeed, i was suffering from starvation n thirstiness.. but they were all worth it...

n why exactly is that?

Well u see, by doing these, i'm practically running out of energy to do unimportant stuff like being angry n yelling people around me... so by fasting, i can prevent doing those stuff! so Yippie for me!LOL

Hmm, last thing to tell!

I, ONCE AGAIN DECLARE OFFICIALLY, THAT I AM TRULY N MADLY IN LOVE WITH PHILLIP PHILLIPS from AMERICAN IDOL!!!!!!

omgomg, he was sooooooooo awesomely cool n hot today!! n i'm so melting~

Heejun was also great btw! He totally stood out n blew me away!!

*i love how good their friendship is*=u=

Not to mention that Colton is also WOW-ing! eventhough i actually prefer his performance last week...:P but he was still awesome today!:3

okok den, i guess that's all to tell.. since i'm tired n i have to get up early tom... SH*T

got no quote for today, means i'm too lazy to think:P

SO BYE!

addiiooo!!

Ciaossuuu!~~

When the sky above us is still blue...

First of all, i know that i'm not supposed to write anything since QT2 has already started but i can't postpone this.

And the reason is simple, i'm soooo blown away w/ AiScream 's new entry.. Dang, she's just soo.... lecturing?LOL

don't get me wrong, cuz i think it's awesome, how a person can be that wise, since i'm totally the opposite... Dang<<<

Anyway, i actually learned something and amazed by it.

I mean, i've actually never thought about that before. well i guess, i already did once but i totally forgot about it now:D

When i think back about my life, hmmm...

i don't think that i've done so many meaningful things in my life? Most of them are actually crap... Ex: sleeping, eating, watching, playing, napping

I know, i know, i'm a very lazy person== but i'm actually happy by doing those stuffs everyday.. i mean hanging out w/ friends n family can be xtremely fun but i still wanna have my own privacy, when i can have the time when i can enjoy the moment by myself:P *sorry if u don't understand what i mean._.

Going back to my friend's new entry:)

I guess i've tried new things this year, eventhough it's not much... i've tried to be nicer, caring, friendlier, not too selfish, hold myself back to not be angry *eventhough this one only work for several times only*== and the others r even worse-_-

And to be honest, actually i've changed since i entered highschool. i think.

I mean, in junior high school, i used to just listen to what my friend said and so on, but now, i guess i'm the one who talk the most== to the moment that i don't care about what other people said...==

BUTT, you see, from this side of talkativeness, i've become easier to be talked to? *i think* since everytime i talked to someone, my mind always works like this:

Find a topic to be talked about -> find another topic to be talked about

n u can figure out the rest:)

but i also realize that sometimes, the topics that i chose in my mind can be sometimes SUPER UNIMPORTANT. HAHA i know._.

but at least i've tried my best to not make people not feel uncomfortable aroundme:)

My Purpose in life? HMPH, i still don't know to tell the truth... All this time, i've always wanted to make the people that i care happy, eventhough sometimes/most of the time it ended up the opposite==

But i really do wish the best for them and tried to do things that make them happy.. *although it's not always*

I guess when i think that way, i think i've done some meaningful things in my life.. *but i forgot truthfully*

Anyway, also from her new entry, i wanna ask some questions. So u better read this Y!!

1. I've actually done pretty much the same thing as u, i've tried to make as many friends as possible:D but do you have any advice if the person seems/sounds like he/she doesn't wanna talk to u?:P

2. I really do want to talk to everyone in my class. But you see, it's kinda hard to find a topic to be talked about, especially if it's a boy=-= *different interest*

and the last one is actually not a question==

3. I'm totally w/ u about Hee jun n my super beloved Philip Phillips!!!!<33

in addition: i'm also grateful for Shannon, Colton n Skylar!:3

You better answer these or else... *Thinking of something unthinkable*

i guess that's all for today since i have to go back to the terrifying MATHEMATICS, SH*T.

JK

i actually enjoyed studying this subject/chapter:D

ah, if ur wondering what was the title about, it actually means: when the sky above us is still blue, it means we're still alive and obliged to do awesome things! HA!

i also have the most useless quote ever, but it's still a quote you see....

"Trigonometry n Circles can be fun n interesting sometimes!"

ROFL

THEENDDD>>

Ciaosuuuu!~~~