Life.

Hiyaa~! it's been such a long time, I KNOW. But apparently laziness has officially taken over my life, like real bad. Well at the very least i'm still able to enjoy my life and survive with all this madness in the world lol. anyway, it's super late already but i really wanna write something up. I've been meaning to write this for in the past, but because i was still very much overwhelmed by the emotion so i decided not to. It's for the best anyway.

Basically now i'm in that situation when someone feels like that person doesn't belong anywhere. And the surrounding is just, awkward. How to say this, but it's the kind of feeling when you feel like isolated even if you're not actually alone. Like there's some kind of a barrier that you can't penetrate between you and others. Or probably we're just that certain kind of people that don't really get along with each other because we're so different. From our sense of humor to our personality. And those differences started the whole barrier thing from the start. And it sucked and sucks.

At least i'm a much stronger person now, emotionally i mean. Usually i easily broke down over stuff like this and it was really pathetic. Sometimes i couldn't even handle the emotion anymore, it was tearing me apart so badly. Most importantly, i became aware that i actually felt really empty inside. *wow that was deep lol*

It was hard living like that and apparently now it's happening again. It's even worse now since most of my close friends are away. But I don't know whether it's me who has finally been disconnected or maybe it's always been like that without me realizing it. While leaving is not on option, and if i actually leave, where can i go anyway? Even if i desperately want to. So i guess i'll just be here for the remaining time until it's finally time to leave. And all i can do now is to stand strong and hold my head high all the time.

Becoming older made me able to think more rationally, i guess. I'm still super sensitive but at least i'm able to control my emotion a LITTLE bit better now. I don't know whether i've actually become a real adult *teehee* or i'm actually changing into a better person than i used to be. It's extremely hard to do this, but i think if i were able to survive this, i would definitely be harder to be defeated  by the harsh living in the real world. *weird sentence but whocares -u-*

To me this hardship is really tough and torturous at the same time, but if i compare it to other teenager's problem it would probably be the least hard. That even adds more reason why this shouldn't be a matter of concern. Definitely.

Just like what the quote says, "life is full of ups and downs". Many problems exist in ways that we can't even imagine. But there's always the light of hope that makes us believe that everything's gonna turn well. And being able to follow that light is the hardest part that we must do. 

Well, that's basically how life works, which makes it really hard to live on.:)

Things can never be the same anymore now. Now i finally able to understand my own feelings. Then also, i constantly repeat to myself that i will finally find something better some time in the future.

Opening Up A New Chapter Of Life...

YES, it's 30 more minutes before the mighty new year. and YES again, i'm as sleepy as hell right now..

I can't stop yawning like crazy while the super noisy fireworks can't stop making loud noise which is annoying==

N No i am not drunk while writing this entry, evnthough i very much sound like i am, but i'm just very" dizzy since i'd eaten so much meat n soft drink. Now i'm not even sure where my mind is floating to #yawning

Rite, so 2013 is coming soon.

• do i have regrets from the things i've done in 2012?

PLENTY

But what can i do anyway? It's all been done, and the best that i can do is to look forward to the future and never look back.

• what are the best memories from the mighty year of 2012?

Not that much, but there's owl city, the mighty malang trip, PEDC and some new crushes of mine HAHA

• do i look forward for this new year of 2013?

Noooot really:) I mean, i'm still gonna be the same me, who's always easily frustrated and depressed. Not to mention how often i complain about my awsome life. AND how annoying i always am to people. WITH the laziness that's always within me. Still the same as ever.

• any new year resolution?

A LOT. not sure i can do all of em tho, especially the part about being diligent, have more confidence, being more outgoing person n most importantly, not annoy people most of the time.

END OF NEW YEAR THINGY TALK.

so i'm not really sure what this entry is all about, but i just wanna write something before this year is offcially over.

so a message for the mighty 2012:

Dear 2012, i know that you haven't been exactly my favorite year ever, since most of the time in this year, i get depressed even more oftenly and easily. And lots of weird things happened in this year. Some good, some bad. And it's gonna be so weird when i'm looking back to all of this. Despite all of that, i'm also glad to have this year in my life, since i can meet new people, get to know my crazy fun friends much better and also get along more with my family members. So good bye 2012, we'll never meet again, but i'll surely remember you. You're memorable in both good and bad ways:)

RITE, this entry is getting even weirder and weirder.__.

So it's 15 more mins before new year, which means i have to go!

HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS

MAY ALL THE BLESSING BE WITH ALL OF YOU

AND MAY THIS NEW YEAR BE A NEW BEGINNING TO MAKE YOUR LIFE EVEN BETTER

AND ALSO TO OTHERS \m/

Ciaosuuuu~!!!!

The Things I Should Have Done...

So FOLKS, please do forgive me for the absent... YES, i know that i haven't written anything this couple of weeks, but don't blame me, blame my mighty companion, Mr. Laziness and also Mrs. Business.

Anyway, to begin this entry, i first wanna apologize for keep making depressing and uninteresting entries... and yeaaah, this one is pretty much gonna be the same...

And actually, I am currently listening to David Choi's songs so it kiiiinda made me wanna write cuz his songs r so mellow" n relaxing n chilling~u~

So, wat i'm about to discuss today is actually about MYSELF again..

sorry 4 being wayy too self-centred, but this is my own friggin blog anyway so WHO D F Cares?:P

Til this moment, i just realized this fully, the fact that i have CHANGED since i entered highschool. N i think it's not a really good change.. #sighing

i dun even understand it myself.. but when i think back again, i was such a diff person back then..

Somehow, i was super motivated, diligent, willing to do anything n blablabla..

N Look at me now! i'm super lazy, sleepy all the time n i even think that i've become even stupider!ugh

What has gotten into me? well, don't ask me since i don't even understand wat the question means._.

I've been kiiinda experiencing this for almost more than a year... n now...  it's just worse than before.... SERIOUSLY DEPRESSING

This holiday was d worst one... my laziness has completely taken over. whether it's my mind, my body, my soul?#wtf

but i have some serious problem with the word B*LLSH*T..

i told my self, just rite before the holiday that i'm gonna read books, study, do homeworks and BE DILIGENT through the holiday.. BUT unfortunately, school starts tom n i haven't done a single thing..

WTF is wrong with me?

I'm seriously angry n furious at myself...

eventho i've realized this very fact, it doesn't really make me become better either since til now, I haven't finished a single thing..

This awful things called laziness has also affected my social life... like sometimes, i was even TOO LAZY TO TALK. WTH was tht rite?

I know that i often dream the impossible... Like living in NYC, travel around the world n do other awesome stuffs... like change d world?

Those dreams are like bullshits to me now...

i was like, "WTF mate? u wanna achieve those dreams but u dun wanna work hard for it? How wud u expect them to eventually come true then?"

K, so i'm practically lost now:| i dunno wat shud i do to make everything better n blablblblba...#sighing

see? i'm even too lazy to write now... i now believe that i , myself have a SERIOUS motivation problem...

so i gotta go now, cuz i'm too lazy to do anything besides watching eating n resting....

SO BYE

Ciaosuuu~!!

What Matters In This Life I Have...

#WARNING! THIS ENTRY IS XTREMELY LONG N XCITING N BORING @ D SAME TIME SO FEEL FREE TO NOT READ N TO READ!enjoyyyy~

Hello again! heeheee

I know that i'm not supposed to write, but nothing can stop me from writing! mwahahah! #wtf

Anyway, tom i got this hugeeeeee #exaggerating biology test n for some reasons, i dun feel stressed out or watever is tht called, instead, i feel so full of myself! #meaning: i became diligent in some way, just not in studying... i mean, i did weird things that i've never done before when it's sunday, such as cleaning my desk?;;)

so yeaah, it's really messy now, but maybe it'll get better later?:"p

Anway, that's not the only weird thing that happened today!

this weird thing happened too when i was sleeping in the middle of my study...

i slept at 2 yesterday n woke up at 8 today so i obviously got sleepy after a few hours of waking up._.

den i decided to take a happyy dreamy nappie....

THEN d weird thing started to happen!

It's like i was sleeping, but it was different than the rest of my sleeping time.. #???

to make it clearer, it's like i was gonna lose myself if i don't wake up.... WEIRD totally rite?

i don't really understand what happened but after that, i kept trying to sleep again n again... n the thing happened again n again..

n there was even one time when i tried to sleep, i imagined myself that my hand was moving...

then after a few movement i started to realize that i was trying to throw a baseball.... it was so freakingly weird....

but then i decided not to sleep again n tried to study...

after those weird things that happened to me, i started to imagine things like, was i really asleep back then? was i asleep at my own dream? was i just too stressed out? OR MAYBE it was God's doing to tell me that i should wake up n study...

K".. i know that the last assumption is kindaaaaaaaaaaa impossible..

but it was just a crazy suggestion n it was more like what i believe..

n btw, this stuff didn't really happen today only... i kinda had d same thing whenever i was sooooo tired, to even to sleep....

Well then, let's move on to the next topic!

just last night, i watched "The Dark Knight Rises" n mannnnnnnn, it was sooooooo awesome!<3333

i just have to say this about the movie, "Christopher Nolan, u did such an amazing job for combining Christian Bale, Joseph Gordon Levitt, Anne Hathaway, Marion Cotillard, Gary Oldman, Tom Hardy and other those famous actors slash actresses that i couldn't remember together.... The movie was moving, super cool n i love it so much:))))"

i finally able to find a movie that fulfill my thirst of awesomeness.. #i know it doesn't make any sense, but i just luv saying it... ha!

Christopher Nolan has continued impressed the world including me by his stunningly amazing work... He's officially my favorite movie director now! HAHAHAH n i love BATMAN!!!!

actually, i met some of my friends otw to the theater n they annoyingly told me that the batman was gonna die......

n because of that! i cried a little in the middle of the movie since it was gonna be so disappointing if my beloved Bruce Wayner/Batman dies!

but the ending turned out to be...~ u know lah ya..:p

K, now! the last stuff i'm gonna brag about.....

was about the scary experience that i had rite AFTER i watched the dark knight rises....... #cough"

so then, i was on my way to go to the New Look to browse some clothes n perhaps buy some? HEHE

then i proceed to the escalator that connects the mall n the theater..

fyi, i was way to busy answering people's text, so i kinda not paid attention to my surrouding.__. n that my friend, was my biggest mistake.....

You see, while i was typing my blackberry on the escalator, all of the sudden, the escalator moved so fast! like much much faster than the usual!

i didn't notice this until the very last moment before i touched the ground...

when i finally looked away from my BB, all of a sudden my head hit someone in front of me.. i realized that there was a large flock of people just in front of the escalator! OMGOMG

just before i could see what the F was going on, somebody hit me from the back n i was like stuck so hard between people... 

it was exactly like what happened on David Archie's concert that i had been to a year ago...

ANYWAY i realized that i was at the edge of the escalator... n u see, it was dangerous to be at that place since the escalator could eat your shoes/feet.. my sister had experienced it before, so yeah.. i kinda know about all those stuffs..

n DUDEs! who wants their feet to be eaten by the escalator n their shoes to be destroyed by the super MIGHTY escalator??????

So then i decided to move away from the crazy flock by moving my body to the side... well, i managed to escape but my escape wasn't so cool== since my feet kinda hit the trashbin/ashtray n the ashes/sand fell everywhere! hahahahahahah:p

the first thing that i checked was my dad n sister who were also at the escalator at that time then my brother....OMG

i had no idea whether he came down with us or to stayed upstairs to wait for my other brother...

I screamed like an insane person to my lil bro's nanny, asking if he was there..

OW MAN, my heart was pounding like crazy, i mean, what if he was hurt? i barely got out safely from the crowd n wat bout him????? he was so tiny n small n OMG

i was just panicking like crazy.. then my anxiety finally calmed when i saw his face above..

i was like, THANK GOD....

but the fear has not yet to end, my hands were still trembling n shaking in fear, i was terrified, really... i just couldn't stop thanking GOD for still letting me to live:")

it was such a crazy slash terrible experience.... #sighing

THEN i realized, there was one other thing to be checked! MY NEW SHOES!!!!!!! ARGH!

i panicked even more after that, i mean, it was my new shoes... i finally decided to wear it tht night n this happened? MANNNNNN

but thank God nothing happened to my shoes... n believe me, i was gonna cry on set if something happened to my shoes...==

Well, u can call me crazy by worrying my shoes, but at least i prioritize my fam first tehee!

the thing is that.... i am a possessive person... like in a bad way== n i just realized this today! for God's sakes!! ughhh

so this made me well.... STINGY n HATE LENDING THINGS TO PEOPLE #those r pretty much the same tho

but i've tried to be moreeee generous these days since my dad told me something that i couldn't remember== but i remember about the part of being generous tho! AHHAHAHA

one last thing! this life slash dead situation of me has happened twice n they all happened @ PPJ!!!

i seriously considering of tearing up the place apart because of the suckiness n my hatred to that mall!

but then again, i was dreaming too much n it was not appropriate... hihi

if ur curious about my other life slash dead situation at PPJ, u cud ask me in person:P since i'm just too tired to type now...

DONE/FIN

k, officially done writing this entry now!

n i really gotta go now for some church time!

C YALL AGAIN NEXT TIME

n

THX FOR READING MATES!:")

Ciaosuuuu~!!!

Secrets In Your Heart...

Well, hello again perhaps?HAHA

it's been a long time n yeah, i'm still a horrible person as ever== wat a life..

Anywy, that's not wht i wanna talk about, i'm actually gonna talk about these past few interesting days.. n regretful n sad n embarrassing n weird...

So just this friday... as usual i talked with my girlfriends... n suddenly the topic became weird slash embarrassing..

actually, i was the one who accidentally brought it up.. SH*T

i told em that i had nvr been in love with anyone== butt it doesn't mean tht i've nvr gotten a crush on someone b4;P

butt, it was fun indeed! it was something new for me n man, i really enjoyed "The Talk"...

What does "The Talk" actually mean? *drumroll*

Actually, there was nothing pretty much that special... it was just talking about boys/guys that we kinda likeLOL

Owh yeah! it was soooooo much fun! n i, unfortunately was the one who admitted first==

I told em that the person's name starts with a LETTER which i'm not telling:P *i only told my girls cuz it was a secret! ha!*

THEeen,, weirdly, T who doesn't even know the person guessed correctly! WOW

V.K then laughed so hard since she knows the person== embarrassing!!!!!!!

but she kinda understood why i like him, cuz he's indeed gud looking==:)

butt, the stupid crush ended on junior highschool, since i rarely saw him these days:) 

UNFORTUNATELY V.H. n T didn't know who the person was... sooo, it was kinda relieving:9

it was totally the first time in my life, telling someone about my feelings or the people that i like:P MANN

But the talk ended early since we had something else to do... n guess wat? i ended up smiling like a crazy person when i was waiting for my guitar teacher because of the stupid talk!! n i couldn't stop thinking about it!! AHAHAHHA

So moving on today...

i had this photoshoot w/ my classmates in Bale Pare.. it was fun n tiring.... we took tons of pics! AHHAAHAH *again

anyway, there was trouble at first, cuz i amazingly put on a wrong dress:"( sh*tty right? so then FORTUNATELY, my friend, V brought an extra dress, so i ended up wearing her dress which was soo short n cute i think:))

The photo shoot went well i guess.. n we had so much fun there... even though it was mostly all about taking pics and talking HEHE there were balloons, wines, flowers, baskets n lots of other properties:o

there was this one shitty thing happened after that, i accidentally hurt my feet cuz of the stupid flat shoes..:"(( it hurts like hell... damndamndamn *sigh*

BUTT the story hasn't ended yet folks!

so the journey continued on our way home.. actually V.K n i join T's car to paskal... there was also V.H there!:))

AND there, officially, THE TALK CONTINUED!

All these 3 crazy people were xtremely insisting... n that was actually my fault, for telling V.H on the day b4, that i've actually got a crush on someone now... *truth* different person from junior highschool though*

I refused at first, by insisting them back to also tell me:)) so T finally confessed bout her old crush but unfortunately i didn't know the person so it was disappointing...=3=

BUTT again, the topic went back to me:"(

they started to suggest things which were true indeed, cuz i was soooo embarrassed for telling them who it was..

V.K promised that she would tell hers if i tell mine.. so after that i finally said it! only the characteristic though.. nyahahahaha:))

i told them that: 

1. He's a kind person, cuz i know the kind of person like him:)

2. He doesn't consider himself as a cool slash handsome looking guy..

I actually told them the things that i kinda like about him== which was embarrassing indeed._.

THEN, guess who guessed rightly this time? that crazy girl V.K!lolol

when she guessed the name, i immediately hide my face and the girls were laughing like crazy... DAMN IT.. n i was kinda blushing of course...=-=

but i guess, sooner or later i have to tell the truth, soooo..:P who cares lahh..:P

i also stupidly told them about the way my eyes were always looking for him.. *uuughh* but 4 real, when u like someone, he just suddenly became the centre of attention of ur eyes, ur eyes just instantly look 4 his presence=="yikes! 

n also, he's always on ur mind whenever n wherever i was==

Then, finally V.K admitted bout hers.. n i was d only one who was laughing weirdly hehehe

but it didn't end there!! u see, V.K n i insisted V.H n T to admit who was the guy they wanted to make him to be their bfs... HEHE so it'd fair for all of us:))

N weeeww... the person that they said were the same, n to make it even weirder, it was also the person that i like..LOL

i guess, our tastes of guys are pretty much the same.. hehehee *high5*

anyway, our talk continued into weddings, after weddings and we even made the stupidest promise ever... we promise that we would pick the rest of us to become the bride's maids!LOLLOL

we even talked about having kids... n V.K also said this weird stupid thing...

"But guys look cute when they were playing with kids."

N SOmehow in a weird way, i just couldn't help myself but to imagine 'him' playing with kids..

then we mocked V.K by telling her that she must b thinking bout the person that she said b4!LOL n V.H also read my mind damn it.. 

and the day ended...

it was tiringggg n super fun!

After the mighty QT4, i am sooo gonna have a sleepover w/ those crazy girls! nyahahahahaha

anyway, QT4 starts next week... so i just hope that i can do my bestest! YEY!!

ok den, i gotta leave now.. i'm bored n tired of typing... but i definitely enjoyed writing this one:)))

SEE yall next week!!! i'll write again after this period of suffering n studying:3

Ciaosuuuu~!!!!!

Some things I Am Not Aware Of..

These days, it just kinda seems that something has been bugging me. I don't really understand it myself though, like what exactly it is and why in the world i have become like this?

I mean, i'm not depressed or frustrated like at all... so that's why i've been n still am confused about what the hell is going on with me==

Still unclear about what am i talking about? Then i'll give you a very simple example..

I, J, am officially no longer motivated or wanting to study slash memorise for tests and quizzes.. D*MN!

It's like i've lost my appetite.. or more like that one purpose or somethin like that== I just feel mostly tired and sleepy all day and all time... I don't really know if it's because of my lack of sleep, but who knows damn it=_=

I guess this can be also called as laziness huh? *scratching my head*

Ok, then one more thing that i'm kinda concerned of==

I've been asking myself this question somehow: "Am i a cold person?"

I mean, it's kinda weird you see, i'm already this old and guess what? I, NOW OFFICIALLY DECLARE THAT I HAVE NEVER FALLEN IN LOVE WITH ANYBODY TIL THIS POINT OF MY LIFE!

Am i even normal FG'sS????

you see, normal teenage girls tend to fall in love and blablabla in this age, but to tell you the truth, i haven't even once=-=

Maybe i just don't understand what love means, also how to love someone fully.. *including the bad side*

I've heard tons of love stories from my friends... n they all just seem... adulty?:D i'm actually implying for mature==

*sigh*

But don't get me wrong though, it's not like i've never been interested in boys, i have actually... a lot of times== BUTT there's something telling me that all this stupid crushes were not LOVE. cuz actually, it eventually goes away in the next couple of months! AM I CRAZY OR SOMETHIN RIGHT?UGH

To tell the truth, i'd been crushing on someone on these couple of months but guess what? IT's all gone now in april... i'm starting to think that i'm a zombie or somethin like that==

I kinda hate myself for being like this, but who knows? I mean this can be really what's best for me? So that i don't have to worry about unnecessary stuff about love? *means i have one less thing to be concerned of* i got other tons of things that i have to b concerned anyway==

AAAAAAAH, F*CK this SH*T! i dun care anymore!!!! let's just talk about other other stuff.. this is so weird..

So yesterday, a crazy thing happened at my house:) YOUSEE, A FRIGGIN CAT ACTUALLY ENTERED THE BATHROOM N NOBODY CAN'T GET IT OUT FROM THERE!LOL

SO DANG disgustingly funny.. since my driver was the one who made it out of my house:) and the cat was already there like a half of an hour since my driver was still with me while i had my course when the mighty cat arrived:P

Yesterday was just hilarious... and i freaked out of course:) the cat was gigantic, brown n EW.. i hate cats<3

Another thing to tell again:D

yousee, i've been sick last week, like real sick... but NOT WITH BIEBER FEVER!!!#WTF

n i just wanna apologize to all people that i've infected..:"( i didn't mean to n i really do hope yall will get well sooN!:) Dang i'm nice:3

i guess that's kinda all for today... i wanna watch some gintamaaa *anime that i'm kinda addicted right now*.. n eat some dried fish fillet?LOL

I'm OFF!

CiaosuuuuU~!

The Way It Is Supposed To Be..

It's been what? 2 weeks? Yes indeed readers, i haven't been that diligent to write more entries since my days were just filled with nothing but laziness..

but trust me, those days r so very much enjoyable n they've been very good to me:)

So anyway, there r lots of things to write, starting with last week:P

There were 2 bday celebration last week! which were F n Rs'!

F's bday was in Azzura, PPJ...

N on that very day, i ate something so terrible== it was super sour, weird n lemony? EW

The stupid sour fish was disgusting, i wouldn't even wanna go to that place anymore.. I'm so friggin traumatized with that sour dori fish:"(

And @ that time,i was still sick, with mucusy nose n sore throat.. What a life right? My head was also pounding so hard after a while being there=-=

But i had fun:D Well, hanging out w/ friends is always fun indeed:*

So on the night of the next day, it was R's turn...

That day was as busy as hell! Damn! on dat stupid day, i found out that i will have my guitar examination on sunday, so i have to go to my guitar course first==

after my guitar course, i immediately went home, washed my hair, dried them and dressed up..

My hair was still horrible but whocares?== The dress was still gorgeous:)

So den on a restaurant called Queen, i ate juan lo there? It was sooo damn delicioussss<3 i wanna eat it again..:)

Yeah, well d rest of the days were pretty much just like that... lots of dancing practice n idling around with myself...

Ah! that's right! On sunday i have the stupid guitar exam n it was such a mess:)) i am pretty much sure that i'm so gonna fail, i mean, i played so horribly and nervously... n i hate the person beside me! Why d hell was he so good at playing it! i feel like the worst person in this worldTT

N it didn't get better after dat..

So me n V had promised to each other to meet up at church on sunday afternoon.. in order to become an altar girl or something like that...

IT was SUPER EMBARRASSING.. There were only kids there! like stupid careless kids! n we were d only ones who r teenagers... I'm sooooooo embarrassed== not to mention the mentor is someone i knew once! i even talked to him before== when i was in the elementary school.. DANG

But on tuesday,i went out to PPJ w/ my friends... it was fun:) we played Pump n i ate a quiche n finally able to pronounce it!:DDDD

I wasn't able to bring myself to do all the stupid homeworks n all== i don't know why on earth am i this lazy, but it's just really hard to do the hws:"(

i hope i can't finish em all before the deadline...

Anyway, school starts in 2 days n it sucks... why can't holidays be longer? I don't wanna go to school yet!!!!! UGGGHHh

also, QT3 starts next week n i can't even touch those stupid horrifying books:DDDDDD

Okso, dats pretty much the end of my complain n how my days go on with this stupid boring idling life=_=

I'll b writing again soon!

Ciaosuuuuu~!!

It's Cold Outside and Inside..

I'm officially back again!

How r u readers? please don't be bored to read this full-of-bullsh*t-blog-about-me:D

I know i haven't put a lot of entries lately, i'm just... BUSY? *hell yeah!*

so anyway, i got tons of stuffs to tell now...

HMmm, so just yesterday i went out to ciwok w/ my friends to watch "the Mighty Hunger Games", well i guess dat's wat G n V called itLOL

but you see, after seeing the movie, i wasn't fully intrigued by it... maybe i'm just stupid to not understand the story, but i just don't get it til now...

My point is only that: THE FILM WAS OKAY...

p.s. i also think it'd be better to choose liam hemsworth as the male lead role and other female aside from JL for the female lead role*

Indeed i am evil... HEHE but my opinion is always honest if i'm talking about a movie:))

n yeah, i had so much fun yesterday... i ate this fish n chips dat i kinda forgot to take the photograph=_= but it was delicious... *yum"*

a funny moment of yesterday: G was soo persistent to take pictures with V.K. in front of the giant poster of the hunger gamesLOL wats so funny? the fact that V.H n i were trying to ruin the pics..ROFL

after d long day, i was then able to relax at home n watch american idol.. it's even unnecessary to ask about the fact how amazing Phillip Phillips was yesterday<333

BUT d day was definitely not over yet, since my dad decided to go to the church== the mass started at 8.30 - 10.30 and weirdly, I was not sleepy like at all! hehehe

I'm actually glad that we did go to the church yesterday, because after this long long time, i, the most idiotic n embarrassing person in this world, was able to see my first's crush's face again!>3< indeed it's embarrassing to write somethin like dat, but i'm just... floating..#wtf

moving on to today!

i had this dancing practice today n i was soooo tired.. BUTT, i was pretty gud actually... like not that bad HEHE

i had fun too! -> V.H. n i were able to highfive-ing on the air n we managed to waltz dancing for a while! #UNIMPORTANTSTUFF

den i went to my course, n i ended up being a zombie... i was so friggin sleepy, tired n starving..

anyway, the weather is cold as usual, n it's soo cloudy+rainy.. i guess wat my teacher said about this friday is true==

ok den, i guess dat's all to tell today, since i pretty much got nothing else to tell about....

quote of the day: "Everything that's happened in your life must have happened for a very good reason."

i'm taking off now!!!

Ciaosuuuu~!!!!

I guess this is called the moment?

Haaaa~... WOW

So sorry for the weird title, but i just wanna make a weird and eccentric title which should be interesting to be read? #WTF

Well i guess, my depression n frustration were finally away from me these weeks. I guess you can predict what does that sentence mean right? That's right. finally, after 2 months less of torturing, i can finally say : YES, I AM KINDA ENJOYING MY LIFE.

Yes indeed, it was still stressful as hell. Not to mention about math, physics, n evn worse, CHEM.

BUTT, i guess this new seating arrangement has brought me getting to know some people in my class:DD n yeah, it was fun, since i was able to talk so much about the stuffs i like which apparently are the same as theirs..:))

Ok, let me start from the first event. * but only d ones i remember*

So, let's just start w/ the happy-ing result of BI QT1! that's right! this girl got an 86 for BI!!! UNBELIEVABLE BUT TRUE

There were other results from quizzes of other subjects but they were not really disappointing or satisfying...

BUTT

i also got a hugely bad mark for Biology. Damn damn, that subject was supposed to be the easiest one n i still failed.... WTH is wrong w/ me?? UGHHHHH

NOW moving on to the fun stuffs i did today!! YIPPIE!

So today was the first day of QT2 and it was chem. just like i expected, i ruined it. i totally did. SH*T. i probably will got a 70 or something. and that was not just a prediction friends!

butt i've done my best, and yeah, i regret that i didn't study harder, i mean, i totally should've. *sighhhhhh

moving on from the long sigh....

So after that depressing test, i got math course, so i couldn't join the dance practice for something called PENSI which i totally know nothing about.

Anywy, some of my friends from my class have been planning this since 2 weeks ago, so we finally did go to PPJ together! YEAH!

eventhough it was kinda disappointing because we couldn't watch "The Vow". but we managed to go karaokeing though<333

ah, before moving on to the karaoke-ing, there's this awkward thing happened.

So when i arrived @ PPJ, i couldn't reach anyone's cellphone since it out of reach or something like that, so then i have to walked around like an idiot in PPJ to find them.LOL.

THEN, finally i found them eating @Kamikaze which i've been to before w/ Yo, Pad n Ter.Ha!

butt i couldn't eat there since they all shared a meal n i will feel like i'm a pig if i ate one portion alone hehe

So since Ve" was nice enough to accompany me to burger king to buy me some food, we went together there.

When we got there, we then met one of our classmate. n it was kinda funny actually, cuz 20 mins ago i was still w/ them studying math==

While waiting for my burger, we talked for a while and he then decided to call up his friends in starbuck to join us.

Damndamn, it became rather hard for me n V to go back to our friends. So after 5 mins or something, we decided to leave em...evil right?ROFL

*sorry if u don't find this story funny, but i still think it's very weird, awkward n hilarious*

But anyway, the journey continues.... *cool word huh?*

THen we moved on to karaoke-ing which was awesomeeee... i was like screaming all the time n it felt damn good....

but then after finished karaokeing, we decided to eat Cold Stone which later made my voice become kinda gone?! but it was fun:PP

and after my friend's forceful incitement, i decided then to bail on my guitar lesson to play pump. and it was tiring really.

And THEEND

from PPJ, i went straight to Mr.W to study Physics. and i started to become frustrated again since i couldn't i understand a thing about heat capacityT^TSOsAD #TRUTH#

after that i ate so much because of starvation and i then watched american idol!!!!!

Eventhough i missed to see my beloved Phil Phillips got through on top 10, but i am still so friggin happy for him!!!!<333

and now's the real THEEND:=)

i guess, i'll write something again tom. i got so much to talk about now... hahaha

quote of the day: "Happy n sad moments in life are variable, they can't be predicted n come to our lives whenever they want to. And if you managed to survive on sad situations, something good will happen to you soon"

sorry if the quote is weird, since i got nothing to be quoted you see.. HEHE

alrighty, that's all for today!

THX 4 reading n

Ciaosuuuu!~

Word of d day : TIRED

Aah, another week has passed by.. and yeah, i'm still busy as ever:)

It's tiring indeed.. but this is my f*ck*n life.. so i hav to life it the fullest every single day of my life.. *sigh* SUPER TIRING

this is just not a normal frustration, since it has been going on for like.... 2 months? I don't knw if anyone had noticed, but i just realize that ever since school starts on 2012, everyday is like HELL. and i'm not just babbling cuz it's true.. i'm exhausted dang it!!

anyway, rather than talking about that, i'd rather talk about what happened this week.

Hmm, nothing interesting really happened this week, except the fact that apparently all my hard work has been paid off! That's right! This girl who's currently writing this post is the one who got satisfying scores these days.. i don't really know or understand how did i manage to do all these, it kind of just... happen?

Ah, another thing! since V has moved to my seat *yeay*, it's been.... hmmm... weird?

i mean, i'm glad she moved next to me, but since we talked so much.. i guess i kind of ignore my other seat mate... I AM SUCH A JERK>

But really, i don't really know what am i supposed to do when 2 people are talking to me at the same time== why can't they pick the timing right??? UGH

n now, i felt like extremely bad for the people i may have ignored accidentally=.=

i wish i could say i'm sorry to them... *sigh* why can't i be braver? SH*TTTTTTTT

yeah, i guess i'm kind of mad at myself now... i hope i can do better next week:(

SO now, i'm gonna brag about yesterday:)

so yesterday i was having a math course as usual and we were studying math..

and since i was too overly enthusiastic, i stayed til 7... dang, since when i became this diligent?LOL

but you know, all the hard work was paid off. i totally rocked the test! i hope i didn't make silly mistakes:3

And so, i've been feeling... weird and confuse these days... but also terribly happy... WOW right?:))) but most of these were caused by my stupid imagination... so...=3=

*the most unimportant and stupidest matter i've ever written*

Ah, another thing! I've also been obssessing to american idol and i already got my fav!!:))))) and it's Phil Phillips!!!!!! OMGOMGOMG he's gonna be the next american idol!! HE HAS TO BEE!

changing topic againn..

also, this week, i didn't hang out w/ my friends because of stupid courses:"( i got tons of em.. DANG COURSES! but then again, i will not survive in my study without these courses==

so maybe that's all for today.. i'm terribly sorry for making you to be bored by this post because even though i have nothing to write, i still wanna write somethingHEHEHE

so i guess this is goodnite?:>

CiaosuuuU!